Sunday, November 19, 2017

yes, i would trust al franken before i trusted leann tweedon.

and, you should give your head a shake if you would say otherwise, and don't think barack obama was born in kenya.

if you do think barack obama was born in kenya, i can't fault you for it, though.

'cause that's something else she's gone on the news and said is true. and, no, i don't think she believes it actually is.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

republishing inri061

this is the second of two lengthy singles to come out of tracks that were begun in 2002 and not completed to my liking. the mixes in this single chart this song's rather elaborate development over fifteen years, with the first disc consisting of historical versions and the next two discs consisting of finished mixes.

it became clear through the course of july, 2002 that rabit is wolf wasn't really going anywhere and i was better off cutting my losses. we jammed a few times, but it wasn't really serious.

this track was initially written as a folk punk song, but i jumped to the scorewriter with it almost immediately. the expanded guitar demo was written in a scorewriter and then performed, rather than vice versa. it was initially less about explicitly creating a techno song and more about ordering the parts in a way that could be deconstructed more effectively. i wanted a more flexible approach to production that would allow me to take tracks in and out based on sean's input.

i may have gone over this in this space before, but my mixing process up to that point was considerably unconventional. i would record tracks in one by one using a wave editor and then paste them on top of each other. i worked this way because i just didn't have more advanced tools. while there are benefits to this approach (it's additive synthesis, which blurs the mix for soundscaping), it meant that each additional track was destructive. i could not remove tracks once they were added. this meant sean was unable to provide much input into demos i sent to him.

i also picked up a copy of cakewalk to help with this, but i quickly learned that my system couldn't really handle it. at around eight tracks, it just became unresponsive. with less than eight tracks, it didn't matter if the mix was destructive because it was easily reconstructed. so, i went back to the wave editor approach until 2007, when i upgraded to a modern pc.

the taiko drum part was initially just to keep time; it wasn't supposed to be a part of the song. but, as i built it up i began to realize how interesting it sounded as a techno tune and sort of ran with it. once i'd notated it, i had to convert the drums into a soundscape because the midi render just wasn't good enough. this was done using a mix of software drum machines, midi snippets and isolated jimmy chamberlain samples. i then performed the score i had notated, with the exception of a few synths which were sequenced back. unfortunately, the midi file for the synth build up at the beginning of the track has been lost.

the mix never came out well, partly due to ram issues with cakewalk and partly because i got a little pretentious with some of the parts. i was also extremely distracted over this period. despite this all being done to make sean's input more easily integrated into the material, he had no interest in the direction i took it and basically put his nose up at it again. i attempted a few different things over late 2002 and early 2003 to try and salvage it for my own purposes, but in the end i shelved it as unworkable.

when i first set up the bandcamp site around 2010, i realized i had a collection of tracks that fit a sort of techno-guitar description and compiled them together under the name "tetris". i uploaded an incomplete mix for that project, but it was never really done and i never really felt good about it.

it wasn't until late 2014 that i came back to the track, to authoritatively finish my discography. first, a mix was reconstructed from source to include all of the existing sound files. next, three separate sequencer mixes were sculpted out of the score - a jazz fusion mix, an overture mix and an ambient mix. pieces of these sequencer mixes were then isolated and mixed into the reconstructed original mix. finally, a series of extra lead guitar parts were recorded and mixed separately into a final mix and the orchestral mix, creating the end result and an accompanying guitar concerto. the recording process for this was very lengthy, which was ironically partly due to consistent distractions.

this release was revisited in november, 2017 as a part of the process of finalizing period 2 and was expanded from two to three discs through the addition of multiple supplementary mixes.

i've included the midi file of the original composition, if you'd like to mess with it on your own.

written over the summer of 2002 and initially recorded in the early fall of 2002. additional recording, production and mixing occurred from dec, 2014 to apr, 2015. initial final completion occurred on april 27, 2015. however, eight more supplementary remixes were added to the release over nov 17-nov 19, 2017 to expand it into a three disc set. disc finalized on nov 19, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

the album version of the track (track 7) also appears on my sixth record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2002, 2014, 2015, 2017).
 

credits

released September 15, 2002

j - guitars, effects, bass, synthesizers, drum sampling, drum programming, sequencing, sound design, soundscaping, digital wave editing

the various rendered electronic orchestras include electric bass, synth bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, acoustic guitar, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, harp, koto, french horn, trombone, trumpet, tuba, english horn, flute, oboe, piccolo, clarinet, bassoon, synthesizers, piano, glockenspiel, vibraphone, hammered percussion, music box, tubular bells, bells, agogo, wood blocks, marimba, melodic toms, timpani, taiko drum, backwards cymbals, synth drums, orchestral drum set and choir. 



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i'm going to repeat this statement.

if there's one politician in america right now that the elite of the elite, the real bastards, could take out, it would not be bernie sanders, it would be al franken.

to the real power elite, he is the most dangerous politician in america, right now.

and, that is why my spidey senses immediately started tingling.

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i don't know anything about hollywood. so, i don't know who is being targetted here and who is legitimately guilty of something.

i'd never heard of harvey weinstein before. but, these accusations seem pretty substantial, and pretty cross-referenced.

i know who kevin spacey is from his work in the 90s, but i've never seen house of cards before. i've heard of it by title only. i've never taken the time to look into what it's about. and, i don't have friends, or a job, so i don't even have the benefit of overhearing people talk about it. i don't know what the topic of the show is, or what kind of character spacey plays. might powerful people want to get rid of this? i just simply don't know about this. i know that this is a disappointing way to lose kevin spacey. and, i assumed he was probably gay, but didn't really know.

i recognize george takei from his twitter activism and, of course, from his years on star trek. george takei is certainly somebody that certain people would want to get rid of.

and, i recognize franken through both of his careers, and realize he would truly be public enemy #1 to the existing political establishment. he is somebody that certain people would manufacture a situation around, without question.

i doubt that this is the end of this. but, i need to request that people be sober in their analyses. this is a golden opportunity to take people down. and, we all have a responsibility to weigh the evidence in front of us carefully, and not jump to conclusions.

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i wouldn't want a subservient man that grovels for sex, i'd want one that stands up for due process of law, respects the presumption of innocence and makes careful fact-based decisions by weighing the evidence before him.

i'm sorry if your standards are lower.

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or, maybe the reason that i speak as plainly as i do about these things is that i have absolutely no interest in developing any kind of sexual relationship with any kind of women.

you can't pussy whip the trannies, ladies. they don't want it at all.

sorry.

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good news and bad news.

the bad news is that i just lost my screen on my backup laptop. it's been flickering for a few days. so it's not unexpected. and i can see the screen if i look closely enough, so it seems to just be the light that's out. this is essentially the same thing that happened to my main laptop, so i'm suspecting that it's a power issue in the unit. i may learn, once i've moved, that a lot of the problems i've been having down here are from bad wiring.

when i rebuild my access point, it's going to be on a desktop. but, i'm going to need to have a laptop of some sort. i was hoping it would be this one...i'll have to see what it costs to fix it...

for right now, there's not much to do besides send the signal out to a monitor.

the good news is that i'm finished with inri061 and will be spending the rest of the night doing the write-up for it, with the intent to ship in the afternoon.

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no, you've got this backwards.

if it was somebody else, it might not have been funny. if it was charlie sheen, for example, it wouldn't have been funny. but, because it's al franken, and we know al franken's viewpoints, the transgressive humour can operate. i mean, in order for it to be absurd, it has to actually be absurd, and that's largely dependant on the person making the joke.

this kind of thing can operate in just about any context, so long as it's absurd. so, ted cruz could make a joke about socialism that bernie sanders couldn't make; and noam chomsky could make a joke about market theory that ted cruz couldn't make. a joke about a priest or a nun may not be funny if the person is not a priest or nun. &etc. the context of absurdity is really very strongly tied to the speaker or actor. and, a part of the joke is that you'd never expect al franken to actually do that, because you know his politics on the subject - it's a core part of the reason why it's so absurd.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

this idea of transgressive humour is well-defined and deeply explored in various literature.

i seek merely to point this out, right now.


https://www.ru.ac.za/media/rhodesuniversity/content/philosophy/documents/Ethics%20at%20the%20Cinema,%20Jones.pdf

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so, why was the al franken mock grab photo actually kind of funny, after all, despite the protestations of right-wing pundits and morally self-righteous "progressives", everywhere?

i admit that i giggled when i first saw it. it's a cheap laugh, granted - gone in a second, and never to return. but, it worked as a reactionary laugh, and that was the extent of the intent.

it's not about patriarchy or dominance or control. what it's about is transgression; it's about blatantly flaunting the rules, giving the finger to the man, and doing it all with flair. and, you laugh because you know you shouldn't do that, and yet - look - he's doing it, anyways! the humour is in the audacity of it, and the absurdity of the audacity of it.

it's the same kind of humour that you can associate with any other brazen act of defiance for the sake of defiance, such as perhaps a brazen pie-in-the-face. and, sure - some people will just roundly condemn a good pie-ing as assault. but, they need to lighten up. maybe have a beer, spark a joint...

you can criticize him for this if you'd like, but understand that what you're actually doing is playing the role of the prudish conservative censor trying to shut down offensive comedy routines - you're reprising the role of tipper gore - and not the role of the feminist activist. and, you should expect to run up against push back from actual liberals, as rare as we seem to be, nowadays.

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it's the end of the day for me, but i think i've got this put together into a third disc set, and will be able to finalize it when i wake up.



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if the aspect of the culture that you're talking about is the part where you draw penises on your friends' faces when they're asleep, or glitter them, or put their hands in water?

i don't feel any particular impetus to fight to change this.

....because it's completely trivial.

sorry.

http://deadline.com/2017/11/bill-maher-al-franken-real-time-harvey-weinstein-donald-trump-1202210878/ 

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what is the proper penalty for ignorance - and stupidity?

you almost wish the world was a little less populated, because what she really deserves is to be banished.

at the least, this is a situation where a court ought to be allowed to order her not to have more kids.

http://www.huffingtonpost.ca/2017/11/17/tamara-lovett-calgary-mom-guilty-in-sons-strep-infection-death-gets-prison-time_a_23281094/?utm_source=spotim&utm_medium=spotim_recirculation&spotim_referrer=recirculation

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Friday, November 17, 2017

"that's the kind of feminism my mom believed in."

that's right: your mom was a feminist.

you're not.

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so, i got my first print with the new ink done, and it actually seems to be a little more accurate than the official ink.

so, i'm not worried about quality.

but, i'm a little concerned about leakage, and will have to keep an eye on it.

right now, it seems fine. let's hope i can at least get through the month with it.

and, i'll have to keep track of the exact number of pages i print, as well. even if i only get the same 50 i got last time, i'm paying $20 this time instead of $100, so, it's down into a more reasonable price. and, if i get 100, it's closer to what i initially budgeted for. so, as long as it doesn't leak, this is probably a permanent solution.

the main black ink is supposedly out, too, after something like 30 pages. that's laughable - there must be ink left in the cartridge. so, i guess i'm putting all these cartridges aside for later, to figure out how to get the remaining ink out of them.

right now, i'm going to eat and get back to inri061. 60 is now ready to ship. i could potentially get this out on sunday.

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what i will say about bernie sanders running in 2020 is that i would hope that there is a younger, more viable candidate to challenge clinton in the primaries. i've been keeping an eye on franken for a few years as almost a singular example of somebody that could actually defeat clinton. if franken ends up pushed out or forced to resign, there really isn't anybody else with the ability to challenge clinton.

and, like so many people on the left, i think hillary clinton belongs at a criminal arraignment at the hague, not in the oval office. if i thought she was maybe a lesser evil 13 months ago, i don't at all think she is now. i would react with open hostility to a third clinton run.

i almost think franken should just dive into the thing head first, balls out, and take them right on. or, alternatively, go out with guns blazing. i know it's not really his style. but, the consequences of losing franken on the left are quite profound.

it's not that his positions are pristine. they're pretty good. i'm going to agree with almost everything he says, to the point that we don't get into a discussion about socialism. it's more that he has that populist streak to him, that ability to generate support. i'm actually not able to come up with a senator that has a better record than franken, but if you could find me one, they wouldn't have that raw political talent.

and, the democrats are once again demonstrating that they would rather lose any given election than be taken over by a candidate on the left.

if franken is out, the default is back to sanders. but, i'm not sure that i can support somebody his age running for office.

if we get around the corner here to the start of 2019 and have nobody in front of us in the democratic party besides a fading bernie sanders, i think there's a realistic chance that enough of a third party movement could develop to potentially land the democrats in third place.

the honest truth is that what's being reported about al franken doesn't upset me: it's a juvenile and harmless picture along with a disputed account of an event by a clearly unreliable accuser. this woman is an outspoken birther and a frequent guest on far right talk shows.

but, if this is the end of franken, expect it to be a pyrrhic victory for the democratic establishment, as he is probably their only realistic chance of winning in 2020. removing franken may be the decision that ends the democratic party as a political force in the united states of america.

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reddit isn't buying this, either.

this is a classic soviet-style take down. but, if we can maintain a questioning electorate, there's still some hope for democracy.

it's not like al franken is a political saviour or anything, but he's a reliable liberal and a credible option to defeat hillary. i think these events also confirm that he was thinking about running. despite the massive, co-ordinated push by the media & political establishment, i'd like to see some actual polling.

the little bit of grassroots evidence i've seen suggests people aren't buying into this - because it's just too obvious.

https://www.dailykos.com/stories/2017/11/17/1716569/-Timeline-and-questions-for-the-hit-job-on-Franken 

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on top of that, the reality is that making ellison a senator would be handing the seat to the republicans.

this is the district that ellison represents:


it's minneapolis, basically - the urban core of the city.

this is how the state voted in the 2016 presidential election:

like the areas around minnesota, this is a state that is de-urbanizing in post-industrialization and being reclaimed by the agricultural midwest. like wisconsin, it is becoming less like illinois and more like iowa.

clinton very nearly lost this state.

and, running a black muslim nationalist with a history of right-wing extremism for statewide office is the way you lose it, maybe for good.

contrary to widespread reports, this state is highly vulnerable. it's not the place you play these games of identity politics in.

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the calls for resignation from clinton surrogates are just increasing. it's clear as day to me what's going on, here.

but, whatever happens with this, he cannot be replaced by keith ellison, who has a history of blatant anti-semitism and open homophobia.

you cannot replace a liberal jew with a conservative muslim (an openly anti-semitic and homophobic one) in a progressive state. and, the suggestion is horrifically egregious and absurdly offensive.

but, it reflects the fake left's priorities pretty clearly - and demonstrates the society they really want.

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the mail woman left my ink in the box.

she shouldn't have done that. but, ok.

i'll be trying to print the back of inri060 soon.

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the quebec liberals really are a right-wing catastrophe, aren't they?

wow.

the reality is that this won't survive a court challenge.

http://www.huffingtonpost.ca/2017/11/16/quebec-to-ban-growing-your-own-weed-in-legalization-bill_a_23279817/?utm_source=spotim&utm_medium=spotim_recirculation&spotim_referrer=recirculation

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actually, the photo clearly demonstrates that he didn't touch her at all.

i'm not a conservative person, and i'm not into decorum and proper behaviour. lewd, crass behaviour doesn't bother me. i swear, and i drink. and, yes - i'm lower class. so, i'm not going to add the caveat "it was in poor taste.."

...because, so what if it was in poor taste? since when is being an edgy comedian against the law? and, since when is morality a pre-requisite for public office? he's a senator, he's not a fucking priest.

rather, what the media reaction is demonstrating is that there is a co-ordinated movement to take franken out. the picture clearly demonstrates that he did not touch her, but they're spinning it as though he did. this is beyond the realm of accidental.

somebody named hillary wants him out.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/the-fix/wp/2017/11/17/a-photo-shows-al-franken-touching-leeann-tweedens-chest-many-media-reports-still-say-he-allegedly-groped-her/?utm_term=.ccf7585ea01b

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yeah, my ink's in windsor. but, my mailwoman just always leaves the slip. that's fine, i can get it tomorrow.

getting it today wouldn't help much, as i'm going to need another day for 61. but, it looks like i'm expanding this to a third disc by adding some further orchestral reworkings, a percussion mix and maybe a drone mix, to start with. i got the string mix done this morning, and i'm happy with it, but it's bed time.

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i've pointed this out repeatedly: what's happening in the united states right now is not a rise of any left, but a return of the right. and, the language has just gotten so confused, that the young conservatives have ended up calling themselves 'progressives', and in some cases even 'socialists', despite articulating what is basically textbook conservatism, through and through.

maybe it's as simple as defining one's self in opposition to the dominant narrative. if you're told that ted cruz is a conservative, and you disagree with everything he says, then you must be on some kind of left, right? but, the fact is that ted cruz is actually a liberal, and if you disagree with everything he says then that actually either makes you a socialist.....or a conservative. and, the country is collectively getting this completely confused.

some of them seem to get it, and think they're marxists. but, what they're actually articulating is this right-wing concept of leninism that was basically just a russian strain of conservatism. so, you get all of these same authoritarian attitudes that have been historically associated with the right, sold to these kids as a left that never was a left. and, they can grasp on to it as oppositional, because it actually is.

i was skeptical when i read the polls suggesting that young people don't actually support sanders' policies, but i think i'm losing skepticism. because, what they're actually searching for - and can't find - is an actual conservative vision of class harmony through a division of labour, with a powerful church willing to take up the slack.

and, we're all in a lot of trouble if these kids can straighten out the language and figure this out properly.

echo boomers indeed, right?

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i'm not being ironic.

a lot of the legal literature you see nowadays looks like it was written in the bloody victorian era, with the intent to minimize stress on the gentler sex. and, there's nothing feminist about any of it. it's just reactionary patriarchal conservatism hiding behind a veneer of altruistic chauvinism.

but, it's not like younger women are grasping on to it by accident. this reversal of feminism was a part of neo-liberalism. it's manufactured. it's taught. and, like so much of the language, we've had the terms inverted.

women should not get special treatment in the legal system - because they are strong enough and capable enough to be treated the same way that we treat men. and, don't let these victorian reactionaries and gentlemanly chauvinists tell you otherwise.

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feminism is not about coddling women, and anybody suggesting as much to you is a reactionary.

if feminism is radical egalitarianism - and it is - then it means putting a woman making an accusation on the stand and making them answer hard questions, and demanding that they support their accusations.

lowering standards and expectations is a kind of sexism. and, what's underlying this mindset is a kind of chauvinist chivalry.

unfortunately, a lot of women are willing to buy right into it. i'm not.

defend your argument sufficiently, or withdraw it.

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i actually take great care to not identify as any particular ethnicity. but i need to point out that it's not the case that i'm like 90% white or something.

i'm really quite literally mixed.

on my father's side, i'm native american, african-american (probably), french canadian, italian and jewish. so, my father would have been 50% mediterranean (italian/jewish), either 12.5% native and 12.5% black OR 25% cree (it's not clear....) and 25% french canadian.

despite having a french canadian surname, he was only a quarter "white".

my mom's father is white- welsh/anglo/scot. but, her mother is a quarter asian through a finnish ancestry. my grandmother has broadly norse-irish phenotypes, but my mother actually looks kind of turkic, and it would be from the finnish. i can look pretty finnish, myself. but, my mom would come in at 87.5% white.

that would make me about 56.25% white european, 25% mediterranean, 6.25% asian and 12.5% cree (or african/cree).

that's not enough to identify as anything specific. i've never been to a synagogue, and i don't know anything about indigenous culture, besides being an intuitive anarchist. i'm certainly not culturally black. but, i don't really have any interest in white culture, either. while my biggest european ancestry comes from my mother's father, i have essentially no relationship with that side of the family - i've had a far closer relationship with my maternal grandmother and my father's siblings. the two family members i've been closest to are my father and my maternal grandmother.

but, i find your narrative lacking, to begin with.

i'm actually more attached to the old left ideas that reject nationalism and ethnicity as tools of capitalist control, and argues instead for a secular society built on scientific principles and radical concepts of total egalitarianism.

in other words, i don't actually think my ethnicity is important. i don't really want one. and, i won't interpret other people through the lens of their self-identification, either: we're all just human beings.

but, sure: i'm all of the subtypes i listed, and none of it is any more token or trivial than the rest, whatever it means - and whatever it doesn't mean, at all.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.
but, if the reaction to the franken accusations clarify anything, it is this: hillary clinton will be running in 2020.

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i have a lot of respect for honesty, and not much at all for opportunism.

https://www.mediaite.com/online/i-loathe-al-franken-but-it-sure-seems-like-he-is-getting-totally-railroaded/

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Thursday, November 16, 2017

and, this woman is your typical right-wing fox news reporter that might very well be taking orders on this.

sometimes, women run up against a system that is designed to marginalize their statements and the truth gets lost in a sea of broken formalities. i don't think we should abolish those formalities. reality can be a shitty deal. and, i'm sorry if you find that harsh, but i'm not running for office, and i'm not going to sugar coat it. it's a shitty deal when something bad happens to you and you can't prove it. but, you still have that burden, and you still have to find a way to convince people that the facts are on your side - as hard as it might be, sometimes. if you can't do that, you might lose, and it might be unjust. but, that's how our system operates - a system that is not perfect, but is the best we can come up with, as the other option is a system where people can accuse each other without evidence - the system that once existed in our distant, monarchist past.

and, sometimes they don't - sometimes they can generate the necessary evidence and win.

and, sometimes women get sent to take down politicians that are threatening the status quo, or standing in the way of the ambitions of other politicians that are more powerful or better connected.

my intuition would be that this situation seems like the latter. and, that doesn't mean that the former situations don't happen, and suggesting that it does mean that is a textbook error in logic.

the proper thing to do in this situation is to carry through with the investigation. and, that will mean cross-examining the testimony of somebody that may very well have an ulterior motive in an attempt to uncover it. and, if the evidence leads us to the demonstration of this ulterior motive in the lack of evidence upholding the proposed narrative, then we must accept it and exonerate the accused - for the evidence would necessitate it.

and, we must follow the evidence, wherever it may lead.

my advice to mr. franken would be to insist that the investigation does not take place in the senate, as his own party would be just as happy to get rid of him. he's too "liberal", and a threat to the establishment candidates in the upcoming cycle. in order to get a fair trial, he's going to want to do this in a court of law.

but, it's too late: he's called for his own investigation.

expect a show trial.

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not only has al franken not been convicted of a crime, he has neither been charged with one nor even investigated in connection with one.

the rules have changed, alright.

http://www.cnn.com/2017/11/16/politics/can-al-franken-survive/index.html

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there's nothing wrong with being skeptical about sexual harassment charges against al franken at this particular point in time, nor does it suggest any particular inclination towards any kind of viewpoint.

right now, he's a serious threat to both parties.

and, this is how you take a guy like him down.

i'm not saying it didn't happen. i'm saying there's nothing wrong with being skeptical about it, until some evidence comes forward.

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progressive activist: the system is rigged against us!
voice of reason: so, what's your solution?
progressive activist: let's rig the system in our favour!

hrmmn.

you know, some people in the past have argued that power corrupts. maybe there's something to that.

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my ink might be here tomorrow, actually. have to keep an eye on that. if so, i could ship as early as saturday. if not, it's looking like it will probably be tuesday.

i wanted to ship more today, but i was only able to get inri058 out. that's the 4 cd set. it's shipped.

my drop by odsp was a little underwhelming, but only in the sense of it not being at all formal. i had to write a request by hand. i'll probably type something up before tuesday. i know this is all discretionary, but the situation is rather ridiculous; i can't afford to pay a mover, so if i can't move the furniture then i'll have to leave it here and then go to charity to get more furniture. and, i'd guess that the owners of this place will probably end up donating this furniture to charity. that would be kind of outrageously stupid, right? in the end, the city ends up paying for the moving costs, anyways. but, i know better than to expect pristine logic from the city.

i updated my accounting to reflect the price i actually paid for ink over the last two years, and it makes less of a difference than i thought, overall - my profit decreased from $42 to $34, and sean's went from $6 to $4.50. it's disappointing, but not catastrophic. most of the records i've sold don't have sean on them; i'm actually splitting things 50/50. but, if i get 50 pages out of $20 ink, it's closer to the profit margin i expected.

the actual truth is that i still haven't covered start-up costs.

i'm otherwise fed and am in or the weekend, so i'm going to shower and get to work on inri061. i'm hoping this is the last stretch before i get to the compilations next week.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.
so, i'm about to get back to work for a few hours over night, but what did i do today?

i gave odsp a call when i woke up this afternoon and realized that i'm going to have to go in and talk to somebody tomorrow. my worker's not in this week. but, i need to get the forms running. and, i need to do that before i call about utilities and estimating moving costs. if i can just get the forms tomorrow and bring them in on tuesday, i'll be happy with that.

after the saga of serving the appeal last week, which was largely a consequence of not being able to find the right tube for my bicycle, i had to make sure i got the thing right, so i went down to the local bicycle store and grilled him on what i needed. with my rain jacket, i maybe seemed a little like the spanish inquisition - but i called ahead, so he had what i needed there when i got there. he talked me into buying a tire. i didn't need a lot of convincing, because i'm going to need a new tire eventually anyways, right? or, to put it another way: i can always use a spare tire.

we can all always use a spare tire.

they should put that on the side of the space shuttles. it's maybe the closest thing to a universal human truth that i've ever fucking seen. really.

anyways.

what was the problem with the tube i got at canadian tire last week - not once, but twice? see, i showed it to the guy and he said my tire must have some glass in it because it's ripped. that's why i bought a tire.

we can all always use a spare tire.

but, i think it actually ripped on the rim, because it didn't fit right. the first one just inflated into it. and the second one felt like i was riding a balloon animal for a few seconds before it popped.  it just didn't fit. that's all there is to it.

i actually got the technically correct correct tubes, this time. see, i'd been hacking out a 28-32 for i don't know how long. the tubes that burst were 23-28, and they were floppy. i should have actually been using 38s the whole time. imagine that. hrmmn.

after a brief stop at the grocery store (with the tire around my neck), i went home and fixed the tire - and fixed it is, yes. i took it out for a spin to make sure. i'm good to go.

so, at the end of the ordeal, i ended up spending a total of about $70 and i got a working bike pump, a spare tire and a spare tube out of it, in addition to getting the thing working. about $15 of that disappeared on bad tubes. but, i learned something from it.

i didn't sit down to eat until close to 9:00, and i had to do dishes and clean up in here after all of that. but i'm ready to finish the cover art for the second mp3 disc and get back to the rest of it after that.

i might be able to print in grey scale, but i have to wait until the ink gets here before i can print the rest of the covers. so, i'm going to go ahead and make the actual discs, and then see if i can print greyscale on them or not. either way, everything should be ready to go when the ink gets here.

and, i should be able to get around and do some things on my bicycle in the morning.

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in america, when the president wants to boost his approval rating, he starts a war.

in canada, we find a country in the midst of a famine and send troops through the united nations to help.

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Wednesday, November 15, 2017

but, let us not lose context.

why did canada end up as this peacekeeping country? the reason is that we didn't want to get involved in the wars. canada didn't go to vietnam; we accepted draft dodgers. some of them had famous kids. but, we were signatories to the defence agreements, and we wanted to be, and we knew we needed to be, and we understood that we had to contribute.

so, we took tactical positions.

these were never fully altruistic. when we sent our troops into this african country to fight a famine, or that asian country to build roads, it was always in line with the broader strategic interests of the western alliance. i don't know how many of us ever really fully understood this. but, we took pride in it, nonetheless.

and, thus, the question that trudeau ought to ask is this: what roads need to be built, and what populations need to be fed, to advance the interests of the west, without succumbing to it's most nihilistic tendencies?

and, the answer before us is that so much of the work is already done.

but, rather than seek out a solution for the sake of it, perhaps we should wait for the problems to more clearly present themselves.

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this whole narrative is some kind of surreal joke. and, it's designed to create something to run on in the next election.

i can't claim most people will anaylse this the way i do. maybe you'll get some nationalist responses around this. but, the ethnic component of the country has changed so dramatically, that i don't think it's a given.

in the 60s and 70s, canada was a mostly white and largely anglo country, so it could step into conflicts between western powers, and attempt to defuse cold war situations in ethnic lands from this kind of aloof british position of detached near non-alignment, and the population was able to grasp on to it as articulating a kind of alternative theory of empire. we were the conscience of the commonwealth. and, it worked because we could be obviously western and yet credibly neutral at the same time.

today, if we try to step in between just about any conflict, we're going to be seen as acting in the interest of this lobby or that. worse, so many new canadians don't have this attachment to articulating a friendlier kind of empire; they see the world in terms of racial conflict, colonizer and colonized. and, canada is just america lite.

what is happening in yemen is the kind of conflict that canada has historically stepped in to create a buffer to prevent. if we're in a new cold war, the yemenis are in the other camp. but, the reality is that we're selling the saudis guns, instead.

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/politics/canada-offers-equipment-and-soldiers-for-peacekeeping-no-decision-on-where/article36985352/

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“There are people who wish I wouldn’t refer to China as our enemy. But that’s exactly what they are. They have destroyed entire industries by utilizing low-wage workers, cost us tens of thousands of jobs, spied on our businesses, stolen our technology, and have manipulated and devalued their currency, which makes importing our goods more expensive – and sometimes, impossible.”- donald trump, 2015

see what he wants, here?

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i think i'm catching a hold of something, here.

it seems to be that people think that trump threatened to stop trading with china. i don't know if there were specific articles floating around, or if the clinton people may have helped in the confusion. but, i take it that there's this perception that trump was threatening a trade war and, ultimately, a reduction in trade. i guess this comes out of the intuitive view that the obvious way to close a trade deficit is to decrease imports. or, maybe it's just a naive and ignorant reaction to what is perceived as conflict: if trump is saying things about the trading relationship with china, he doesn't like china (maybe he's even racist!) and therefore doesn't want to trade with china. as though a criticism implies he wants a boycott. i guess that's the logic of a moralizing fundamentalist, which so much of the contemporary pseudo-left really is at heart.

but, decreasing imports doesn't create jobs, necessarily. it might. a surer way that you create jobs is by increasing exports. and, the way that you close a trade deficit without decreasing gdp (and who wants that....) is that you increase exports.

what is a trade deficit? now, let me start by saying that i'm not really concerned about trade deficits so much as i'm concerned about self-sufficiency, food sovereignty, climate change and workers' rights. trade deficits are kind of irrelevant to me.

but, what is it?

a trade deficit is just when you import more from a country than you export. that's all it means. so, when the talking heads on the news say that america has a trade deficit with china, all it means is that china imports more goods into the united states than it accepts from the united states in return.

now, if that's the case, then maybe chinese workers are making things that american workers might make, and perhaps used to make. but, it also means that american manufacturers are being shut out of the chinese market. so, if you're looking to reduce the trade deficit, you want to do these two things, in some capacity:

1) decrease the amount of goods entering the country
2) increase the amount of goods exiting the country.

but, the first thing is just meaningless without the second. if you cut imports without increasing production, you just end up without goods on the shelves. so, what you want to do is increase exports, and then hope that the local production competes well against the foreign production.

in a situation where this is impossible - and mexico is closer to this than china - you may have to cut off open trade altogether and instead retreat to very managed trade. and, that's what he's doing in mexico, too.

all this aside, i should point out the bernie actually threatened to cut trade relations with china. and, maybe trump inaccurately absorbed bernie's position on this, in the minds of many. but, trump just didn't do that. what he was concerned about was reducing the deficit. and, what that always clearly meant was increasing exports.

if you're upset about this, you need to stop listening to democrats and democratic party propaganda. how many times does the actual left have to tell you this? they're just as dishonest and misleading as the republicans are. and, you'll end up just as clueless.

the last time i remember this happening like this was with obama and war. a lot of people thought obama was an anti-war candidate. but, he never said anything of the sort. and, he was one of the most violent presidents, in the end.

the media is dangerous. you need to be vigilant. you need to question. you need to verify. and, the internet exists.

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this was really the only thing that trump broadcast that was worth taking seriously.

this is the reason he cut the tpp: he wanted a military containment, not an en economic one.

http://www.wsws.org/en/articles/2017/11/14/quad-n14.html

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it's not my responsibility to educate you about transfinite arithmetic.

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so, i bought some cheap ink.

it's high yield for $20. the last package i bought was normal yield for $80. so, this could be less than 1/5th of the price.

i know that there are risks involved with this. i'm feeling like i need to take them.

it should be here before wednesday. and, the truth is that i won't be totally done by then, anyways.

so, i'll hold off on jacking up the price, for now. let's see what i get out of this.

it's 7:00. wow. lol.

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i may have less ink in there than i thought.

i think it's worse than that.

1) the size of the cartridges is steadily decreasing.
2) they base their metrics on very minimal coverage, and cover art tends to be very ink heavy. if they say you get 500 pages at 5% coverage and i'm printing at 50% coverage, each page i'm printing is 10 pages in the metrics. so, i'm only getting 50 pages, but it's fifty pages at ten times the metric - and there's your 500 pages.

i'm going to look for something more efficient. but, i think the reality is just that the price of ink is extremely high, and if you want a package like this it's going to cost me some money to make it.

again: it's not so so bad, really.

maybe i lowballed the cost.

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i still have a lot of extra cash.

maybe i can do some research into a more efficient printer, before i boost these prices too far.

$15 canadian for an lp is still pretty good. and most of my eps are lp length. $12 isn't too bad at all.

but, i have the prices low for a reason. and i don't really want to have the downloads priced differently than the physical media.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.
no, i just need to boost the price.

eps are now $12.

lps are now $15.

that's what it costs.

sorry.

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my printer is out of colour ink, already.

that's about 40-50 pages printed, for an $80 cartridge - meaning it costs $2/page. and, if the disc has a front and a back, it's costing me $4-5 in ink per disc.

i had to do the experiment to figure it out. and, these are the results.

they're outrageous...

i can't sell eps for $7 if i'm spending $5 in ink. based on some basic research, i had ballparked $0.15/disc. so, i'm either going to have to find a cheaper source of ink, or i'm going to have to increase the price.

my estimated static costs were $1.75/disc, meaning that i was clearing $5.25 on an ep and $8.25 on an lp. if my static costs are now $6.45/disc, i'd need to charge $12 for an ep and $15 for an lp to balance out the costs.

i think that's unreasonable.

so, i'm going to have to search for a cheaper source of ink.

i know that the printer cartridge is not out. it has a chip in it. but, i have to find a way around it. maybe i can trick the machine into finishing off the cartridge, to start.

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in a really serious way, i'm just simply too civilized to enjoy sex.

jagmeet singh must cut  his beard.
i don't know why i have to explain this over and over, but apparently i do.

listen: there's not any way you can get around this. sex with a penis is a violent act. you can try and minimize it, but chances are you won't get much appreciation from it - nobody wants you to use your penis daintily. it doesn't matter if your victim by choice is male or female; the point of getting fucked is to absorb the aggression. and, so, if you're stuck with a penis, the only choices you have are to come to terms with the violence inherent within using it, or just choose not to use it. and, if you don't have that violence or aggression within you, if you're a person that lives their life with an attempt to minimize aggression and violence, and if you consequently find the idea of sex in a male role to be kind of revolting, then the thing is ultimately just fucking useless to you.

i don't know how to use the thing. i don't want to learn how to use the thing. i just want it to not be there.

but, i don't want to pretend that i'm a gay male, either, because i'm not.

so, i'm abstinent.

let's try a thought experiment because it might help you understand better: if i were to go off hormones and re-identify as male, would it affect my sex life? it wouldn't, because i'd still have that aversion to sex, because i understand that it is an unavoidable act of violence. and, this is empirical, observational. i was off hormones from 2003 to 2010 and i did not have sex with anybody at all after 2005. the one person i did have sex with before 2003 was ultimately just frustrated that i didn't have any real personal interest in it, and didn't know how to use the thing, and didn't want to learn how. there is an unavoidable chemical reality that would reassert itself if i were to stop the testosterone suppressors, but the only likely measurable outcome of this would be a return to disinterested, routine daily masturbation - i would approach it like i'm brushing my teeth.

i might gain an interest in sex in a hypothetical post-op situation, but finding somebody to have sex with me would be a more challenging proposition, and i'm not walking down that path for that reason. at least if i keep it and just suppress the testosterone, i'm not setting myself up for the obvious devastating outcome. and, i keep telling you that i'm a realist.

i ultimately don't care how you label me. if you want to insist that i'm not really female, but am instead an incredibly faggy male that chooses to chemically castrate himself and take hormones to look effeminate, then you can do that. i might say that if it quacks like a duck, it's a duck. you can insist otherwise if it makes you feel good - it doesn't have any effect on how i'm going to behave. and, if you want me to just throw the gender nonconformity in your face to piss you off, i can do that, too. i don't care. really.

but, you do need to listen to me about the sexual disinterest and get your head around that. because, there are situations where i'm going to react in self-defense to coercion. and, these should not be surprising - you should be able to predict them from simply listening to me.

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the only really feasible path that i have there and back is via bicycle, and it's going to be cold and raining. there's that ten mile strip with no bus service.

if it was in the summer, i'd probably do it. it's part of the reason i got the bike.

but, for tomorrow, i don't think this makes sense.

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i missed st. vincent tonight. everything else aside, it's a big venue, and i just don't enjoy big venue shows. i haven't heard the new record yet, but the lead tracks were underwhelming. and, i get the impression that she's intending to tone it down a little. i'd like to hear what she has to offer on the other side of mellowing out a little in the context of something more orchestral, but i'm not going to get too excited about an americana phase. i guess i'm waiting that out. i hope it doesn't take too long. but, i'll give the new record a chance when i get time to, too.

john mclaughlin is tomorrow night and it's tempting but i don't even know if he's actually playing it. the way he's talking about it is that he's hanging out on stage while somebody else is actually playing. and, he's 75 years old - i can't fault him for not being able to play this material, anymore. this is tough guitar work. but, i'm apprehensive about going all the way to ann arbor if he's not even playing. i'm going to try and find some footage. it's possible.

i've just never seen him play, and if this is my last chance then this is my last chance. but, it's a journey there and back, and i need to make sure it's worth it.

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purchasing this release does not come with a download.

inri033: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in dec, 1999. slightly resequenced in jan, 2014. finalized on sept 19, 2017. lp007.

inri034: written & recorded in the fall of 1999. originally released on inridiculous in december, 1999. split into it's own ep in january, 2014. remastered & finalized on sept 28, 2017.

inri035: initially written and recorded between 1996-1999 and remixed between 2013-2015. initially released as part zero of a three volume set on may 21, 2015. split into it's own release on june 14, 2015. finalized as lp008 on sept 29, 2017.

inri036: written and recorded in late 1999 and early 2000. these versions of these tracks were sequenced without further modification in jan, 2014. remainder of hummer added as a bonus track, and release finalized, on oct 3, 2017.

inri037: recorded in spring, 2000. released, unmodified, in jan, 2014. release finalized on oct 3, 2017.

inri038: written and recorded, 1999-2001. track 3 was reconstructed out of existing sound in june, 2004. initially sequenced in jan, 2014. four new mixes (maximal mix (2017), electronics only mix (2015), single mix for lp010 (2017), full instrumental mix from deny everything (2014)) were added on oct 5, 2017; release subsequently closed.

inri039: this was constructed over a little more than a month: from 7/7-8/20, 2000. it seems to have been recombined into one track around 2007 but has otherwise not been modified since it was completed. first released as an ep in jan 2014. release finalized as symph004 on oct 8, 2017.

inri040: recorded in april, 2000. samples added in oct, 2000. album version reverted to original mix in sept, 2006

inri041: recorded over the space of the year 2000. remixed substantially in 2004, 2006, 2010 and 2014. existing version constructed in jan, 2014. finalized as lp009 on oct 9, 2017.

inri042: this record was recorded over the years 1999 and 2000, but did not take this form until mid september, 2017. the first track list dates to sept 14, 2017. these tracks are technically outtakes, but did not become outtakes until the remastering process removed them from their respective recordings. finalized as lp010 on oct 9, 2017.

inri043: written late 2000 & early 2001. the renders present here are all from either the early months of 2014, the second half of may, 2015 or the 11th/12th of october, 2017. minor instrumentation changes to facilitate a small wind section were implemented in late april, 2014. live guitars were layered into the final version over may 2014. four more mixes were added from may 19-26, 2015. five more mixes were added on oct 11/12, 2017. release finalized on oct 12, 2017.

inri044: written early 2001. drastically rearranged in june, 2014. rendered, arranged and performed over june and july, 2014. remixed and re-rendered several times over late may, 2015 and again over mid oct, 2017. this release cannot formally finalize at this time, but has been put into it's existing state as of oct 15, 2017.

inri045: recorded in the first part of 2001. sequenced as is in january, 2014.

inri046: written in the spring of 2001. lent out for a different project in jan, 2004. reconstructed in the first quarter of 2006, especially over march. the vst mix was added on jan 10, 2015 and the two guitar mixes were added on may 29, 2015. finalized as symph005 on oct 15, 2017.

inri047: written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. expanded and finalized over oct 15-16, 2017.

inri048: written in the summer of 2001. remembered over july, 2014. completed august-september, 2014. expanded and finalized on oct 16, 2017.

inri049: written and recorded in the fall of 2001. compiled on sept 6, 2014. expanded and finalized on oct 20-21, 2017.

inri050: written in the fall of 2001. rendered, remastered and remixed in late september and early october, 2014. the string mix was corrected for clicks on june 1, 2015, but unfortunately left accidentally inverted. this was corrected on oct 21, 2017. the lead track was re-rendered with the clickless string mix on oct 21, 2017. disc finalized on oct 21, 2017.

inri051: created in the fall of 2001. resequenced and rereleased on sept 7, 2014. disc finalized on oct 22, 2017.

inri052: tracks 1, 3 and 8 were written in 2001 and reinterpreted and completed in 2014. tracks 2 and 5 were interpreted and completed in 2001. track 4 was written in 2000 and reinterpreted and recorded in 2001. track 6 was written in 2001 and completed in 2006. track 7 was written in 1998, reinterpreted in 2001 and rendered in 2014. tracks 1-7 were sequenced on sept 9, 2014. final completion date is oct 3, 2014. refinalized as lp011 on oct 22, 2017.

inri053: written late 2001 and early 2002. this file is ripped from a cd-r that was burnt around 2002, as that was the option that would produce the most accurate reproduction of the original composition. republished without modification in 2014. on oct 23, 2017, the poem was added to the disc as an introduction to the track and the disc was subsequently closed and finalized as symph006 and lp012.

inri054: recorded in late 2001 and early 2002. track 6 was constructed in may, 2004 out of files recorded 1999-2001. tracks 1-4 were reconstructed over october, 2014. final mixes were finished on october 18, 2014. disc closed on oct 30, 2017.

inri055: written in early 2002 and recorded in early 2002 and late 2014. the final fuck boxes mixes were finished on nov 15, 2014. the gentle mix was created and then left stranded on may 24, 2015. the ambient mix and the guitar mix were rendered on nov 1, 2017. disc finalized on nov 1, 2017.

inri056: written & recorded in late 2001 and early 2002 and mixed in early 2002 and late 2014. the final mix was finished on nov 18, 2014. the uncorrupted mix was created on nov 18, 2014 and then cut up into the unstuck mix, but not added to the release until nov 2, 2017. the lorentz factor mix and the separated from mix were rendered on nov 2, 2017. disc finalized on nov 2, 2017.

inri057: written and recorded in late 2001 and early 2002. initially sequenced in may, 2002. released in slightly different forms from 2002-2014. resequenced to mimic the original sequencing on november 8, 2014. except to sequence the record, these files have not been altered since 2002. disc finalized as lp013 on nov 3, 2017.

inri058: written over 2001 and rethought repeatedly over 2002, again in 2007, a third time in 2009 and one last time in late 2014. final mixes were completed over the last week of november and the first week of december, 2014. the concept was rethought on nov 3, 2017, which led to the inclusion of five more mixes (from 2002, 2009, 2014, 2015 and 2017) and an expansion from two cds to four cds. disc finalized as symph007 on nov 12, 2017.

inri059: written and recorded in late 2001 and the first half of 2002. mildly remixed in november, 2014 to make the tracks more presentable; nothing substantial was altered, and no new sound was recorded. final mixes were on november 19, 2014. disc released on physical media and finalized as inri059 on nov 14, 2017.

inri060: written in august, 2002. track one was mildly remixed on dec 12, 2014; two and three were uploaded unmodified. final completion date is dec 12, 2014. disc finalized on nov 14, 2017.

originally created from 1999-2002. this compilation is dated to sept 1, 2002. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on nov 14, 2017. as always, please use headphones.
 

credits

released September 1, 2002

j - electric piano, drum & other programming, orchestral & other sequencing, vocal & drum manipulations, classical & acoustic & electric guitars, ebow, digital & analog effects & treatments, electric bass, mandolin, organ, synthesizers, sound design, noise generators, granular synthesis, generative synthesis, generative percussion, light-sound synthesis, cool edit synthesis, sampling, vocals, vocoders, windows 95 sound recorder, flute, drum kit, hammerhead (909 emulator), pick scrapes, found sounds, metronome, digital wave editing, loops, films, tapes, coughs, a broken equalizer, equalization, production, composition.

sean - vocals, lyrics (inri048, inri049, inri053-059), harmonica (inri054, inri057), ring modulator (inri057, inri058)
greg - drum performance sample source (inri056-inri058)
jon - guitar performance (inri048, inri049, inri057)
bob - hammering (inri058)

the various rendered electronic orchestras include acoustic bass, electric bass, synth bass, upright bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, steel string acoustic guitar, nylon guitar, guitar effects, banjo, harp, sitar, french horn, tuba, trumpet, trombone, brass ensemble, saxophone, soprano saxophone, orchestra hit, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, pizzicato strings, full string section, piano, synthesizers, synth pad, synthesizer effects, mellotron, organ, bamboo flute, clarinet, flute, piccolo, oboe, english horn, bassoon, voice, music box, tubular bells, bells, clavinet, kalimba, xylophone, glockenspiel, ukelele, theremin, gongs, woodblock, vibraphone, marimba, taiko drums, detuned piano, pc card, drum kit, jazz drum kit, hand drums, melodic toms, orchestral drum kit, drum machines, hammered percussion, synthetic percussion and electronic drum kit. they also include choir.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/mp3-dvd-disc-volume-2

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Tuesday, November 14, 2017

this symbol: ℵ

....is the hebrew letter "aleph", corresponding to the first letter of their alphabet. i don't know the phonetics of the letter.

rather, my use of the symbol is a set theory joke. i believe the use stems from cantor.

see, i count my collections using aleph-numbers, as though they're transfinite cardinal numbers. it's an abuse of notation, to say the least. but, the analogy is that it's an increase in abstraction. i needed another way to count, so i went with that.

i apologize if you thought the symbol looked like something else. it really never crossed my mind until right now. and, that is a function of your own ignorance.

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to be clear: i don't in any way at all, not in any shape or in any implication, not in the slightest suggestion, deny being somebody that greatly enjoys inebriation and intoxication, and even profoundly suggests it as a life choice for others.

i'm trying to avoid calling myself a drunk, because it's just not true. i enjoy being drunk. you may very well bump into me when i'm drunk. but, i'm not an alcoholic. nor am i a pothead. and, i will go through weeks and sometimes months at a time without the use of intoxicants.

but, i do not reject them, or have any affinity or solidarity with those that would. i would rather advocate them as a great thing to enjoy. and, i'm a little put off by anybody, in 2017, that is suggesting that drugs are anything other than great fun*; chances are that i'm not going to get along with somebody like that.

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

* does not include opiates. opiates are not fun. opiates are fucking retarded.
this is two conceptually linked outtakes from mid 2002 that document an event that i'm going to be vague and obscure about.

written in august, 2002. track one was mildly remixed on dec 12, 2014; two and three were uploaded unmodified. final completion date is dec 12, 2014. as always, please use headphones.

the lead track appears without vocals on my seventh record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ftaa

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2002, 2014, 2017).

credits

released August 31, 2002

j - guitar, effects, bass, drum sampling, drum and other programming, digital wave editing, vocals 
 
 


jagmeet singh must cut his beard.

republishing inri059

something like this would have been the demo brought along on an acoustic tour that never happened. tracks 1-4 would have represented a live set over the summer of 2002, while tracks five and six are otherwise stranded acoustic demos (and may have been played as encores, where possible). the style could be broadly categorized as folk punk, but it also leans heavily towards the emo of the period.

written and recorded in late 2001 and the first half of 2002. mildly remixed in november, 2014 to make the tracks more presentable; nothing substantial was altered, and no new sound was recorded. final mixes were on november 19, 2014. disc released on physical media and finalized as inri059 on nov 14, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2002, 2014, 2017).

credits

released August 1, 2002

j - acoustic guitar, voice (3)
sean - vocals, lyrics 
 
 


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europe really needs a moderate party to acknowledge that these people have legitimate concerns and that you don't have to reduce the spectrum to making a choice between wide open neo-liberalism and totally insular fascism - that there are places on the spectrum, in between.

i'm not going to pick a side in a fight between christians and muslims, i'm going to go have a beer and let them kill each other.

but, immigration to europe is not the same thing as immigration to north america. our indigenous peoples are largely dead. but, europe has a strong indigenous population that has a right to maintain it's own culture in the face of waves of unwanted immigration.

pluralism is a choice, and the principles of democracy mean that if the people don't want it then the state should reject it. and, at the end of the day, i'm in favour of self-determination.

it was in the mid thirteenth century that the polish took the brunt of the damage in stopping the mongol invasion of europe. they lost the first two fights, but they slowed them down enough. they won the third battle. this is an area that has known invasion and that has suffered from it. their reaction should not be dismissed out of hand.

https://www.indy100.com/article/60000-people-far-right-wing-fascist-march-poland-white-europe-independence-day-islamophobia-tommy-8051011?utm_source=indy&utm_medium=top5&utm_campaign=i100

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Monday, November 13, 2017

what?

you don't think rapists would fit right in, if we punished them via conscription?

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"pure islam" is an intriguing term, and is going to have two almost diametrically opposed meanings, depending on who is using it: it is either going to be a rallying cry for the most barbaric extremists you could imagine, or it's going to be an attempt for non-religious people with arab cultural backgrounds to essentially appropriate a jewish or christian identity as muslim.

the jewish scriptures are historically useless - which is to say that they aren't even necessarily wrong. this was such a long time ago, and the sources are so terrible, that you can't even prove them wrong, except through common sense. i don't need an argument to debunk the parting of the red sea. but, we'll never know whether or not there was a slave revolt, or whether or not people named moses or aaron had prominent roles in it. we can say that there appears to be archaeological continuity in the near east - that there isn't any sign of an invasion - but that's not really a proof that it didn't happen. good skeptics need to throw away the obvious nonsense and remain agnostic as to the general plot line. but, nonetheless, the jewish scriptures tell a story of a people that escaped from slavery with the help of divine intervention - and is then sent into slavery again, in repentance for their sins. a true judaism is consequently a kind of liberation theology. these are a people that identify as escaped slaves, and attach their ability to be free to upholding their pious behaviour: god gives them freedom in exchange for good behaviour.

the christian sources are only mildly better, but they hint at what is by far the most attractive society of the three. what we can piece together about these gnostic sects is that they were not much different than the mystery cults of the day - that they engaged in wild sexual practices under the influence of gratuitous drug and alcohol consumption deep in caves and other hidden places. a pure christianity is consequently a kind of pagan sex cult - but one that is built on egalitarian values and a crude understanding of socialism. then, power corrupts. remember: the office of the pope is actually the same thing as that of the high priest of rome. these conservative christian values only came in after the fact: christianity was initially pretty wild, and is on the very far left in it's most pure form.

but, islam doesn't have a history of this sort. mohammad was a warrior king, and these rules are designed to aid conquest. what islam is is a reflection of the christianity that existed in the period of heraclius. here's some history you don't know: jihad was invented by a roman emperor, who launched a holy war against the persians to recover the true cross and return it to jerusalem, then still a roman city. and, the crusades were more of a war against persia than a war against islam, the muslims merely taking the place of the iranians (and, the franks of the romans). pure islam is imperialism and colonization. it's ethnic nationalism. it's a set of rules to organize conquest with. and, it's a system of laws to decree in an empire, from the top down. this is inherently different.

so, the argument of "pure islam" comes from either direction. the truthful argument of pure islam attaches it to the ideology of isis, while the revisionist take tries to appropriate the christian heritage for itself, out of no legitimate history or actual tradition.

islam was more moderate in later stages. and, those seeking a moderate islam should be speaking of reformation, not of purity.

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and, i have now printed.

that should ship tomorrow....

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i haven't printed yet. there's a stench in the other room. i'm hoping it's gone by the time i wake up.

instead, i finished all of the facebook stuff up to inri063 - and i don't expect to add anything to any of these, but we'll see how it unfolds.

this should be a quick run through over the next week or two. and, then i'm caught up.

i'll get back at it when i wake up.

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why is facebook so insistent that i "may know" people in their 20s?

i'm almost 40.

i don't know anybody in their 20s...

for a site that prides itself on it's algorithms, you'd think they wouldn't make such an obvious error.

i don't know anybody. but, can you at least throw people my own age at me, guys? yeesh.

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Sunday, November 12, 2017

from the communists at the world economic forum:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JCdruGsI1fw


don't let them tell you it's about a rising middle class.

they're looking to exploit the cheap labour.

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so, i'm finally done typing up the liner notes on this thing. i did a lot of second guessing, but i'm done with it.

i'm going to need to eat, first.

after that, i'll distribute it over facebook, do the actual liner notes and print it.

it's a civic holiday here tomorrow, so i'll have to wait until tuesday to ship. but it should be ready to go, a least.

tuesday should be a busy day, as i'll need to get groceries & get my bike fixed & call around about utilities & odsp, as well.

59 & 60 will be fast, but it looks like i'm going to have to do an aleph run after 60 so i probably won't get the next package done by tuesday. the next package will be 60 & 62 when it's ready to go, maybe by friday.

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sure, it's an encylopedia entry.

but, sadly, that's maybe where so many people need to start on the topic. canadians seem strangely ignorant of our own history.

canada was an extremely important player in the cold war. it wasn't by repeating everything that america said, and following it's every command, but rather by proposing an alternative path towards dispute resolution. we played an integral part in the disarmament treaties. this carried forward into a number of other conflicts, including the hostage situation in iran.

when i hear "canada is back", that means, to me, that it is back to the historical role that it played as a mediator. but, it isn't back. it is, in truth, further from it's historic place than it's ever been.

the reason canada will not get a security council seat is that most of the world does not see it as having an independent foreign policy. it is not much different than giving poland a seat in 1960. this is a travesty, for a country that has historically been such an important foil to the dominant narrative of east v west, and that has one of the largest economies in the world.

the person to blame is stephen harper. i don't recognize my liberal party. but, of all of the ways that this government has carried on with the previous one's policies, it's in the realm of foreign policy that it's most disappointing.

http://www.thecanadianencyclopedia.ca/en/article/middle-power/#h3_jump_0
i would like to see the ndp put a strong emphasis on defeating chrystia freeland in the next election.

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i opposed the invasion of iraq, because saddam hussein was not a pillaging barbarian in any meaningful sense of the term. you could at worst accuse him of engaging in a type of hostile corporate takeover. it was more like he stormed the board of the corporation of kuwait.

and, kuwait is quiet nowadays, isn't it? you never hear anything about kuwait at all, any more.

but, isis are a group that is actually composed of pillaging barbarians, and they really do want to rape and enslave you and your family. whatever the reasons for their existence - and american imperialism is certainly at the core of it - they need to be destroyed. this is the reason we have a military: to attack targets like isis, before they come and get us.

we can't be looking at war as though it's a moral question, it just leads to appeasement. sometimes, you have to eat or be eaten. sometimes, you have to do horrible things and then justify it after the fact - and reasonable people will understand that. this is reality. and, reality is not built on idealism.

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i will reiterate that there are a couple of things a civilized country needs a military for. they are:

1) defence against pillaging barbarians that want to rape and enslave you and your family.
2) that would include defence against nazis, especially if your existing society is pluralistic.
3) that would also include defence against religious fundamentalists, especially if your existing society is secular.

i'm sorry if you're too stupid to see the reality in front of you.

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republishing inri058

there are a few ideas in my discography that i've explored from multiple angles, but nothing else at all like this track, which has been through multiple complete rethinks involving multiple people over the course of sixteen years. as the revisions are so diverse, i think that a comprehensive collection of interpretations is a proper entry within my discography.

in the end, this emerges as my seventh symphony.

the collection is to be arranged chronologically in four discs consisting of two 2xcd sets, with the first two discs consisting of mixes that were meant for inclusion in band projects and the third and fourth consisting of mixes that were created after the track was moved into my own various one-person projects. i've placed the third disc at the front of the sequence to stress the july, 2002 release date.

further discussions of the various incarnations of the tracks appear on the track pages, or are linked out from the track pages. please click through.

written over 2001 and rethought repeatedly over 2002, again in 2007, a third time in 2009 and one last time in late 2014. final mixes were completed over the last week of november and the first week of december, 2014. the concept was rethought on nov 3, 2017, which led to the inclusion of five more mixes and an expansion from two cds to four cds. as always, please use headphones.

the album version of the track (track 9), reconstructed in 2014, appears on my seventh record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ftaa

the 2002 vocal mix appears on the rabit is wolf demo:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/rabit-is-wolf

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2002, 2004, 2006, 2007, 2009, 2014, 2017).
 

credits

released july 4, 2002

j - electric & acoustic & classical guitars, analog & digital effects & processing, electric bass guitar, synthesizers, drum programming, orchestral sequencing (12), drum manipulation, vocal manipulation, voice (9), digital wave editing, loops, equalizers, soundscaping, sampling, composition, production, cover art

sean - vocals/lyrics (2,5,7), ring modulator (7-9, 11, 13-14, 16)
greg - drum performance sample source (4, 6-9, 11, 13)
bob - hammering (3)

the rendered electronic orchestra on track 12 includes tuba, saxophone, flute, clarinet, orchestra hit, piano, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and various full string sections.

numbers refer to the physical tracklisting, rather than the bandcamp ordering.



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regarding the vlogs...

yes, i'm still vlogging. the major purpose was to document the music, remember. the rest of it is just incidental.

if we assume that i get my keys on nov 29th, and everything works out properly, i should be done finalizing the discography up until about 2004, by then. i'm going to push through until i get to a point where i need to actually do some more recording. that's about that point - maybe a little later, maybe more like mid 2005. things start to get less linear around 2003 until about 2011. this is periods 3 (trivial group) & 4 (proverbs).

the next thing to do is to catch up on the alter-reality, which is getting a little bit urgent.

in order to get back to editing the hundreds of gigabytes of files i have to edit, i have to fix my main laptop, which fried in an electrical storm at the end of august. that is going to be my editing machine. and, i won't get back to doing that until i've caught up on the discography to a proper point.

i'm also going to be moving, now, so it makes sense to tie the apartment upgrades i was doing to setting up the new apartment. and, this won't be the first thing i do, either. i need bookshelves first, probably.

it probably won't be by january 1st. but it will happen, eventually. and, i might even decide to stagger it a year, in the end. it might be kind of intriguing: alter-reality by 20, vlogs by 1.

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listen, i don't know how many times i have to say it, but the reason i don't make any sense to you is that i'm so much older than you.

it's called a generation gap. and, it's mutual. and, it's not my fault that you see me as your age, when i keep telling you that i'm not of your age group - that i'm very firmly in the centre of gen x.

but, i mean, they told me this would happen. when i was your age, i mean. they said we'd get squeezed out - that nobody would acknowledge we even exist. that we'd get passed over by people older than us that don't understand us, and get ignored by people younger than us that don't understand us. we were warned. we knew this was coming.

but, stop pretending there's something else underlying it. it's a generation gap. that's all.

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Saturday, November 11, 2017

so, the next thing i have to ship is a four cd set and you can imagine that it's not obvious how to do this.

i actually looked at quad cases, but they don't make sense from a booklet perspective. i don't like the slim doubles, because you end up with a flimsy back in the cover art. and, while the sturdier doubles might be a nice way to professionally manufacture these, it would be kind of lame to drop a printer-paper booklet in.

i've decided i'm going to ship these in single cases for now. if i ever get them printed professionally, i'll revisit that. this particular release would make sense as two doubles.

so, i've updated the cover art on my previous two doubles, as well, and will need to make sure i'm creating the right kind of packaging in the future.

inri043:



inri047



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i was looking for anything substantive that he had to say about the tpp...

...but the reality is that the only way he knows how to win an election is via the sikh community. but, this is another litmus test: can he win an actual election in an open riding by winning the support of a broader-based coalition? because he's not an ethnic candidate anymore, he's representing a national party. he'd better be able to do it.

clearly, he doesn't think he can.

and, he might be right.

i have an idea that would help...

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http://www.huffingtonpost.ca/2017/11/08/jagmeet-singh-says-he-has-no-plans-to-run-in-upcoming-federal-byelections_a_23271040/
ok.

so, there was supposed to be a signing, but it didn't happen.

it seems like the media leaked - maybe from some party insiders - a little ahead of the gun. maybe part overly eager, and part manufacturing reality. but, in the end, it didn't work.

they can agree in principle all they want, what's important is what gets signed.

so, i guess that's a good thing, for now.

but, this government needs to avoid this like the plague. and, let the anzac countries have their own backlash to massive outsourcing to malaysian child labour - maybe they'll come back to us, one-on-one.

a free trade agreement with japan - even if it ends up as auto parts for beef - would be fine with me. it would probably just bring the japanese manufacturers more thoroughly over the border, from detroit. they're not going to make parts in japan and ship them here; what we want to stop them from doing is making parts in malaysia and shipping them here.

https://www.thestar.com/news/canada/2017/11/11/canadas-decision-to-decline-tpp-agreement-shouldnt-have-been-a-surprise-trudeau.html
is there or is there not a tpp agreement?

there was an agreement in principle, but not an actual agreement? is that right?

i understand that the tory media is supporting this, and that it likes to manufacture reality, but can we get a straight answer?

jagmeet singh must cut his beard.
is it possible that burial is actually an act of defiance?

"that fucking lion's been eyeing my wife for months, and she might have died of plague, *cough*, but there's no damned way i'm letting that lion get to her, now. not after all the trouble i went through in evolving bipedalism. not after i've started eating protein. no fucking way. so, i'll tell you: if i can't have her, no other species can, either. *cough*."

because, it's kind of an anti-social act, in a broader food web kind of way, right? every other species gets eaten by scavengers. and, all carnivores and omnivores are opportunistic scavengers. we give the rest of the animals a really dramatic "fuck you" by leaving ours underground, where only the worms can get to them.

maybe our ancestors actually thought that through. maybe it's intentional - maybe we're really just assholes.

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nov 9-10, 2017 vlog, where i get a new apartment and follow through on serving the old landlord.

actually, i don't think that the bible gives the jews any special right to any holy lands in the first place.

so, i don't need to pull out the khazar theory to deny any concept of a jewish right of return; the religious basis is bullshit to begin with.

it's worse than bullshit. it's insane.

think about what you're saying: you're claiming that it's ok to displace a population of people based on a promise handed down by god to somebody that walked across a desert at 120 years old in the iron age, only to collapse before he saw a "promised land".

there is no such goddamned thing as a motherfucking "promised land". alright? got it? yeesh.

how can serious people make serious policy based on such absurd idiocy? how did we let powerful institutions get taken over by such stupidity? and how did we allow this to actually happen?

i will always defer to the science, and the science says it is dubious, but i must admit that i do find the khazarian theory of ashkenazi origins as a plausible explanation of the origin of white jews. but, it has no effect on how i view israel because i don't think that brown jews have a right to a "promised land", either - because i think the idea of a "promised land" is completely fucking insane.

are there holes in the arguments detracting from the theory? well, i'm not going to do a systemic review. but if what you're doing is taking dna from some existing georgians and comparing it with dna from white jews and pointing out that they don't match, you're not really testing what you think you're testing. you could just as well deduce that the georgians aren't khazars, right? and, does anybody actually think that they are?

i've seen studies that suggest some genetic affinity between white jews and iranians, and it's maybe a little closer to the point.

but, i will defer. i must.

and, jagmeet singh must cut his beard.