no, i need to double down on the point - i was never able to hold a job for more than a month due to my social skills in the past, and that's only no doubt gotten worse. there's no way at all i'd get anywhere in the world the way it is, nowadays. i'm not capable of adjusting to it, and i'd argue it reflects more poorly on the cultural values we're upholding right now, as a society, than it does on me. the world is a sick place...

i'm not sure i would have taken the job if i had been successful through the process, but the part of the process i failed at repeatedly when i went through the government hiring process about 15 years ago (when i first graduated from university) was what they call the "situational judgement" test. this is a test about how you react in conflicts at work; it's a social skills evaluation. and, you just have to pass it....

i failed this government social skills test not once, not twice but three times. so, i aced the iq test, but i could not pass the social skills tests, and you can't move forward unless you do.

see, and i was just baffled by it, on top of it. i just found it utterly mystifying. after the second fail, i went through practice tests, and it just didn't make the slightest sense to me - i just got it wrong over and over and over. and, the thing is that i was never able to understand why i was getting these questions wrong, or what the right answers were. you could give me the right answer, and i wouldn't understand it.

i went back to school in 2008, but i basically gave up on employment at that point. it just became clear to me that i was a fish out of water in the business or government worlds, and i'd have to figure something else out.

i expect it'd just be worse now than it was then - i don't get them, and they don't get me and it's better if we leave it at that.