i fell asleep around midnight, and i just woke up, and it smells like drugs in here again for the first time in a good while...

again: i don't smoke in the house. i *never* smoked in the house. i'm never going to smoke in the house. what i said changed nothing, but i'll repeat myself and clarify the point.

what i said was:

1) i brought a half a gram of pot back from toronto.
2) i smoked it in three small joints
3) i did not like the effects of what it did to me.

to begin with, when i say "i didn't like the effects of the drug", that's a strong indication that i don't want to smell it in the house. i didn't say "i smoked three pinners and i loved it and i'm a pothead now", i said "i smoked three pinners and it made me so tired that i slept for three days and i want that time i lost back.".

second, i did not smoke any of these pinners in or near the house. i took a walk and smoked them down the street as i indicated i did previously. as i have signed a non-smoking lease, i would expect the same respect from the upstairs tenant - i expect him to take a walk if he's going to smoke a pinner. but, he's not smoking pinners.

third, that was the first time i had pot in the house since april, and might be the last time i have pot in the house for another seven to eight months if i'm here that long. on average, one might expect me to buy a few grams a year, spaced out by distances of months, and to never, ever smoke in or near the house, ever.

i don't know why this issue continues to raise itself: i have never smoked anything in the house, and have consequently upheld my lease obligation. if i choose to smoke a pinner down the street every seven-eight months, that doesn't mean i should be condemned to live in an ashtray or a bong 24/7. this is why i signed the fucking lease: i don't want this. it's gross. and, i don't like being tired all of the time.

as it is, i am feeling a little tired and don't want to be. i wanted to be working, right now. so, i'm going to take another shower and hope it helps with the smell, which is just fucking gross.

again: i have not signaled any change of behaviour. there has been absolutely no combustion of marijuana or tobacco in the unit at all, whatsoever, and there never will be. i have and will continue to take all smokeables  a good distance from the house before combusting them. further, i have no plans to bring combustibles back  into the house any time soon. the december 1st date will have no meaningful effect on my habits, other than perhaps to move me to edibles, slowly. i want my living space to be free of drug and alcohol use. i always have, and i always will.

let's try a shower. ugh.