i've finally got my bedroom more or less set up. i've been putting this off, but it's also become necessary now in order to clean the dust out of here, and seal up some holes. it does feel comfortable and homey in here now for the first time.

i will get some pictures up in the coffee table book. the bedroom is smaller than the upstairs apartment, but about the same size as the last basement, except i don't have a closet in this bedroom, so i moved a small writing or work desk in. when i get back to work on the discography...

actually, maybe we should have this talk right now.

where was i when i left off? it doesn't even matter anymore.

i'm going to put it like this. when i lost my studio in 2011, i was back to work again by mid 2013, although i lost about six months to the need to find a bus pirate. i therefore only lost 2.5 years, tops.

now, in 2026, i have been having difficulty focusing since 2018. some of it is my fault, but most of it isn't. i was in fact working on the writing from 2018 to the early months of 2023, which is when the situation became dire, and i have essentially lost 2023, 2024 and 2025. i cannot lose 2026.

i intentionally started over in 2014 because i had been planning on doing that and it was the only thing that made sense. i am back at that point in 2026, but with a dramatically expanded scope. in 2014, i was just finishing my demos and compositions. in 2026, i now have video, writing, image, http and other components to tie together into a full multimedia concept. my discography is no longer a stack of 200 audio cds, but is now a single external hard drive full of disparate media types integrated with each other.

so, i will need to start at the start, with the childhood journal dated to 1989, and just do it. at this point, there's no other possible approach.