when you target somebody in that way, it's called harassment.

and, i'm not interested in the specious theories of contemporary social scientists. what i am interested in is existing legal precedent and case law in the context of the western legal tradition, and those are the arguments you will hear from me in return - whether they enrage and offend you or not.

they took the age restriction down when i appealed.

if anybody knows who is making these frivolous complaints, let me know. 

one of the complaints is that they're letting the "big box" stores stay open. and, i mean, think it through.

how many thousands or tens of thousand of people go through your average walmart per day? do you think that's going up or down with everything else closed?

and, how many go to a small shop somewhere, or a pub or a restaurant?

what is promoting spread, here? 

does it make more sense to send everybody to the same couple of stores or does it make more sense to spread people out?

if they were serious, they'd close the big stores and leave the little ones open. right?

it's for show - it's political theatre. because people are scared, and need the nanny state to protect them. they have to 'do something'.

but, it's not acceptable - we must stand not with the business owners, but with the customers trying to exist. it's the right to enjoy a meal with your friends or family that is important here, not the bottom line of the restaurant owners.

listen - i understand that this is a scary, challenging time for people that are at risk of this virus. but, they need to take responsibility for their own risk factors - they need to stay out of bad situations, and they need to tell people that might harm them to stay the fuck away from them. it's on them; nobody will do it for them.

and, the state needs to concern itself with things that will make a substantive difference, not telling young & healthy people that they can't eat chicken wings together in a public place because it might spread to somebody at risk that hasn't taken the necessary precautions.

life's hard.

people die if they're dumb. that's a constant, not restricted to the current moment.

i'd rather hand out darwin awards.

good. this is long overdue and the kind of dissent we need right now.

i'm finding myself with strange allies recently, it is true. but, i don't fault myself for it. the spectrum is truly in flux.

i am still a communist. that hasn't changed. i'm just more disenfranchised than i used to be, and less willing to identify a lesser evil than i once was - because the establishment left has truly become indiscernible from the establishment right. 

it's really a return of class as a political identity marker, even as the establishment types reject it more and more. they can reject it all they want - they're just rejecting the simple truth right in front of their noses.

and, it's actually up to people like me to organize these folks. 

is it much different than it was 150 years ago? or 50 years ago? the left has always had this problem with the political orientation of workers being less than ideal. what's happened is that the bourgeoisie has managed to masquerade as a fake left by playing itself off against a fascist, aristocratic hard right, and that has confused a lot of people, at the supposed end of history.

but, history's still going, as far as i can tell. and, leftist organizers face the same challenges that they always did.

they are fundamentally correct to resist and the right thing to do is stand with them. these restrictions are neither necessary nor effective, they are political repression. 

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/toronto/adamson-bbq-toronto-indoor-dining-lockdown-1.5815715

they put an age restriction on this, which is just censorship.

i can understand why some people might not like this - and that's fine, i don't like them, either - but there's nothing age specific about it.

it's actually a very correct deconstruction of the mistakes people make about this song.

there's a post coming for the pasta bowl, but what about the seeds and peels of the items i'm eating now? 

we already talked about banana peels (which i decided were just too filling to eat) and capsicum seeds (which i still have a stash of in the fridge). i'm also leaning towards grinding up guava seeds. but, let's be more systematic in trying to figure out how to consume these items, if i'm going to at all. i'm wondering, for example, if baking avocado peels or seeds and adding it to the pasta bowl is a good idea - that way i could eat the avocado fruit for breakfast, and use the peel for lunch. that might even help keep costs down by removing something else. so, how can i be resourceful about this, in ensuring i'm getting maximum nutrition for minimal cost?

avocado

if you search for information about avocado pits, you'll see a lot of poorly written articles, arguing one thing or the other. they all want to tell a narrative about how they're "unsafe" or "harmless" or "healthy", but none of them provide much data to back up their claims.

it took quite a while for me to find this article:

https://pdfs.semanticscholar.org/3e21/cdcf5bef6f698852634628e6636903ad9bbb.pdf

i was hoping it might have some more vitamin e and maybe some b5 in it, it is after all a seed, but it really doesn't seem like it.

so, should we eat avocado seeds? are they "safe"? i'm going to have to argue that they're just not that nutritious - that all you're going to get out of a 20 g seed is a decent shot of vitamin c, which is just going to get destroyed if you try to cook it, which is likely necessary to get around the persin.

likewise, i can't find any useful data about avocado peels, although what i've learned is that you'd better cook them good if you want to think about eating them. so, for example, you could consider baking them, or perhaps frying them. but, i'm not seeing any good reason to, at this point. while it is true that they appear to be high in polyphenols, and that is what most of the research seems to be focused on, these are the types of antioxidants that we can't absorb. so, you'd have to crush it up and inject it, or it won't do anything at all. on top of that, frying or baking has the potential to destroy whatever might be useful.

so, i'd like to find a use for these extra avocado parts, but it seems like i'm going to have to just dump them in the woods. unfortunately...

guava

i've been putting the guava seeds (and the syrup they're housed in) in the freezer for about a month now, and i have a full margarine container of them, at this point. i was hoping to grind them up, but i'm again not seeing any reason to think that would be helpful. these seeds are very, very hard and the only research i've found is, again, about things like polyphenols and "essential oils". if there are any vitamins, i can't prove it - so i don't see the use in bothering.

what i think i should do is begin to dissolve this part of the fruit in a solution of water and then strain the seeds out to discard them. i can do this as i'm preparing the meal; i should be able to get a small, usable strainer the next time i go shopping.

again: if you have any links to studies exploring the nutritional content of the seeds, let me know. but, the fact that they're tiny and rock hard suggests to me that they'd be hard to study. i guess you'd have to dry them out and grind them up into a powder, but what seems to be done instead is press them into an oil - which just leaves things that aren't that useful.

banana

as analyzed previously, banana peels do seem to offer some benefits, but they're just too fattening. i couldn't get through the smoothie - it just filled me up. nor am i in need of vitamin e, anymore - i solved that. i'm also getting enough potassium, it seems. that said, doing another scouring run through google has brought up the issue of lutein, which appears to be of legitimate value (along with the other obscure carotenoids) and seems to be quite high in the peels, when they're still yellow. i'm going to guess you could probably even leach it out and drink it. that's a real possibility, even if i haven't decided on it yet.

strawberry

again - i wish i could find better data, not just poorly written websites that provide anecdotes and narratives. i would imagine that strawberry leaves are high in vitamin k and vitamin c, but i can't prove it. it could be a useful add to the pasta bowl, if not the fruit bowl.

and, with that, i think i can start clearing some things out of the freezer.

what should they do in france?

well, i'm actually more or less on board with shutting down the religious schools, and would support that done here, too. i've long supported the abolition of the catholic school system in ontario, and would support a total ban on all religion in schools. i would agree that this is a big part of the problem; there needs to be a stronger focus on secularizing children, and helping them evolve past the faith of their parents. get to 'em when they're young.

again: i'm a socialist. we're like that. "religious liberty" is a conservative idea. on the left, we think that religion is organized ignorance and that smashing through it is a necessity to move forward, as a society. the question is what the best way to do it is, and most of us realize that you need to be careful, because if you're too tyrannical about it, it just backfires. but, leftists have never supported ideas about the rights of individuals to worship in freedom - that has always been a right-wing idea. what the left has always concerned itself with is what approach to eliminating religion is going to work - we want to succeed in destroying religion, once and for all. and, we're not just saying that. we really do.

one is not free to worship; religion is organized slavery. one emancipates themselves from religion. so, "religious freedom" is orwellian doublethink. religion and freedom simply cannot co-exist.

so, i can at least get behind the things he's doing in the schools, to an extent. i haven't seen the details.

but, there seems to be a common theme regarding the violence in france - it's not coming from kids that are raised in france (whatever their origin, or whatever the religion of their parents), but rather from very recent immigrants. the issue in austria was different, and maybe an outlier......and it will be impossible to eliminate all religious violence, as well. let's set our bounds here - freedom of thought means the right to be retarded. so, you're going to have idiots and you can't prevent it...

but, case after case in france shows that the problem is that the immigration policies are simply too lax. they seem to let anybody in. and, some of the people that get there seem to undergo extreme culture shocks, and lash out in violence.

despite attempts to suggest otherwise, none of these attacks seem to be organized. rather, they seem to reflect the extreme levels of alienation experienced by muslim immigrants into a society that broadly doesn't care much for it's values. and, that's actually not that hard of a problem to solve.

1) they need better screening. if you ask people certain things, you may be surprised - and appalled - by what they tell you. maybe it's time to stop assuming people have universal values and are fundamentally good and ask them what they think about specific things, instead. and, maybe it's ok to judge them for it, if you don't like it.

2) they need better integration. not just social systems (which are no doubt drastically underfunded in the neo-liberal period), but social workers. people to call new immigrants and ask them how they're doing. places for them to meet, and people to help them fit in and explain how things are different in france than they are in the places they come from.

3) they need exit strategies to help people leave if they decide that it's too much, they don't like it and they want to go home.

but, they cannot waver.

and, i will continue to stand with the french republic, even as i criticize them for reacting poorly. we must not let the mistakes of a foolish leader undo solidarity for the system that birthed the modern world. the french will get through this - and we must stand with them, not with the enemy.

while i would actually support rather extreme action taken directly against religion in france, it's been clear from the start that this wasn't what macron intended to do.

this is frustrating. macron is saying many of the right things and identifying many of the right things that need to be done, but then when you look at what he's actually doing, he's just playing right into the hands of the muslims, christians and other fascists. 

it's almost enough to make you wonder if he's getting pay checks from the saudis, and if this is all a false flag to bring in islamic rule.

needless to say, i oppose virtually all of this.

https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2020/11/france-about-become-less-free/617195/

i mean, what if this was actually a serious health issue?

we'd be dying in the streets, because we closed the vaccine factories down in a fit of absolute stupidity and reckless corporate greed.

we will need to pry this kool-aid out of their cold, dead hands.

if ours don't end up cold and dead, first.

in fact, this is one of the laundry list issues i remember citing during alter-globalization protests in the 90s.

turns out we were right.

again.

but, why did it take six months to put the kool-aid down? and, did they even put the kool-aid down, or did they just hide it under the blanket, like the kool-aid addicts that they are?

if they don't learn from this, we're hopelessly screwed.

https://nationalpost.com/news/canada/trudeau-warns-covid-19-vaccine-will-come-later-to-canada-than-other-countries

openly defying these fascist laws in this way is the kind of leadership we need right now. let's hope it inspires others to disobey, as well, and leads to a mass movement against these restrictions.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/toronto/covid-19-coronavirus-ontario-november-24-numbers-update-1.5813941

lol.

this karen's not the brightest. she just made a complete ass out of herself, and it could be exactly what i needed to take a longshot money grab - this is a lot of money for me, if maybe not for her - from a hail mary to a calculated, carefully executed brady completion.

i'll need some good luck, still.

but, i'm almost there.

a few more entitled eruptions like that and the judge'll give me everything i want.

the karen wants an exception.

of course.

this is the first part.

it's actually the second part that this is really about, as the dressing is going to have around twenty ingredients. the pasta chart is going to be crowded, on it's own.

but, this is far more readable, and this will be far more useful in the long run:

		fruit bowl (12:00)															coffee
		guava raw cut 1-2 30 g	banana raw cut 1 118 g	straw berry raw cut 4-8 100 g	avocado raw cut 2 150 g	kiwi raw cut 1 69 g	van soy milk light 1.6 cups 400 ml	cherry ice cream 1 scoop 150 ml (82.5 g)	cherry yogurt 2 tbsp 50 g	nut yeast 1 tsp 3+ g	vector cereal 1/4 cup 15 g	all bran 3/4 cup 45 g	ground flax seed 1 tbsp 7 g	algal oil 1 tsp	sum	bounds	coffee 1 cup 350 ml	choc soy 50 ml	total
	raison d'etre	b5,8 c s	b5,7  b20 c mn	b5,9 c s mn	b3,5,7 b8,9,16 b20,c,e k1,f1,s k	b5,8 b20 c,e k1 s	a b3,4,5 b7,9,12 b16,20 d,f1,f2 ca	a b5,7 b12,13 b16,20 k2	a b5 b12 b20	b1,2 b3,4 b5,6 b7,9 b12 b16	a b5,7,9 b15,20 e	b3,5,7 b8,9,15 b16,20 e,f1 mg,p,k fe,cu,zn	b7 f2	f3 f4
	calories	20.4	105	32	240	42	96	168	17.5	11.25	59.2	125	37.4	-	953.75	<1000	0	32	985.75
	cost	.40	.15	.77	.96	.39	.99	.43	.19	.13	.14	.39	.04	-	$4.98	<$3.33??	.10	.12	$5.20
v i t a m i n l i k e c o m p o u n d s	a retinol (900 μg rae)	9.3 μg	3.54 μg	1 μg	10.5 μg	2.76 μg	16 %	9.6 %	3 %	0	~ 4.0909 %	0	0	-	35.5 r:32.5 c:3	30<r<100	0	r:2 %	37.5 r:34.5 c:3
	b1 thiamin (1.2 mg)	.0201 mg	.037 mg	.024 mg	.101 mg	.019 mg	12.8 %	0.033825 mg	3 %	155.625 %	~ 5.4545 %	75 %	.115 mg	-	281 u:29	>125	4 %	1.5 %	286.5
	b2 [g, j] riboflavin (1.3 mg)	.012 mg	.086 mg	.022 mg	.195 mg	.017 mg	40 %	.198 mg	5 %	144.375 %	~ 6.5454 %	12.5 %	.011 mg	-	250 u:41.5	>131	20.5 %	5 %	275.5%
	b3 niacin (16 mg)	.3252 mg	.785 mg	.386 mg	2.61 mg	.235 mg	16 %	.0957 mg	.059 mg	65.625 %	~ 9.8181 %	31.25 %	.216 mg	-	152 n:60.5 f:91.5	>125 f<200	4 %	2 %	158 n:64.5 f:93.5
	b4* adenine (75 mg)	?	1.416 mg	0.5 mg	15.9 mg	?	30.88 mg	1.9449375 mg	1.025 mg	49.38 mg	0.6 mg	1.8 mg	?	-	138	>100	?	5 %	143
	b5 pantothenic acid (5 mg)	.1353 mg	.394 mg	.125 mg	2.08 mg	.126 mg	24 %	0.479325 mg	.194 mg	2.25 %	~ 5.1818 %	10 %	.069 mg	-	113.5 u:72	>110	18 %	3 %	134.5
	b6 pyridoxine (1.7 mg)	.033 mg	.433 mg	.047 mg	.386 mg	.043 mg	9.6 %	.0396 mg	.029 mg	133.125 %	~ 6.8181 %	12.5 %	.033 mg	-	223 u:61	>118	0	1 %	224
	b7 [h] biotin (35 μg)	? μg	1.652 μg	0.8 μg	7.95 μg	.966 μg	15.6 μg	2.145 μg	1 μg	45 %	~ 23.3766 %	7.515 μg	2.52 μg	-	183 u:114.5	>171	0	5.5	188.5
	b8* inositol (1000 mg)	30 mg	0 mg	13 mg	69 mg	93.84 mg	27.552 mg	7.425 mg	8 mg	14.85 mg	.75 mg	123.3 mg	13.65 mg	-	40	>30	0	1	41
	b9 [m, b11, r] folic acid (400 μg dfe)	14.7 μg	23.6 μg	24 μg	122 μg	17.2 μg	n:9.6 f:0 %	4.125 μg	1 μg	35.625 %	~ 9.2727 %	12.5 %	6.09 μg	-	120 n:62.5 f:57.5	>100 f<133	1.75 %	1.25 %	123
	b12 [t] cobalamin (2.4 μg)	0	0	0	0	0	80 %	.6435 μg	7.5 %	187.5 %	0	0	0	-	301.5 n:34 f:267.5	>250 n>30	0	10 %	311.5 n:34 f:277.5
	b13* orotic acid (10 mg)	-	-	-	-	-	-	12.890625 mg	2.578125 mg	-	-	-	-	-	155	>100	-	-	155
	b14* taurine (100 mg)	0	0	0	0	0	0	1.5675 mg	1.65 mg	0	0	0	0	-	3.2	t:>120 --->	-	-	--->
	b15* betaine (550 mg)	0.03 mg	.118 mg	.2 mg	1.05 mg	.345 mg	3.2 mg	.9075 mg	.35 mg	0	25.5 mg	162 mg	.217 mg	-	35	>30	~ 0	~ 0	35
	b16* choline (550 mg)	2.28 mg	11.6 mg	5.7 mg	21.3 mg	5.38 mg	96 mg	21.45 mg	8 mg	12.3 mg	2.85 mg	22.05 mg	5.51 mg	-	39	>30	~ 1.68 %	~ 2.23 %	43
	b20* [I] l-carnitine (29 mg)	.06 mg	.236 mg	0 mg	1.95 mg	.138 mg	.24 mg	3.3 mg	2.0 mg	.072 mg	.225 mg	.675 mg	.0357 mg	-	30.5	30>s>35	0	0	30.5
	c ascorbate (90 mg)	68.4 mg	10.3 mg	58.8 mg	15 mg	64 mg	0	0	0	0	~ 6.8181 %	0	.042 mg	-	247 u:240.5	>234	0	0	247
	d calciferol (15 μg)	0	0	0	0	0	d2: 72 %	d3: .165 μg	d3: 7.5 %	0	d3: ~ 1.6363 %	0	0	-	82 u:1.1 d2:72 d3:10	>40	0	d2: 9 %	91 d2:81 d3:10
	e alpha- tocopherol (15 mg)	.219 mg	.118 mg	.29 mg	3.1 mg	1.01 mg	.24 mg	.2475 mg	0 mg	0 mg	~ 9.8181 %	.5355 mg	0.022 mg	-	48 n:38.5	>40 n>30	0	0	48 n:38.5
	f1* linoleic acid (17 g)	.0864 g	.0543 g	.09 g	2.511 g	.17 g	2.24 g	.226875 g	0	0	~ .32727 g	.837 g	.414	-	6.95684772727 g 40.9%	>30	0	.4 g 2.35%	7.35684772727 g 43.25%
	f2* alpha linolenic acid (1.6 g)	.0336 g	.0319 g	.065 g	.167 g	.029 g	.32 g	.144375 g	0	0	~ .05454 g	.0639 g	1.597 g	-	2.50632045454 g 156.67 %	>30	0	.06 g 3.75%	2.56632045454 g 160.42%
	f3* eicosa pentaenoic acid (0.375 g)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	+	30+	-	-	-	-
	f4* docosa hexaenoic acid (0.250 g)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	+	30+	-	-	-	-
	f1:(f2+f3+f4) ratio	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	2.775	-	-	-	2.867
	k1 phyllo quinone  (120 μg)	.78 μg	.59 μg	2.2 μg	31.5 μg	27.8 μg	11.712 μg	.2475 μg	.1 μg	0	.136 μg	2.34 μg	.301 μg	-	65	30<s<67	0	1	66
	k2 mena quinone  (180 μg)	0	0	0	0	0	0	~ 55.85 μg	~ 0 μg	0	0	0	0	0	31	30<s<67	0	0	31
	k1+k2	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	96	90<s<110	0	0	96
	s* salicylic acid (10 mg)	.606 mg	0	1.36 mg	.9 mg	.2208 mg	0	0.085 mg	.0425 mg	.024 mg	0	0	0	0	32	>30	17.5 %	0	49.5
e l e m e n t s	f fluorine (4000 μg)	-	2.6 μg	4.4 μg	10.5 μg	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-		17.5 μg 0.44 %	-	-	-	-
	na sodium (1500 mg)	.6 mg	1.18 mg	1 mg	10.5 mg	2.07 mg	48 mg	54 mg	27.5 mg	5.625 mg	~ 56.2 mg	237.5 mg	2.1 mg	-	446 29.75%	-	-	-	-
	mg magnesium (420 mg)	6.6 mg	31.9 mg	13 mg	43.5 mg	11.7 mg	32 %	-	-	.9 %	~ 5.45 %	62.5 %	27.4 mg	-	133	-	-	-	-
	p phosphorus (1250 mg)	12 mg	26 mg	24 mg	78 mg	23.5 mg	16 %	-	4 %	3 %	~ 3.55 %	37.5 %	44.9 mg	-	80.5	-	-	-	-
	s sulfur (?)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-
	cl chlorine (2.3 g)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	.3 %	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-
	k potassium (3400 mg)	125.1 mg	422 mg	153 mg	728 mg	215 mg	368 mg	-	90 mg	~ 64.13 mg	~ 43.1 mg	475 mg	56.9 mg	-	2740.23 80.6%	-	-	-	-
	ca calcium (1300 mg)	5.4 mg	5.9 mg	16 mg	18 mg	23.5 mg	48 %	4.8 %	5 %	0	~ .818 %	5 %	17.8 mg	-	70	-	-	-	-
	cr chromium (.035 mg)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-
	mn manganese (2.3 mg)	.045 mg	.319 mg	.386 mg	.213 mg	.068 mg	-	-	-	.9 %	~ .3 mg	-	.174 mg	-	53	-	-	-	-
	fe iron (18 mg)	.078 mg	.307 mg	.41 mg	.825 mg	.214 mg	16 %	-	0	.1875 mg	~ 8.45 %	43.75 %	.401 mg	-	81.5	-	-	-	-
	cu copper (.9 mg)	.069 mg	.092 mg	.048 mg	.285 mg	.09 mg	-	-	-	1.2 %	~ .136 mg	.468 mg	.085 mg	-	143	-	-	-	-
	zn zinc (11 mg)	.069 mg	.177 mg	.14 mg	.96 mg	.097 mg	16 %	-	-	3.75 %	~ 13.6 %	31.25 %	.304 mg	-	80.5	-	-	-	-
	se selenium (55 μg)	.18 μg	1.18 μg	.4 μg	.6 μg	.138 μg	-	-	-	6 %	-	4.23 μg	1.78 μg	-	21.5	-	-	-	-
	mo molybdenum (.045 mg)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	16.05 %	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-
	i iodine (.15 mg)	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	~ 15.8 %	-	-	-	-	-	-	-	-

i will continue to post them all together, but this is a quick update for now.

there's an overhaul coming.

i just can't fit everything on one line anymore, so i'm splitting it into four charts - one for each meal, and then a summation table at the end.

it could take a day or two, but i'll post each chart separately as it comes up.

note to the unwanted editor: i am rounding down on purpose.

stop rounding up. it's unwanted.

if there's anything wrong with me, it's not going to be fixed by giving me drugs - we need a proletariat revolution to fix what's wrong with me.

because it's not me that there's something wrong with.

it's you that there's something wrong with.

once again: leaving the house and coming back in has rendered me oppressively tired, leading me to suspect that somebody is essentially poisoning my food supply when i'm out. it might be the water, it might be the coffee, etc - i don't know. i know it's consistent - i am useless for several days when i get in, and it is clearly connected to the food.

i don't know what they're putting in there. it might even be one of these "anti-depressants", which are really just, functionally, quackery.

so, let it be stated here that the only effect i'm feeling is oppressive drowsiness.

and i hate it.

fuck off.

well, churches are major vectors of spread and bars aren't.

https://globalnews.ca/video/7478419/b-c-faith-leader-pushes-back-against-covid-19-restrictions/

and, i filed my form 10.

let's hope it's that easy.

see, i know the fuckers are going to make it worse, at least until they can make it better. that's ultimately what i think this guy did - i think he painted something over certain parts of my gumline, and what it did was trap bacteria inside. then, when it wore off, it exposed a nasty mess. it's exactly the places he filled in that need attention...

why would a dentist do that? because it's a way to turn an unprofitable customer into a profitable one. it's essentially setting me up for the need to do drilling.

the other thing i need to draw attention to is that windsor doesn't fluoridate it's water, and that may have something to do with why it seemed to get worse when i moved here. fuck...

but, like i say: my teeth are getting to the end of their lives. they're getting old; they're breaking down. filling them in with resin could extend their use, and maybe even make them stronger. and, that's how i need to look at it - not attack myself for failing to prevent something that's virtually unpreventable.

40 years old before i got my first filling. that's not bad...

ugh.

i don't want to go to the dentist....

the way i need to look at this, i think, is not that i've failed at dental hygiene because i need the attention of a dentist, but rather that anything that is put into my mouth is an improvement over a system that is insufficiently evolved to last into middle age.

i shouldn't be hard on myself.

i think i did everything right....

it just doesn't matter: your teeth are going to eventually require attention, no matter how well you take care of them.

it's not a fail, it's an improvement. i just need to keep telling myself that.

ultimately, the biggest problem with my teeth is probably the dehumidifier. again - lack of humidity causes cavities. and, i've realized that for a while - my mouth tends to feel a lot better when i drink more water, and tends to get worse in the winter than in the summer.

like, i just flossed for the first time in i don't know how long, and you'd think i'd be pulling out globs of shit, right?

nope.

nothing on the floss.

at all.

it left a mild odour that appears to have been from dislodged bacteria, and i wonder if it might even be a bad idea to dislodge it....

now that i'm pretty confident that the smoking is done with at least, if i can get a good clean, maybe i can prolong the inevitable.

but, i'm resigned to the reality of it - my teeth have run their course and the need to replace them is a consequence of the expanding lifespans of humans.

our teeth just aren't intended to last for 100 years.

we're just not evolved for that - average lifespan until very recently was under 40. that's how long they're supposed to last for, at most.

so, you basically need to get them replaced at some point if you intend to live past 40, and we should all resign ourselves to that.

see, this is just one example.

everything i've read for years has suggested that the entire concept of dental hygiene is largely futile, especially if you're a coffee drinker or a smoker (which i was, but am not anymore). make sure you don't misunderstand this: this isn't saying that you can have healthy gums, even if you don't floss. what it's saying is that you're probably going to get gum disease anyways, even if you do floss - that, in the face of every other risk factor, flossing is largely a waste of time.

i don't bother, and never have.

that said, i think i should probably look into some alternatives to flossing that may work a little better.

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2016/aug/02/dental-floss-proof-works-guidelines-dropped

ultimately, i'm embarrassed by the realization that i need to see a dentist. 

dentists are for dumb people that don't take care of themselves.

but, i shouldn't be. it's normal, at my age.

it's capitalism.

it ruins everything.

i basically think dentists are a bunch of hucksters and charlatans that are driven by profit first and foremost, and i rarely take much of what they say seriously. my defenses come up very quickly...and i'm actually unusually careful about it, as a result of it.

it's the lack of regulation, in the system - dentists, in canada, are not really treated like doctors, they're more treated like auto mechanics. and, the result is that they'll rip you off in all of the same ways.

the last time i had work done in ottawa, which involved filling in the holes between my gumline and my teeth with some kind of resin, he told me immediately afterwards "don't go to another dentist". and, that's when i knew i'd made a terrible mistake. 

it's been years, and i'm coming to terms with the reality that he fucked up my gumline and i'm going to need to have it fixed. that's the business model, of course - they keep you coming back, that way.

so, i've got an appointment this week. and i'm going to have to finally accept it - i'm almost 40 (two months, now), teeth aren't infinite, cavities are inevitable and i have to adjust to the realities of aging.

i've never had a cavity. well...i have cavities, right now. i've never had one diagnosed or filled...

it's a bit of an identity thing. cavities are for dumb kids with bad diets and poor hygiene; i'd never get one. and, that may have been true for however many years, up to whatever age. but, time catches up to you, eventually.

what happened the last time i went through this is that i saw the $$ in their eyes and i ran off.

and, they very well may scare me off, again.

but, i need some work done.

how far we have fallen into conservatism and backwardsness when dancing at a mall is once again an act of dissent, subversion and revolt.

solidarity.

https://montreal.ctvnews.ca/police-break-up-maskless-dance-gathering-in-quebec-shopping-mall-1.5200212

i see no evidence that this has come to a vote at this point.

so, i would call on the liberals - if not the greens and ndp - to vote against this.

and, i would encourage the liberals to even consider triggering an election over it. 

i can tell you i'll never see them the same way again if they vote for this.

something else quebeckers may want to contemplate is how long bilingualism will last as a concept outside of quebec if quebec takes aggressive steps to eliminate it in quebec.

it doesn't seem reasonable to expect ontario to continue to offer services in french, if quebec takes this type of stance.

and, that is a bad outcome - it promotes the kind of division that bilingualism was intended to prevent.

see, something like this is fine.

it's one thing to test you. and, i'm generally in favour of bilingualism as a principle, and fine with passing laws requiring bilingualism as a job skill. but, what the caq wants to do (and all parties are supporting, it seems) is stamp out bilingualism in quebec (and in montreal, specifically) and replace it with rules that demand you must speak in french.

it's one thing to insist that workers can speak french, if they're asked to. that's a fairly liberal requirement, so long as people are then given the right to decide what language they choose to speak in.

it's another to demand that you must speak in french. that is not liberal at all - that is nazism.

and, they all supported it. 

all of them.

see, something like this is fine.

it's one thing to test you. and, i'm generally in favour of bilingualism as a principle, and fine with passing laws requiring bilingualism as a job skill. but, what the caq wants to do (and all parties are supporting, it seems) is stamp out bilingualism in quebec (and in montreal, specifically) and replace it with rules that demand you must speak in french.

it's one thing to insist that workers can speak french, if they're asked to. that's a fairly liberal requirement, so long as people are then given the right to decide what language they choose to speak in.

it's another to demand that you must speak in french. that is not liberal at all - that is nazism.

and, they all supported it. 

all of them.

https://www.yorktonthisweek.com/bloc-to-promote-bill-on-french-language-proficiency-for-new-citizens-1.24241298

so, what i actually did last night was make a snap decision to get a final grocery run in before the end of the month. i got into a fight with a store about taking pennies at the end - they're legal tender, they are obligated to take them, technically. i mean, it's all money, what's the difference? i just wanted to get rid of them (they weren't even going to cover the whole purchase, i would have had to use my debit card for the rest of it), but i was going to try a different store, just out of principle, when some random dude decided to buy the guavas for me instead. i just said thank you, accepted the good fortune and bolted...

i took a shower when i got in, and it's taken some time to wash and store. so, i effectively lost the night.

i need to do the court stuff first - i actually don't expect it to be time consuming. it's two forms.

to be clear: i don't care if the french language is under threat or not, and refuse to concede the relevance of the point regarding the constitutionality of the law.

i'm not getting into a debate about that - it's irrelevant.

the law does not exist, whether the french language is under threat or not. although, i may suggest that population replacement (in conjunction with immigration control) is a better idea than fascism. and, i may ask the french people to reflect if perhaps their behaviour has something to do with the language dying off - forcing people to speak your language by gunpoint perhaps isn't the best tactic for wider adoption. you might find they tend to resist.

it does not exist now, it did not exist in the past and it will not exist in the future.

carry on.

that law does not actually exist and no pretense to it's existence should be entertained.

every party in the house of commons has apparently voted in favour of a blatantly unconstitutional law that purports to regulate what language business can be conducted in in the province of quebec.

did i wake up in fucking iran, or what?

this is what i mean when i claim i'm disenfranchised...

needless to say, such a law is without force and must be disobeyed by all at once.

...and what a traitor.

charge him with treason.

what a weak, spineless, yellow-bellied piece of shit this man is.

pierre may have left justin his sperm, but he didn't leave him his balls.

what a pussy.

well, i don't know if this passed or not.

but, if trudeau still wants an election, this is a principled issue to force one over.

i refuse to believe that the liberal party supports bill 101, randomly, out of nowhere, all of a sudden. trudeau went rogue and is talking strictly out of his ass.

https://www.macleans.ca/opinion/quebec-puts-the-heat-back-on-trudeau/

bill 101 is a vicious affront to freedom of expression, is a stain on this country's history and should be abolished immediately.

the liberals support bill 101, now?

when did that happen?

was there any debate?

i'd like to see a poll done in caucus on this one. i suspect that the dauphin "misspoke" and you'll see a retraction pretty soon - that's a baffling reversal in position.