Saturday, October 5, 2019

last night was eventful, but too cold to risk getting stuck outside in, so i did plan to get home, and did. i didn't get to sleep until close to 7:00. i'll do a review of the weekend up on monday.

for now: is it time to get predictive about the election, yet? if we're going to start seeing movement on the left, including in quebec, it's going to start soon, so take this analysis carefully. it could be out the window next week. but, based on what the polls are saying, what should we expect?

i'll start by pointing out that i think that the models that you see are fundamentally flawed in two ways.

first, they operate on aggregates, under the argument that it's a bigger sample size, but with no attempt to analyze the quality of the data. aggregates would be a good idea if all of the surveys were exactly the same. but, when you just throw everything into a giant pot and mix it up like they do, you're not "increasing the sample size", you're really just distorting the data. the bad surveys don't augment the good surveys by increasing the sample size, they just fuck up the sample. worse, you're doing apples and oranges comparisons across different sampling methods and modelling decisions. it's just not a good idea.

second, they smooth the data out, and they do it because they have to. so, they'll take a sampling frame called "alberta" and then calculate the results and then force them equally into calgary, edmonton and all of the rural areas. it's hard to take them seriously, for that reason.

in order to get good, predictive results, what we need are strong snapshots close to the election with far more detailed sampling frames than anybody wants to invest in. as it is, if you want to extrapolate the data well, you need to be knowledgeable about the different areas and essentially read into what the numbers are saying, by looking at what similar numbers provided for in the past.

the defenders of the models will claim i'm being irrigorous, and i don't deny that. i don't uphold this process as ideal. don't try this at home! but, the fact is that their models suck. this is less of a problem in the united states, where the states are smaller and more homogeneous, which is where these companies get their operating procedures from. until the industry decides to develop intrinsically canadian models from first principles, and revamps itself from scratch, starting with better sampling frames, this is the best that i can do.

so, what have we got?

the papers are focusing in on these day-to-day changes in polling leads, but the fact that both of the daily tracking firms that are publishing data are flipping every couple of days, and often contradict each other, demonstrates the point clearly enough: the parties are statistically tied in national polling numbers.

so, is it a coin toss? do the conservatives have a serious chance of winning?

no.

the regional polling has the liberals way ahead in ontario across the spectrum. if the liberals pull off ~45% in ontario, they're going to sweep the urban areas. if the ndp are really polling at 10% or lower, that sweep is going to be that much more pronounced. further, if the greens are really trending upwards in rural ontario, that's going to help the liberals, dramatically, as well. based on the data i'm seeing right now, it's reasonable to suggest that the liberals could win 100+ seats in ontario, by holding the gta and picking up a number of ndp strongholds.

if that happens, jagmeet singh should resign immediately.

there is a caveat, here: everybody has the ndp polling around 10-12%, except nanos, who is a bit of an outlier in this respect. he continues to have them pushing the top of the margin of error, that is closer to 15%, and maybe a little bit out of it. the signal appears to be significantly different. nanos is usually startlingly accurate, but he seems to be out of bounds on this. if he's right, the ndp may hold on to some of these seats. but, if everybody else is right, the ndp could be nearly wiped out of this province.

in the east, any increase in green support would appear to be cutting less into liberal support and more into ndp support. so, while it's tempting to think that the greens are just going to split the vote and help the consevatives, that doesn't seem to be actually true. i would expect the greens to poll higher than the ndp across the province, but that might just end up meaning a lot of second or third place finishes. it doesn't look like the picture is going to substantively change, here - the liberals should win most or all of these seats.

quebec is always messy, and in the end depends on turnout. with four or five major parties, polling data even a week before the vote is of minimal value, in quebec. but, the trends do appear to be towards the bloc and the greens, mostly at the expense of the ndp. at this point, it would be reasonable to assume that the bloc will steal most, if not all, of the existing ndp seats in the province. the liberals wanted to pick up setas here, but they'll be lucky if they manage to avoid losing any to the resurgent bloc, especially if the greens cut into their vote in any substantive way.

so, if the liberals end up losing 5-6% nationally, where is it, then? the answer is out west.

does it matter if the liberals go from 15% in alberta to 3%? broadly, no. they might lose a few seats. but, that will come out as an exaggerated drop in the national numbers. likewise, they may come in fourth place in saskatchewan, but they only have one seat there, anyways - and it's both the safest and least safe liberal seat in the country.

manitoba and british columbia are more important, with bc being more important than manitoba. the liberals do not compete provincially in manitoba, and the spectrum is shifted in bc. so, there are prominent provincial ndp parties that are overpowering the unelectability of jagmeet singh. the recent provincial results in ndp were not exactly inspiring, but they are better than the ndp is doing in most places, right now. so, the liberals could be in for some close fights with the ndp in winnipeg - but that's just a few seats. in bc, the liberals are going to get stung, but with the greens and ndp in a dogfight for the anti-pipeline vote, it's not yet clear who picks up the seats. if the greens get a majority of these seats, it's really "game over" for the ndp - even if they finish third, nationally.

when you add it up, then, the liberals are poised to win seats in ontario and lose seats pretty much every where else. so, it's going to be close - you're either looking at a very weak liberal majority or a very strong liberal minority. and, while it's not yet clear who the third party will be, it does not seem as thought it will be the ndp - it will either be the bloc or the greens.

the conservatives simply don't have the numbers in ontario right now to be looking at forming a minority government. gains made in the west may even be offset by losses in the east.

that's just the data, right now. we'll see what it says in a few weeks.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this

Friday, October 4, 2019

so, abortion rights are supposed to be about choice. i actually think what they're about is bodily autonomy, which is what morgantaler actually said, but we can go with it being about choice.

let's think about that for a second.

what are some other things that are about choice?

well, consent is about choice - they're synonymous concepts, really. and, we recognize that consent cannot be coerced. so, you can't consent when you're drunk, and you can't consent when you're underage and there are some open questions about what consent means when there's relationships of power. by extension, sex work is also about choice, and we don't accept concepts of coercion attached to that, either - we insist that these choices are truly free.

anarchists argue that labour ought to be about choice, while recognizing that the fundamental basis of capitalism is that it isn't. capitalism is the economic system in which we don't allow for meaningful choice in labour decisions. fighting for real choice in labour is what anarchism is all about.

yet, we don't seem to recognize these concepts of coercion when it comes to abortion, for some reason. when somebody gets pregnant, and aborts due to finances, we consider that a choice - while we wouldn't consider sex work to be a choice, in that situation. it's a bit of a contradiction.

we went through something similar to this in the gay movement. the idea that homosexuality was not a choice was so politically important that the actual science got completely ignored. we're slowly getting to the point where we can have a more mature conversation about this, and recognize that accepting that the actual science on this issue is unsettled doesn't mean gay people don't have rights, or that conversion therapy is somehow justified; it's ok to say that being gay is a choice, and that that choice should be accepted and respected for what it is. next gen, hopefully.

likewise, women have been so insistent on demanding that they have bodily autonomy, that they've maybe been less thoughtful than they should be about what that actually means.

so, when i hear a green candidate say things like "well, maybe if women had more options they wouldn't necessarily choose an abortion", i don't interpret that as anti-choice. rather, i interpret that as having a more sophisticated and nuanced understanding of what a choice actually is, in context.

supporting the right of women to make this choice should mean ensuring that they have the material conditions to actually make a choice. abortion shouldn't be a hobson's choice, which is what it often is.

and, that's not a centrist position. it's not even a liberal position. this is socialism - and it's truly pro-choice. it's choicier, you could say. so, i would support these positions because i'm pro-choice, not in spite of it.

and, it makes me wonder exactly what mr. singh is thinking when he challenges statements such as this as anti-choice. does he think abortion should be a hobson's choice, as it so often is? or is he just talking out of his cock?

abortion's a gross thing, and most women don't take it lightly. i understand my biology. but, i'd expect that this more subtle approach to this topic would be well-received by most women that have uteri. there's a pro-abortion sub-culture that is kind of psychopathic, and that most people in politics should try to stay away from.

women need to have bodily autonomy, for a variety of reasons, not the least of which being that their bodies belong to them. but, let's make sure we have a good understanding of what that actually means before we speak.

ms. may should be ripping mr. singh apart for mansplaining this to her, and really just being a general asshole about it.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
so, let's say bernie drops tomorrow. who are his voters?

- the ethnic voters (blacks, latinos) will probably go to biden.
- the old-white-male preference voters (the viagra vote. and, it's real.) will probably go to biden.
- the kids are what's really up for grabs.

will the kids go for warren?

she's going to need them to...

warren needed bernie to drop to have a serious lane, but it's by no means obvious that the condition is sufficient.

the media may, in fact, find itself shocked to learn that bernie's imminent resignation just hands it to biden.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
well, that's unexpected.


guess we'll need to put that off a little later, then.

i might be able to drop off some of those #5 caps at the whole foods though. i'll have to call to ask them about it, first.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
and, what's my take on sitting at the back of the symphony hall?

well, i'm there to listen, and it's pretty loud anywhere in the building.

i think it's more of a status thing, really; if you really analyze it mathematically, the sound won't be measurably worse up there.

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there's still tickets, it's just that the website doesn't work with my version of firefox. i could see them when i logged into it via chrome, but i can't buy because i don't have a credit card, and it doesn't take pay pal.

i guess the best thing to do is go down tomorrow before the show....

and, actually, i should finally drop off some of the recycle stuff at the depot, too.

ok.

so, there's my day for tomorrow planned - i'll need to go down early and do some running around.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
it's the 5th...

i should have seen that coming.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
the symphony might be sold out :(.

i'll be by there early in the morning anyways, so i might get a quick cancellation, but i might have to find something else to do in the afternoon.

and, of course, i have to sit at the very top, where it's like $15. i can't spent $300 on symphony tickets.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
yeah, i'm doing this.


05/06: 
20:00-23:00 - prissy whip @ trumbullplex. $10
23:30-10:00 - marble show. $13.50 (if you get them soon, they've gone up twice).
11:00-13:00 - eat. $10
15:00-17:00 - beethoven's 5th @ dso. $15.
18:00-23:00 - post-rock show @ new dodge. $10.

that's a lighter night, actually - i'm starting off in the dance club, so i should have tons of energy.

i'll remind you that the last time i was at marble i'd already been out 24 hours before i got there, and i had those edibles, of unknown strength. even so, i wasn't drunk, so much as i was falling asleep.

i'm an empiricist. so, let's look at the data. for those that were eying me, is the following sequence of events not true?

- at a little after 2:00 am, before the vibert set started, i was out smoking in the back back near the portapotties, and somebody was like "vibert is playing", and i said "i want to finish my smoke", and then didn't actually finish it.
- during the set somebody mentioned that i looked "more than a little bit fucked up", which was no doubt true. i didn't have a mirror. i'll take them at their word. but o kept dancing.
- and i did try valiantly to dance, but i really was falling asleep.
- so, i went out back and enjoyed the ambient set, instead. and i did - it was a good set.
- several people gave me water, and i said no.

if i was black out drunk, or even just really shitfaced, i wouldn't have remembered any of that, would i? therefore, i actually wasn't that drunk. qed.

i was smashed. i don't deny it. but it was a lack of sleep combined with edibles. it wasn't the alcohol. i keep telling you i'm actually pretty good with the alcohol, and it's something else when i get spacey.

i should be back to my normal dancing self this week, and am actually going to be looking to make up for lost dancing during the vibert set.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
aaaaactually, i have to admit i'd never heard of the dj at marble.

i assumed it was a local house dj; it turns out it's an older british drum 'n' bass dj, which is more my cup of tea.

hrmmn.

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i slept much of the day, guess i had to.

i am done the concert run through. there's some posts at the dtk blog on the side...

i should for real get a start on the court stuff after i get something to eat, enough that i can make a few calls in the afternoon. 

this is tentative. and, for the rest of the month, there are actually a lot of cheap shows in the corktown area, which is nice beause it means i can get over for quick shows in the week. the problem this summer has been that everything is in hamtramck or ferndale, so everything requires an overnight. pulling this stuff back into downtown is a big deal, for me.

i'm going to listen to all of this stuff more carefully. final decisions will likely be strongly weather-dependant, but being able to get home is also a major factor. for some of this stuff, i could see myself leaving my bike at the tunnel, even.

oct
04:   <-----likely
19:00-21:45 - sacri monti/earthless @ deluxx fluxx. $15.
22:30-01:30 -  bike thiefs @ phog. $5-10.

05:  <------iffy. dependent on trumbullplex show.
20:00-23:00 - prissy whip @ trumbullplex $10.
23:30-10:00 - marble show $10.
11:00-13:00 - eat $10
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------   
06:     <-------------------------------likely
15:00-17:00 - beethoven's 5th @ dso. $15.
18:00-23:00 - post-rock show @ new dodge.  $10.

09:  <------------------highly unlikely
19:00-23:00: caravan palace @ garden theatre. $30.
23:30-02:00: ufo?

10:  <----------unlikely
19:00-23:00 trumbullplex

11:  <-----leaning towards likely
early: war on women @ loving touch
late: operator music band @ outer limits

12: <-----late show?
early: pleasure city @ ufo

13: <-------unlikely
early: meute @ el club
late: the bobby lees @ pj's

14:  <-----unlikely
goblin

the liberals are supposed to do better than this

Thursday, October 3, 2019

on top of everything else, electing 100 greens in the east would be an absolutely great way to tell alberta to fuck off, wouldn't it?

the tory media is no doubt chagrined by this statement.

but, that's exactly why so many easterners are so happy about it.

the bastards over here are tired of drowning in the heat, and we may just have something to say about it. eh?

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
tipping point coming? tipping point coming?

let me hear both sides, let me hear both sides, let me hear both....

we're not fear mongering, this is really happening...

https://secureservercdn.net/198.71.233.47/823.910.myftpupload.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/10/2019-1445-CTV-Globe-Nanos-ELXN-Quebec-Ballot-Comparison-of-Weeks-1-and-2-Compiled.pdf

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.

so, i was supposed to get to work last night, as soon as i finished the cross-reference, which literally took 12 hours.

it's not that facebook needs to upgrade it's servers, it's that the scripts it runs are so remarkably inefficient, by design. it is really the only site i know of that is like this.

so, instead of sending you a solid stream of data, they set up a script that references a database - a process that requires handshakes - every couple of kilobytes. on first glance, it's moronic, until you realize that what's slowing the whole thing down is data collection. you have to wait for them to finish tracking you, which means updating however many logs in however many places, before you're allowed to receive the next packet.

so, if i want to scroll back through 1000 posts from 2019 to 2013 to make sure the information on the page is what i want it to be, it makes me reconnect with the database every ten posts or so, so it can keep track of what i'm doing, which is particularly stupid in my case because i run an ad blocker. facebook no doubt has a thousand page file on me, documenting all the times i didn't click on anything at all. it has to document all the non-clicking, which is painfully slow.

but, what can i say? i have to do the reference...

for right now, it makes more sense for me to spend the night working out show reviews than it does to spend the night on legal documents. as mentioned: i think this will be a very light month, show wise. so, let me work the list until the 15th or so down, anyways, before i get this writing done up.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
so, it took me all night to get through the facebook cross-reference, because the site is just impossibly slow. in the mean time, i got distracted and republished my soundcloud page, for dj sets. the facebook cross-reference is at least done.

how do you get your music in the ears of people if you can't find a drummer? i don't like metal, and the punk scene is moribund in any meaningful sense (what is left of it is pretty much just garbage). there's no such thing as alternative rock anymore. so, i'm stuck choosing between folk and techno, and i'm far more techno than i am folk, even if i'm really neither.

i dunno. i see these djs around town that like to pretend they're doing serious art, and most (all) of them aren't. but, this is the medium, so what else is there to do besides deal with it?

i've got a few sets up to start. if i can get some people to bite, and can find a crowd, however small, willing to listen, then we go to the next stage from there.

the truth is that i should have done this a long time ago, actually.

the site is on the side, as well.

https://soundcloud.com/deathtokoalas

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
to be clear: i will not be voting for any of the candidates at the debate tonight, and consequently have no intention of wasting my time watching it.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.

Wednesday, October 2, 2019

hey.

if you exceed life expectancy, then you did beat the odds.

after that, you're just operating on bullshit luck.

so, if he makes it another year, he's exceptional. 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
facts suck.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
at the very least, in quebec, in 2019, if you're going to invite the ndp, you have to invite the greens, too.

if you're not going to invite the greens, you should also exclude the ndp.

that you would pick one and not the other is irrational, given the data.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
bc has a unique spectrum, with no provincial conservative party. in bc, the right-wing is the liberals and the centre is the ndp (like in australia). they used to have a right-wing called "social credit", but it's been dead for years (and largely eaten by the liberals). the greens have recently jumped up on the left, and currently hold the balance of power in an ndp-led government.

so, the ndp numbers are higher in bc than anywhere else for that reason - in bc, the ndp is the centre. singh is being saved by horgan.

but, don't be surprised if you wake up in a few weeks time and see them with one or two seats - or less - east of the rockies.

and, i'm sorry that i told you this would happen, but you should be sorrier that you didn't listen. nothing was more obvious. nothing was more predictable...

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
ekos wasn't the best pollster in 2015, which i think had to do with his sampling methods.

but, look at these numbers:


according to these numbers, the greens are beating the ndp in like half the country.

and, the ndp are polling at scary low numbers in a lot of places.

the debate is about whether the greens or ndp will finish in third, but if trends continue in the direction they're going, we're going to be asking if the ndp finish in 4th or 5th.

they could get wiped.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
see, this is part of the reason we can't get rid of elizabeth may - they keep giving her the opportunity to write essays like this.

of course, she's right.

given current polling realities, it's very hard to justify including the ndp and excluding the greens. this simply doesn't make sense.

https://www.macleans.ca/opinion/the-green-party-wont-be-silenced-by-tva/

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
if you're going to make me choose solely between harris and warren, that's a pretty easy choice. harris has repeatedly demonstrated herself to be an unserious candidate.

on certain fundamental points, they may be more similar than different. neither will commit to serious health care reform, for example.

but, that's not a fair fight, overall, and it's easy to see why warren is kicking her ass.

what's less clear is whether she can take advantage of any of this or not.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
"i'm going to beat the odds!"

no, you're not.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
but, to be clear, this graph makes it pretty obvious where support has been shifting and why.

warren is essentially destroying harris, and it would appear to be with female identity voters. sanders is actually roughly flat.


that means that it's not obvious that warren benefits from this.

i would be more likely to look at the greens, or some other third-party, than default to warren or biden.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i haven't seen eye-to-eye with bernie recently, but i do wish him a full recovery - in retirement.

it's sad to say that this was predictable, at his age, and i'm not the only person that questioned how far he would make it.

and, it does uphold a point that i and others have been making - it's not ageist to refer to statistics and uphold facts about aging. stats are ruthless things, and facts are even more intolerant than stats.

even if he comes back, it's over.

it's time for the left to move on, and it's not to elizabeth warren. there's still time for somebody to step in. i mean, what happens to these tens of millions of dollars that bernie raised? but, i really think that the focus needs to be to get a strong third party up and running right now.

is biden next? i'd suspect he's in better physical health. that was the difference - bernie seemed mentally sharp but physically weak, whereas biden seemed physically fine but mentally questionable. it's inevitable - not if but when.

and, then what?

all those candidates in single digits are still terrible, whether the old men are running or not.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
it's cold and rainy - not a good night to go out to hamtramck on a bicycle.

i'm looking at a double matinee on sunday - beethoven's fifth early and lpd late. maybe.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
and, the bloc.

the bloc should be killing it right now, and that they aren't seems to be a mixture of a feeling of apprehension about a couple of policies with a desire to move forwards, rather than backwards.

i understand the thing about "money and the ethnic vote". but, they need to focus less on demonizing other groups and more on promoting their own. quebec identity shouldn't be a process of defining itself against others, but a process of determining itself on it's own merits.

there is a broad feeling that the culture is under attack and needs to be protected from foreign influences, and i don't even want to challenge the point because i agree that it's true, but the party has been focusing too much on this in recent years and not enough on upholding quebec for what it is. if it wants to get over the hump and get back to where it was, it need some more positive messaging.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
what the greens need to do is show up and not look worse than the ndp or liberals, which is not hard to do, right now.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
the conservatives will need to elect a french lawyer as leader if they want to seriously compete in quebec.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
as for the conservatives.

they've consistently struggled to get to 20% in quebec since meech lake, and the media thinks that they're all of a sudden competitive when a few polls show them at 25% - a phenomenon unique to quebec's fragmented political system.

even so, they only won one close riding in 2015. even with all of these three or four way splits on the left, they still can barely compete.

so, don't fool yourself - quebec is not going to vote for andy scheer, except by accident. when the numbers settle - and it's mostly a two-way race between the liberals and bloc, with the greens as dark horse - the conservatives will remain uncompetitive in most regions of the province.

andy has no strategy here.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
who do you think justin's hero is?

laurier, like his father?

hopefully not reagan, like obama, surely, although some evidence leans in that direction

nope.

trudeau's hero is rocky balboa, the mentally challenged but broadly good natured fictional character played by sylvestor stallone in the rocky film series. it's as obvious as can be: this is the guy trudeau looks most up to, and wants to be most like.

don't vote for this guy again, please.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
trudeau inherited the smart party, and is trying to turn it into the stupid party by appealing to the dumbest voters out there.

and, he's at least succeeding in doing that.

boxing. really. you going to beat putin at his own game? you think this ends with a standoff against dolph lundgren at the un?

why not send him out on the beach shirtless? wait. they did.

dolph actually finished his engineering degree, fwiw. 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
....and all that boxing that trudeau does might explain where his brain cells went, maybe?

"duuhh, i did for adrian. duhhhh....."

he seems to have spent more time watching rocky than he did reading. and, you can tell.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
at this point. mr. singh needs to make it a priority to demonstrate that he actually understands what bill 21 is actually about.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
i can sit here in windsor and shake my head, but it doesn't matter.

he talks like that in quebec, and he's just going to come off as not understanding what the debate is about, and it will just dig him further into the hole he's in.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
bill 21 in quebec is not about what's on your head, it's about what's in it.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
“My presence in Quebec says, hey, there’s a better way to work together. We can work together and not discriminate based on the way we look,” said Singh.

he just doesn't understand what the whole thing is about at all.

he thinks it's just a rule that discriminates against people for looking different, and he's absolutely, 100% dead wrong.

i don't like foucault. but, has mr. singh read any?

no analysis at all.

the liberals are supposed to do better than his.

Tuesday, October 1, 2019

i'm not working for anybody.

i'm not supporting or endorsing anybody.

i've endorsed non-voting, and i'll do it again: don't vote.

what i am is a disenfranchised textbook leftist stuck in a society that has swung hard to the right, and that has somehow confused classical conservatism with socialism.

all of the parties are too right-wing for me to support.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i'm going to do dishes, brush my teeth, make coffee and then we're doing legal stuff tonight.

no more fucking around...

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
it seems like i'm in tonight.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
there goes jenny kwan clutching her pearls again...

she is by far the single most annoying member of parliament. i hope she loses her seat.

the reality is that most of them aren't legit refugees, and most of them will be sent back. the article also notes where popular opinion stands on this point, which is important, because it's a policy issue.

jenny is entitled to her opinions, but she's not entitled to make up facts. this guy is just telling the truth, and it's long past time that the ndp started to, too.

https://www.cbc.ca/radio/thecurrent/the-current-for-oct-1-2019-1.5303044/irregular-border-crossers-aren-t-real-refugees-says-conservative-candidate-1.5303979

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
and, don't tell me i'm ignorant, either.

it's not my country. it's not my history.

you're ignorant.

read up on canadian history, and get back to me.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
the irony here is that the liberal party itself is the institution least likely to understand that.

so, who leaked the pictures?

i suspect - without evidence - that it may have been an inside job, because you'd have to think like an american to think it would hurt him, and that's a quality you'd assign to a frustrated liberal staffer, or somebody trying to make a move for the leadership spot.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
to be clear, and terse, that is the reason why the blackface pictures are not hurting trudeau: canada is a different country with a different history that sees race through a different lens.

when we see somebody in black makeup, we don't see 19th century american minstrels mocking black people. that was something that happened in a different country with a different culture.

we just see a white guy in makeup.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
americans might think that canadians are pretty much the same as them.

but, canadians think we're very different.

we're to america as the irish or scots are to the brits.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
what's the most recent announcement from the conservatives?

they want to cut foreign aid, and give it away as tax cuts.

good luck winning an election in canada with that.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
like, bananas are racist, now?

what?

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
so, this type of article is actually predictable, from the tory media, that is so out of touch that it doesn't know it's out of touch. i even told you that something like this would happen, that you'd get bizarre self-rationalizations to explain why the pundits were so wrong.

but, listen. i explained the reasons why canadians were unlikely to care about the types of "scandals" hitting him. blackface is an american thing; the reality is that canadians don't "get it", because it doesn't make sense in the context of our own history. i told you it wouldn't hurt him much, and it looks like it hasn't. if anything, singh seems to have taken a hit for over-reacting. and, the snc-lavalin thing was a triviality - it was just as predictable that nobody would care about that, either.

canadians want to vote on social issues, we don't want to get bogged down by stupid scandals. if you were to replace trudeau with any other politician, you'd see the same thing.

so, it's not because trudeau is special, it's because these things don't matter to people. and, in that sense, perhaps we are special - we seem to be immune to the smear campaigns in the tory media, across the board.

maybe it's because so few people read the papers?

they were able to get to wynne for some reason, and a smart media analyst could maybe try to figure that out, but it was an anomaly in this country. this kind of thing usually fails here...

so long as the conservatives remain terrible, and the ndp runs a guy that thinks he has a magic beard, and the liberals are half-ways acceptable on policy (the latter point being questionable, at the moment), these kinds of things will not hurt them.

if you want to beat the liberals, you need to beat them on policy that people actually care about. that's been true for a hundred years, and it'll probably be true for a hundred more.

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/opinion/article-justin-trudeaus-brand-is-too-big-to-fail/

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
i know there's people reading this blog. lots of them.

you need to start sending me cash.

yes, you're going to get this for free anyways, but only up to the point that i can actually do it - and i need cash to exist.

so, what happens if i run into financial issues and have to....ugh.....get a job?

i'll less time to think, less time to write, less time to create and less time to party. posts will dry up. you'll lose this. the horrors.

you're supposed to buy my music, that's how this is supposed to work. that's what i want you to do. but, if you find that difficult for whatever reason, you can throw me money at patreon or even at noise trade.

i'm obviously getting something out of this, and i'll do it for free for as long as i can. there's no threat that i'm going to stop, so long as i can keep going. the question is - how long can i keep going?

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
no, i don't think the universe is a hologram.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
so, what happened?

i fell asleep yesterday morning around 9:00 and woke up around 16:30, then didn't get to groceries until close to 19:00. i spent all night last night doing groceries - i even made it out to the all night grocery store to pick up a few things i couldn't find elsewhere, before close.

i didn't get through that facebook process.

i bought a large pizza right at 2:00, ate 60% of it (i hadn't really eaten since friday), watched a lecture on the universe being a hologram (the idea that you can embed three or four dimensional space into a two-dimensional surface goes back as far as euclid, but the mathematical truth of this construction says nothing about empirical reality - this is a typical positivist error. it's tautological, basically, and not such a deep observation, when looked at carefully. i once heard hawking argue that reality is defined as the model. ack. noooooooooooo. also, the observer effect doesn't imply that humans have laser eyes, like superman. we capture the light that already exists; we don't create it. that's not interfering with anything, a priori. but, i think susskind was just using a bad pop culture analogy there, and should be more careful about the words he chooses. it came off as hokey quantum mysticism. i think he knows that humans aren't ubermensch, that we don't have laser eyes. and, he can do the experiment with kryptonite, if he's not sure.), took a shower and fell asleep.

so, i lost a day and a half and will pick up where i left off.

i did spend a lot of last night outside, so i didn't waste the weather. and, i'm good to go on groceries for a while, now. i let myself get low on a few things the last few months. the crash in the weather means it's time to start putting nuts away for the winter....

i'll want to make sure that there's nothing tonight, but i don't see anything. and, we're looking at rain all day tomorrow. so, let's get to the legal shit, i guess.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this. 
the black bloc are cops, guys.

they've even admitted it more than twice.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.  
should bernier be at the debate?

elizabeth may can't really argue against it, without coming off as a hypocrite. singh doesn't want him there.

see, this is a point where anarchists break with communists, in that anarchists tend to position themselves more in the liberal tradition of free speech. just about every anarchist i've ever studied would argue that what you need to do in this kind of situation is let bernier discredit himself. if you find yourself in the position of being afraid that his ideas may spread if provided a platform, you're implicitly implying that you think he's on to something.

i don't think that bernier will help his own cause - he's the kind of politician that people like less, the more they hear of him.

i think there's a valid argument that he's wasting everybody's time. but, i don't want to exclude him on the basis of censoring him - i'd rather let him make a fool of himself. that is how we get rid of bad ideas, like ending supply management.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.  

Monday, September 30, 2019

the defeater record is better than the last few, but i'm not feeling like it's going to be enough to drag me out.

i think i'll make a judgement on wedenesday that will depend on the weather.

but, this could be a super quiet month; the most exciting venue this month seems to be the dso.

i think i'm actually more excited about new records by 65dos and swans. if i can plan the toronto trip around 65dos...

i don't see anything in windsor over the next few days, either.

i may end up skipping this little blip altogether. *shrug*.

so, i need to get some groceries and get to some more serious focus on the court stuff. we're 'there', now. it looks like i've got the cash to put aside to plan this.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.  
so, let's see what defeater's been up to recently.

i haven't really been that interested in them for quite a while, either.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.  
yeah.

rattle & hum, then.

i'll catch you when you come back with a full band...

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.  
the joy formidable show on wednesday is....unplugged.

it's just worrisome because it screams 'hipster'. i don't want to judge them on their decibel level, exactly. i'm just a little worried that it might not actually be very fun.

there's some bands that you kind of expect to play loud, and that may actually not be very interesting, otherwise.

and, it's an early show in ferndale, too. so i've gotta show up for 19:00 to catch an acoustic set? eh...

let me check some samples.

they may have gone full hipster, in which case count me out.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.  
so, i'm going to need to cross-reference the music facebook page, a frustrating process due to the lengthy nature of doing so. they don't let you jump. you have to scroll back through hundreds of posts. it's enough to get off of it, which i have, but i insist on maintaining it for some reason.

it could take all day.

so, i'll need to multitask.

i need to pay rent, get groceries and get a start on the legal thing today, although i don't expect to look at it seriously until wednesday or thursday, depending on further circumstances. after 19:00 tonight, i'll also need to actually set up the recording machine properly for the first time since jan, 2018 (!) to get those liner notes filed and take a serious look at the next batch of material.

if i can get out to a few shows over the next few days, i'd like to.

but, i could be posting further releases by this time, tomorrow morning.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.  

first liner note release for inri000

these are the first demos i recorded, written 1994-1996 and recorded in the second half of 1996. this corresponds to the end of my 15th year and the beginning of my grade 10 school year. on the one hand, it's an intriguing document of a socially maladjusted teenage punk. on the other hand, it's a 15 year-old kid learning how to use a recording studio (and how to play the drums). influences are displayed on my sleeve just a little too loudly at times.

i was attempting to create something that could be described by the words disturbing, schizophrenic, unique, bizarre, twisted. looking back, i think i succeeded more than i realized at the time. this is a difficult listen that would be appealing to fans of the obscurantist reaches of 80s punk and 90s grunge. i manage to maintain a strange sense of melody, though. in truth, my current adult self is somewhat impressed with my teenaged self at this current point.

that being said, it should not be forgotten that i was fifteen. i am at times rather crude, and i display a childlike understanding of certain issues. most poetry written at the age of fifteen is not particularly insightful. again, though, i surprise myself at points.

this is the first time i'm publishing these demos in any form. i've remained frighteningly self-conscious of them over the years. over the last seventeen years, the audience has been extremely limited. initial reactions suggested i take some time to perfect my performance skills, particularly my drumming skills. however, this indicated a lack of understanding of my intent in the overall sound. the playing is quite purposefully abstract with the aim of exploring mental illness.

the demos were initially dub-mastered onto a 110 minute tape that would have flipped after the eighth track. that tape was at some point recorded into a soundblaster and compressed very heavily; this is the only source of the material that i still have. so, i had to decompress the files from those 128 (or worse) kbps mp3s and run them through some digital mastering equipment in an attempt to "undo" the compression. what that is is a half-effective trick to recover data that is in actuality forever lost. nonetheless, i should point out that while these files were recorded entirely in 1996, they were substantially digitally modified in late 2013. finalized on june 26, 2016. first liner note release added on sept 30, 2019. as always, please use headphones.

i consider this an archival release with little direct listening value. i've pointed out repeatedly that i was 15. however, various segments have been isolated and pulled out for a higher listenability value over here:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inricycled-a

this release also includes a printable j-card insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries in doc & pdf from all phases of production (1993-1996, 2013-2019). as of sept 30, 2019, the release includes a 47 page booklet that includes journal entries from the remastering process over sept-oct, 2013.
 

credits

released December 25, 1996

j - guitars, effects, bass, drums, vocals, keyboards, tapes, found sounds, percussion, production.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-1

the liberals are supposed to do better than this. 
so, as promised, here is an example of the first run of the liner notes.

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1TybN3uKUhEH1KKD8HphcYoFc-r59NqrN

this is just a dummy file; the final result will be three or four times this length. but, considering that my music archive is now nearly 700 pages, why did i cut it down to a mere 47 pages?

a mere 47 pages? these are liner notes. back in the day, when people bought records, a 47 page booklet with digital photos would be the deluxe edition, guys.

the bulk of the writing in the music journal actually exists for the context of the aleph discs, where it will be used as the front-end for an interactive multimedia presentation. this is coming down the road. for right now, what you get is a truncated version of the journal that is relevant solely in the context of it being liner notes. if you want the full journal, it's up for download, too. 

this is one of the things that we've lost in the digital age, so what i'm doing is trying to find a way to bring that back, in a way that makes sense to people that think that physical media is an anachronism. but, they're liner notes - you don't put things like reviews of other people's work, or conversations with friends, in your liner notes. you save things like that for the actual journals.

the above document will be inserted into the following download within a few minutes, in pdf and doc form. future liner notes will not be posted in this fashion.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-1

the liner notes are also a perpetual work in progress, and they have to be. the next update will be at the finalization stage in mid-2016, which i hope to get up asap, but will also include notes published to youtube over 2014-2015, as well as other things. there will need to be a third update in 2026 (or 2027) that adds all of the loose ends, including the alter-reality posts.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i'm cutting myself off on the reconstruction at the start of 2018, for now. i'll have to go back after, but i just want to catch up until the end of period 2, and then get back to what i was doing. i'm otherwise going to get stuck in a loop and never be able to catch up.

so, while all the ranting i've done since mid-2018 is going to eventually get worked into the liner notes, insofar as it is relevant to each release, it'll have to wait until i start cleaning up periods 3 and 4, in a comparable process.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
to get your head around the totality of what i'm doing...


i'm tempted to include the pre-existing alter-reality notes for this release, but i'm not going to. note that this won't actually come up again in the alter-reality until 2026, as i've pushed it back by ten years. i should just be focused on catching up for now, and then focusing on two rather than ten different realities. i have a tendency to over-complicate things and then got lost in the trivialities.

so, the second release will correspond with the finalization period and include notes on the release that were posted between 11/2013-06/2016. i'd hope to get this up asap, actually.

then, the third and final release will happen at the end of 2026, and should include everything, in complete totality.

is it more clear what i'm doing, yet?

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
this feels good.

i've got something done, almost.

but, i won't be able to plow through with november, which will allow me to publish several liner notes, just yet.

it does look like the summer is finally over, though, so i'll be going out a lot less and getting a lot more done this month, starting mid-week.

i told you the crash was coming. this is actually about two weeks earlier than last year, but not quite as intense.

what happened last year is that it just stayed stuck around 10 degrees for three months, so that, by the time we got to december, it was actually unusually warm. i'm holding out hope for an early spring, so let's hope the winter doesn't get too harsh.

but, this is where my predictions for the year end - i'm calling for uncertainty this winter. it could be brutal, that's what the models are calling for. but, if the error that the models were making was too little solar input, it's going to start flipping the other way, now, and it might not be.

i have low confidence; we're on the cusp.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
so i've got these files updated. running totals are...

music document (1996-2019): 4598 pages @ 5x8
politics document (16/07/2013-31/10/2013): 1104 pages @ 5x8
dtk document (16/07/2013-31/10/2013): 210 pages @ 5x8
travel document (16/07/2013-31/10/2013): 133 pages @ 5x8

running fall semester (sept-dec) documents....@ 5x8
politics: 606 pages
music: 236 pages
dtk: 144
travel: 44

2013 ytd (from 16/07/2013) documents @ 5x8:
politics: 1104
music: 676
dtk: 210
travel: 133

complete archive: 9443 pages @ 8x11

november should be similar in scope to october, but starting to switch over to the music as the primary focus. it will probably be shorter, in total.

last thing left to do before i move on is to finally construct this first liner note, inri000.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.

Sunday, September 29, 2019

so, the travel blog is updated.

next thing to do is to distribute the files into the more comprehensive, running documents.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
the noise trade link for the october, 2013 archive of the travel blog is now up...

http://books.noisetrade.com/j/102013-travel-blog

now,  i need to actually post it to the blog...

unfortunately, noise trade did not work out as a hosting solution, and i never got a clear answer as to why. but, i decided in the end that the site was full of ads and unworkable, anyways.

the readable version of the october archive for this blog is now available as a standalone in the music journal package at bandcamp:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/10-2013-music-journal

...or as a component in the full first reconstruction phase archive, available in the following places:
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1026660
https://www.lulu.com/en/ca/shop/jessica-murray/full-first-reconstruction-phase-travel-blog/ebook/product-nm4jeq.html
https://drive.google.com/file/d/13M7Vvz2hLiuGdywPL2oNRgUY3nmn26E6/view

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i still have the travel blog to do, and then i'll need to do a first pass on the liner notes for inri000, which i've committed to posting at the drive.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
the noise trade smashwords link for the 417 page pdf of the october, 2013 archive of this blog is now up...

http://books.noisetrade.com/j/102013-dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1026610

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
but, i will repeat: it is a better idea to focus on degrowth, and relinquish control back to the natives.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
here's a research project for you, if you insist on it.

back in the 1800s, canada faced a major problem trying to populate the "frontier", by which i mean the prairies provinces, stretching all the way from the rockies into northern ontario. no matter what we tried, we couldn't get anybody to settle up there, because it was cold and dark (for much of the year) and isolated. so, we became paranoid that we were going to lose control over the western provinces to american settlers, which probably wouldn't have happened because it was cold and dark and isolated, but which was a consuming fear by the british authorities, nonetheless.

when i talk about may's insistence on settling saskatchewan being a commitment to settler colonialism, i'm not talking out of my ass. it's exactly what she's talking about, except that she doesn't seem to have learned the lesson - even with climate change, it's still cold and dark and isolated, and still incredibly difficult to settle.

african-americans didn't want to live in rural canada in the nineteenth century, and african climate refugees aren't going to want to live in rural canada in the twenty-first century, either.

the british eventually realized that the only way they'd manage to settle the region would be to find migrants that were acclimatized to the weather. so, instead of trying to attract freed american slaves or even german settlers, which migrated in large numbers to the much warmer united states, they made a broad appeal to northern europeans - norwegians, finns, ukrainians, russians, swedes and even the damned scots. while there are still the descendants of french settlements across the west, large swaths of the prairies are, today, majority northern european in ancestry.

you can say what you want about this, but the lands would not have been colonized any other way, for better or worse.

nowadays, these northern european countries have some of the highest standards of living in the world, although i wonder why nobody's talking about air-lifting ukrainians into saskatchewan. these are rural people that are used to a cold climate. it might actually work. the ukrainians aside, these countries are not likely sources of mass immigration into canada any time soon.

but, if the goal is to people or repeople the frontier, some thought needs to be put into finding people that will stay there.

so, that's the research project: where in the world are there people that are being threatened by climate change, that are used to living in rural communities (rather than cities) and that can handle cold climates?

the only thing i can think of is japan.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
one of the data points, if you care to analyze them, that's come out of the mismanagement around the syrian refugee file is the realization that a high percentage of them actually just want to go home.

there's a lesson there - all of that money may have been better spent on foreign aid.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
to be clear - i'm not taking a fiscally conservative position on this. i don't care about the public purse, or "taxpayers' dollars". print the money. fine.

but, when you don't fund your humanitarian schemes, when you just leave it up to the market, those schemes will fail and, when they fail, they will have unintended and unimagined consequences for everybody else. that's what this looks like.

look at the data on the syrian refugees that trudeau brought in. do we want to repeat this colossal catastrophe? 

if not, then let's make a choice: if we're going to do this, let's make sure we do it right by funding it properly, and if we're not going to pay for it, then let's think up something else. 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i would rather see the greens come out with a policy that says "we're going to bring in this number of refugees, and we're going to build this number of houses to compensate for it, and the existing housing crisis", rather than pretend they're going to settle them in rural saskatchewan, where everybody knows they won't stay.

as it is, the correct way to read into it is that they're not planning on properly funding the social services required to facilitate their humanitarian goals, which is the same failed strategy we've seen from the liberals.

and, again: i would rather see the foreign aid budget increased. we talk about these foreign aid goals, then never meet them. this is better seen as an opportunity to do that than it is as a way to uphold the settler-colonial process...

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
"but, i don't care about the poor."

that's right, you don't.

so, stop pretending that you do. 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
so, what is the right way to interpret the green party's pledges on immigration?

it's a commitment to canada's ongoing existence as a colonial state. that's how you work this out - the message that they're broadcasting is that the colonial process remains paramount, that immigration takes priority over degrowth, and that the state will carry on, as before.

and, depending on which angle you're approaching it from, you can either interpret that as the greens being less scary than you thought, or them essentially being another status-quo neo-liberal party that's carrying on with the process of settler colonialism like the rest of them.

a serious, long-term environmental strategy is going to have to get the growth rate down, and that's going to mean accepting relatively low levels of population density. a solution to this comes when the rest of the world looks like canada, not when canada looks like the rest of the world.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
so, how do you "save atlantic canada"?

you don't. you accept that the economic base in the region is relatively small due to the geography and the climate, you let the region exist as a low-rent haven for artists and retirees and you give control back to the indigenous groups, where requested.

the best thing that the government can do for this region is back off and leave it alone.

and, if climate change opens up more economic opportunities in the long run, people will come on their own. 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
you can't improve the economy via immigration. that's reaganomics, and it's the kind of thinking that has caused the problems we see in these communities, as it is. you need stimulus, and then the people will come on their own, when employers ask them to.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
canada has been trying to "save atlantic canada" via immigration for decades.

they just move to toronto as soon as they can. it's an empirical question, with little ambiguity around it.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
this is delusional.

they're going to go to toronto, montreal and vancouver and drive up the cost of rent - and further contribute to the climate crisis.

you don't grow an economy via immigration, that's supply-side economics, and backwards right-wing style thinking. the reason these areas are economically depressed is because there is no existing economy. if you airlift thousands of people in, they'll just starve. but, they won't starve, they'll leave. you need to create the economic opportunities first, then bring the people in.

if she wants to offer canada as a safe country for climate refugees, she should be more honest about what she intends to do, and what that will look like in the end, and then let people vote for or against it, if they're so inclined. the reality is that such a plan is going to necessitate massive amounts of social spending, and they are at least talking about a gai, however they should be more explicit about the social costs involved in this kind of thing, and the consequences it will have on the existing poor.

but, the idea that you're going to populate the empty areas of this country by settling "climate refugees" in them is moronic and should be treated that way.

https://election.ctvnews.ca/green-party-prepared-to-accept-tens-of-thousands-of-new-climate-refugees-1.4615695 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
it's a 400 page document, this is a long and dry process. i'm 75% done, but i need to stop here and there to breathe and refocus.

i want to release that fragment under the throatmotor moniker, but it wasn't my band. it was supposed to be throatmotor. but it doesn't sound like throatmotor.

i'm going to need to contact trevor about it, and don't actually know how to.

he has a soundcloud page up, actually. i'm the redhead in the lennon shirt in pic #2 (mr. angry). that was at the pride festival in ottawa, 2004.

i just played bass live as a favour to the guitarist. i didn't record anything with them. my bass parts were a little more...busy....which you can pick up from my own stuff.

https://soundcloud.com/throatmotor 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
with the onset of climate change, you can't be the party of big oil and the party of rural canada at the same time.

there's a contradiction, there.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
actually, i pointed out months ago that it would be expected that the conservatives would have problems in the areas of ontario that were flooded earlier this year, and that's exactly what the polling is pulling out.

these people just lost their homes. and, the conservatives just want to lay pipelines in the carnage.

there is a potential for a long term shift in voting patterns, here.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i just checked my fan on a lark and it's back to working again. that'll save me $20. good.

i'm not going to pretend this makes any sense, but i guess something must have overheated.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
and, yes, i know there are some old people that aren't rich, too.

so, you redistribute it. simple.

it's the most obvious thing in the world, and the only reason you're insisting on immigration instead is that you want to win elections. but, they're not the majority, any more. we don't have to be held hostage by them any longer. it's over.

if you're concerned about the social instability being caused by mass immigration, which you claim is necessary to pay for the boomers, then just give up on it and tax the boomers instead. i'll vote for you... 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
the crisis here is not one of demographics, it's one of entitlement in the older generations. 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
and, then, just stand back and let the population fall on it's own.

it's laissez-faire. you should like that. 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
for all the talk of self-sufficiency and privatization under neo-liberalism, it's funny how the me generation constantly gets a pass, isn't it?

retirees have all the money.

let them pay their own way.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
i have a wonderful idea: why don't you tax the fucking boomers to pay for their own services?

they're the ones with all the wealth. 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
if the government thinks it has this problem in front of itself with low birth rates that it needs to solve via immigration, then it needs to question the premise.

it's not just a climate issue. it's food security. it's pollution.

the fact that advanced economies have low growth rates is a good thing that we should be trying to export to developing countries, not a bad thing that we should try to fix.

and, this is the liberals. i'm not supposed to have to explain this to them....

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
but, it's also just a reminder that you're essentially just livestock, to the state - cattle to tax.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this
everything else about the bizarre liberal student loan policy aside, it seems designed to incentivize people into having more children when the role of the government at this stage in history should really be emphasizing degrowth.

and, that's my actual takeaway from it - it's just another terrible climate policy that's going to make it that much harder to get emissions down.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this

Saturday, September 28, 2019

the link to the 10/2013 archive of the dtk blog is up.

the big one is next, but i need to eat, first.

https://books.noisetrade.com/j/102013-deathtokoalas

unfortunately, noise trade did not work out as a hosting solution, and i never got a clear answer as to why. but, i decided in the end that the site was full of ads and unworkable, anyways.

the readable version of the october, 2013 archive for this blog is now available as a standalone in the music journal package at bandcamp:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/10-2013-music-journal

...or as a component in the half year archive at smashwords:
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1026620

...or as a component in the first reconstruction phase archive, available in the following places:
https://www.lulu.com/en/ca/shop/jessica-murray/full-first-reconstruction-phase-deathtokoalas-blog/ebook/product-zrgr94.html
https://drive.google.com/file/d/10DbwOVdqWt73rHNzWJWgEfduzREogExX/view

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
ipsos is not a polling firm, it's a propaganda arm of the conservative party.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
the fourth entry in the music journal series, which is the month of october, 2013 and is 99 pages long. i am not going to summarize the story, but it is available on the web over here: musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.com/2013/10/.

this is a compilation of written correspondences that occurred around me over october, 2013. it includes facebook posts, messenger chats and emails with friends and family members, in an attempt to tell the story of how i set my studio back up in windsor after relocating from ottawa and republished my first demo, from 1996. the contents of this download are the dummy track, a word doc file and a pdf file, both written in a more readable, chronological ordering. i've also added the respective files for my other three blogs, for general interest, as well as 98 separate txt documents (essays, notes, scripts and web pages) that are referenced in the journal.

the events documented in this journal occurred in october, 2013 and were compiled into a narrative in several stages over the years 2014-2019. journal completed on sept 10, 2019. released and finalized in doc and pdf format on sept 28, 2019. doc201310.

credits

released November 1, 2013

j - editing, participant

esa (aka shelly teagan) - participant
mom - participant
the oldest aunt's wife - participant
the initial landlord - participant
teksavvy technical support - participant
cbsa technical support - participant

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/10-2013-music-journal

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i honestly never intended to make it to 40, so i never planned my life around things i'd do at 40. i didn't even plan to make it to 30, really.

i don't want to romanticize death, because i'm not like that - i understand that we only get one chance, and once you turn off the electricity, that's it. logic is pretty ruthless here; you want to avoid that, as long as you can. right?

well, if you only plan around completing a certain set number of things, existence might not seem worthwhile any more.

barring some catastrophe, it does look like i'm going to make it there, and then what? well, i'm not going to change my outlook on life. i'm not going to discover goals i never had.

i need to finish my art, and i have quite a bit of it left, and we'll see what happens after that.

i'm not sure i'll ever feel as though my work is truly complete, but i don't think i'll last very much longer if i ever do. i don't think i'll prolong it....

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
here's the noise trade smashwords link to the october, 2013 archive of the music blog, in readable format

https://books.noiseTrade.com/j/102013-music-journal
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1026608

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
since aaron wherry has outed himself as a liberal stooge, it's easy to put two and two together here and deduce that the liberals are about to start scare mongering about the bloc, which, as it happens to be, is another harperism.

the socialists and the separatists...coalition...hey, can trudeau prorogue before the throne speech? maybe he can call boris up and ask him if he has any tips.

the bloc does not want to join a coalition government, and will not agree to prop up the government. how do i know that? because they're the bloc, and they don't want to interfere with canadian politics. all duceppe promised to do last time was vote for the budget, and then his party got destroyed because of it; even that minimal of a commitment rendered them pointless in the minds of quebeckers. they're not there to gain power, they're there to be a pain in the ass. if wherry has a point, it might be that it might work; if you want to be afraid of something, it would be a hung parliament and the need to go back to the polls.

but, there's no need to fear because i'll tell you what will happen - the liberals and conservatives will prop each other up, just like they did in the 00s. they are, after all, the parties that are most similar to each other.

so, conservative minority? don't worry - the liberals will vote for the budget. and, that's a loop they can't get out of, because they can't gain momentum when they're propping the conservatives up. but, they'll do it, you can count on it.

and, a liberal minority? the conservatives will wait, and pull the plug when it's convenient. right now, that might not happen for a while...

https://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/singh-may-green-ndp-minority-2019-election-1.5298332

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
the mood that i'm projecting here may be more widespread than the pundits want to accept.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i think people are just fed up and that the greens are in the right place at the right time to benefit from it.

great.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
yeah, the polls are getting weird - mainstreet has the greens splitting the vote in rural ontario, which could help the liberals in weird places, and nanos has them nearly catching the ndp, nationally, finally - albeit mostly at the expense of the liberals.

fluctuations and whatnot. i'm not being alarmist.

but this isn't out of nowhere, and it's about that time in the cycle for the numbers to start moving.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
something you're going to notice as i move past period 3 and into period 4 is that the abstraction of the music is going to increase dramatically, to the point that you might not even call it music anymore. listen to the crash, for example. any music that i create in the future, past the end point in 2011, is going to be something like that - to the left of leftfield electronic noise, and with an audience that won't exist until i'm dead.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
if you want new and up-to-date and hip and fashionable, you probably should have tuned out a long time ago.

i've been anti-cool from day one. and, while i don't like retro much myself, i'd guess you do.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i'm not going to keep doing this into my 50s.

i will cut myself off.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
no, listen.

musicians tend to get boring around the age of 30.

i'm lucky that i have a big pile of unfinished music that i wrote before i turned 30, and that i can spend my 30s cleaning up.

but, at my age, i'm largely past my creative cycle, and i'm not going to deny it, and pretend otherwise.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
if you're waiting for the concept record about trump, it's not happening.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
but, when am i going to post new songs?

i'm probably not going to.

i'm probably going to end the discography in 2011, with the caveat that there will be a few leftover pieces.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
so, i clearly got distracted pretty badly, but, again, that's hardly unproductive - i just published three releases.

i'm still alert, and think i can get a good move on what's left.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.

inri097

last one for the night.

================

inri086?

these are actually rock songs, albeit weird ones. i was shopping them around in the mid-00s, and nobody bit. we'll have a compilation demo up here as i found it, but i'm also going to need to actually finish them up.

i didn't want this to be a studio project, but what do you want me to tell you? i can't find anybody to jam with...and i've been looking for twenty years....

the cd-r from 2005 that i have consists of the first eight tracks, and i'm going to publish it that way, as is. i was considering adding a ninth track that i cut at some point, but decided against it - this will come up elsewhere. there is also a tenth demo in this collection that was dismantled into different tracks, and will eventually come up as a part of a similar collection dated to mid-2004.

there are two different types of tracks in this collection. some of these tracks will be worked into the trivial group or proverbs symphonies, whereas others will need to be completed as standalones in the 2004-2005 space, depending on where i think they best fit.

see, i'm tempted to label this proverbs, but don't actually want to. the tracks that weren't put aside for it don't have vocals. but, they weren't supposed to be trivial group, they were supposed to be a band project. i was using the pseudonym "whore to culture" for a little bit, but, in hindsight, i don't really like it - and i never finished anything under the label. i think that was mostly xenophanes, which is definitely trivial group, now.

on the other hand, were any of the trivial group tracks intended to be studio projects? no...they just all ended up that way...so that's less a difference and more a commonality...

and, are these tracks that different than trivial group? not in the form they're in. if i were to just play the trivial group tracks on guitar, they'd be sort of similar, wouldn't they?

in fact, i could conceivably expand this collection by isolating some of the other guitar tracks in the other trivial group stuff, but i don't want to do that, either. i mean, i could take the style way back - this isn't my first demonstration of impressionist jazz punk. i may consider creating a second companion disc that just has the guitar parts from all of the trivial group material, but i want to leave this specific disc exactly as it is, which is exactly as i found it.

these specific tracks were written at various points between 2003-2005 and performed via a line-in directly into my soundcard, with no effects, in my apartment on prince of wales in ottawa on august 21, 2005. a handful of cds were then burned, and left out randomly at various places around town where i hoped a drummer would find them. ripped back to digital on april 12, 2014. uploaded and published without further modification on sept 19, 2019. as always, please use headphones.

cover art by sarah.
 

credits

released August 21, 2005

j - guitar 

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/impressionist-jazz-punk

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i've also put this ep up for download.

===============

the very beginning of a long paused project built around the idea of converting ratios directly into music using matlab.

i'm going to leave this as a one-track single dated to november, 2004 and finish the idea, for release in....2020?

this was created for the requirements of math 4822, a course on wavelet theory, at carleton university in the fall semester of 2004. programmed entirely in matlab over a weekend in nov, 2004. uploaded and published without further modification on sept 19, 2019. as always, please use headphones.

credits

released November 30, 2004

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-spontaneous-combustion-of-leonardo-pisano

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.

inri079

so, we'll need to re-publish this as physical media when the time comes, but the music is at least finished, so why not acknowledge as much and allow for download?

=============

an art show demo, uploaded as is. inri078.

it's not a complex story - sarah wanted to have a showing of some of her paintings in her apartment, so she asked me to write some music for it. i just took some of the things i was working on and put them together.

this would eventually become the core of the next symphony.

initially written and recorded over the second half of 2003 and the very beginning of 2004. compiled on january 23, 2004. ripped from cd-r on april 11, 2014. finally uploaded and published without further modification on sept 18, 2019. as always, please use headphones.

credits

released January 23, 2004

j - all sound

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/art-show-demo

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
no, i'm not attacking greta thunberg. i'll pick on people my own size.

what i'm doing is ridiculing the situation.

this is another one of those situations where there's no use in explaining myself further, you're able to follow what i've written or you're not. but, if i'm attacking anything, it's you.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.

Friday, September 27, 2019

inri091 & inri092 cover art

so, we've got some new cover art up on what will probably inri085:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-spontaneous-combustion-of-leonardo-pisano

leanardo pisano is fibonacci - leonardo of pisa. i might change that to a wrinkled shot of fibonacci, but that gets the point across for now.

...& also for what will likely be inri087:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/xenophanes

But if cattle and horses and lions had hands
or could paint with their hands and create works such as men do,
horses like horses and cattle like cattle
also would depict the gods' shapes and make their bodies
of such a sort as the form they themselves have.
...
Ethiopians say that their gods are snub–nosed and black
Thracians that they are pale and red-haired
he could have just asked his daughter, though.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/trudeau-greta-thunberg-climate-change-action-1.5299674

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
why don't i march any more?

i was always looking for a broader movement; i've never held out much hope that any specific protest is going to really accomplish much, and to a certain extent these marches are even really a symptom of the problem - if these people would march on factories instead of down streets, right? we'll know we're ready when we stop marching and start doing.

the march was always a meeting place, somewhere to try to network, and that was always it's real value, as a stepping stone to broader organizing. so, the most important thing that came out of occupy was that i found myself in a social group that included a lot of self-identified anarchists - not because of anything specific to the action, but due to the long term implications around movement building.

i more or less stopped entirely when i got to windsor. it's partly because i found myself immersed in my art, which is a good thing, but i could have made time. that i didn't had more to do with a level of cynicism that sunk in around the ubiquity of capitalism, and the realization that these activists would never be ready to actually change anything. they were, in truth, capitalists to their bones......and i just found myself wanting to get away from them.

there was never a point where i thought that a climate march would have any meaningful actual effect on policy, but there was a point where i thought it might be a good place to meet people to plan deeper organizing around. i've largely abandoned this, in favour of a technological determinism: we're going to have to wait for things to fail, first, and then react. sad, but probably true...

i like the politics, but i don't like the people.

i'll be more productive arguing with people on the internet than i will be marching.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
so, i put a sequence for the unofficial bundles up, as well.

https://www.youtube.com/user/deathtokoalas/playlists?view=50&sort=dd&shelf_id=49&disable_polymer=true

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
it's always hard to get valid information out of these sorts of events, but it doesn't seem like much actually happened today in egypt besides a round-up of some protestors. it almost seems like a sting - and, yes, they'll do that.

i want you to be careful not to fall into the narrative that the protests are being driven by "islamists". for all it's backing by the theocratic regimes on the peninsula, egypt is actually a fairly secular society that is more like turkey than saudi arabia or iran. egyptians are not particularly religious people, and islam is not particularly popular, there. broadly speaking, egyptian society doesn't even seem to have much of an aversion to restrictions on "religious freedom" that many westerners would consider a little over the top - they have stricter rules on islamic dress than most western countries do, and at times have even passed laws against beards. you'd be surprised, if you don't know about it. so, when you see or hear the egyptian government blame the protests on "islamists", it's essentially a smear - and a transparent one that's set up by design. the real threat to the rulers are of course the leftists, but the regime will actually demonize the religion as a conscious control tactic.

this is of course different from what happened in syria, when you had an actual, literal invasion of foreign backed terrorist groups into the country. there's nothing like that happening in egypt, which has a substantive defense force that could wipe out such a thing pretty quickly.

the 2011 protests were largely driven by secular leftists to start with, before the security force co-opted them. and, even as the government blames the unrest on islam, it will send agents to try and rouse up religious sentiment, both because it will make the protestors unpopular and because it will make them easier to control. if there are any protests allowed to continue at all, those protests will be at the mosques.

which is why i would present the following proposal to my egyptian comrades as a tactic: avoid organizing on fridays. it's a setup. pick any other day. pick saturdays!

again: it's hard to get information out of these places, but you should assume that this is a secular protest for basic rights for now, regardless of what the state broadcasts, and regardless of how the western media picks it up. we'll see how that develops over time, and what kind of character it takes on - and whether it's still worth your moral support or not. but assume secularist, a priori.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/world/middle_east/a-tense-and-divided-egypt-braces-for-more-protests-on-friday/2019/09/27/a7b779d4-e086-11e9-be7f-4cc85017c36f_story.html

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
"but, nobody listens to records. the future is in the singles market."

that's what they said in 1962, too.

and, even if they're right, that doesn't mean the albums market will cease to exist altogether.

i don't want to write singles. or, well, i do, but not like how you're thinking. i like big, epic records. that's enough of a market, for me.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i had to crash this morning; i'm actually glad that i got a normal amount of sleep for the first time in a while. i'm done the spell check, and i got most of the internal cross-referencing done, at least. the music document increased by one page, whereas the dtk document increased by 7 pages. i still have to cross-reference the music document with the dtk document. then, i need to make sure i didn't drop any posts, before publishing and filing.

i should be done by the morning at the latest, i think. i hope.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
our constitution does not have property rights in it. trudeau won that fight, mostly because he had the ndp on his side.

and, it almost didn't have religion in it, it very well could have not had religion in it, but the west wouldn't have supported it, if it didn't.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
i've stated this before: it was an error for the elder trudeau, or for jean chretien as it may have fallen to him, to concede these points to the lougheed conservatives. if they couldn't get the signature without conceding religious rights, they should have given up. it should have been a deal-breaker. the liberals should have held to their convictions and fought harder to keep religion out of it - because they were right, and their arguments against religion in the constitution have panned out.

if we could open this back up again, i'd be on the side that the liberals were historically on, which is to get religion out of the constitution altogether.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
listen, i think i've been clear. i believe in a rights-based society, i believe in the rule of law and i believe in an enforcement mechanism.

but, i don't believe in property rights, and i don't believe in ethnic rights, and i don't believe in religious rights, either.

so, it's not a question over whether we're to have rights. we agree on that point. what we disagree over is what those rights are to actually be, which is a debate that we had not so long ago in canada, and which is clearly less closed than some would like to think.

further, the inclusion of religion in the constitution was an issue of major public debate - this wasn't obvious, wasn't without major detractors, including the elder trudeau, himself. it was the religious right, then and still led by alberta's conservative party, that insisted on the kind of language that we ended up with. if it was solely up to the elder trudeau, he wouldn't have given you the rights that his son is being criticized for not standing up for.

and, this goes back to these definitional debates about left and right, yet again.

there's nothing weird about me standing here as a left-liberal and questioning the role of religion in the constitution. we did that. it was the tories - the political ancestors of jason kenney, not of justin trudeau - that fought so hard to get that language in there, and that the chretien/trudeau liberals had to concede to to get the thing signed.

we see the consequences of that language, don't we?

and, i want my secular left back.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
for the swans fans...

https://www.youtube.com/user/deathtokoalas/playlists?view=50&sort=dd&shelf_id=48

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
no money until tomorrow morning.

so, it would seem as though i'm in tonight.

and, they are calling for rain with a high level of certainty, as well. 

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.
what did i even to today? this was a bad month, in terms of productivity, really.

i can't get it back.

but, i need to pivot dramatically and really focus. i've been scatter-brained far too long, now. let's see if i can order myself a little....

there's not any use in finishing up the legal stuff for tomorrow, i'd might as well wait until monday.

i did want to start the alter-reality when i got through the rebuild. i wanted to start it for mid-1989. i guess it's not so bad if i do catch up, but i wanted to be done the rebuild by now. i don't want to juggle that - let's just pick up the pace on the rebuild.

i can plan around cleaning in here tomorrow or the next day. the p-trap seems to have held since this morning. i think it had something to do with his air conditioning, and it's actually getting cold tonight, so maybe i've put that off for a bit.

and, i'll see what i want to do this weekend when i find out oif the cash has come ino r not.

is that everything?

i wanted to publish the 10/2013 documents before the end of september, so that's what i'll be doing tonight. i have eaten. i may have to shower later, if it gets cold in here (and the heat doesn't turn on, which it maybe should).

i'm just banging my head against the wall on the political file - we're not in a revolutionary moment, we're in a reactionary moment, and it's just a question of navigating through it.

i can't be too hard on myself, or i'll get apathetic. the uploads and planning last week weren't awful; it had to be done, at some point, and i wasn't feeling well. i got some documents filed at the beginning of the week. yesterday was largely about the gas leak, and i'm just starting today, really. it's not so bad....

i just get upset with myself, sometimes. you might imagine that i'm mad at myself for other reasons, but i actually wish i had more writing and more music available. i can't get depressed, i just need to pivot.

so, i'll have to run these files through spell checks, cross-reference everything and clean them up. hopefully, they'll be published by sunrise, or so.

the liberals are supposed to do better than this.