it's near the end of the month, and i'm rather annoyed. i've seen a handful of places i could have moved to by now, but nobody wants to sign.
i'm going to send out mass emails that are just blunt - you want a good tenant? want to stop looking? well, you have a few more days before oct 1st. i have the money. i can sign and move now. like, what's the problem?
i know that the problem in some cases is that the owner is muslim, and in other cases that my income source is odsp. it's widespread discrimination on one of two considerations - gender identity or source of income. but, launching hrto applications is going to take years, and i need to be able to prove the case. i might be able to make the case against one very big company, but it's not clear that it's worth my time.
further, regarding the issues of muslims not wanting to rent to me because i'm trans (and i have several examples of this), i'd actually rather we get the issues out before hand, so i don't get trapped in it. the last thing i want to do is move into a situation where i have to deal with conservative muslims, and then fight with them for months or years. i'm doing the opposite; i'm sussing this out and going beyond it, by actually actively asking them if women dressing immodestly, or eating pork or drinking alcohol is going to upset them, because i don't want to live there if it does.
i really should have moved by now. i've seen enough places. there have been more than enough places i would move to. but i have not yet succeeded in finding a landlord that would rent to me, and it's about 85% discrimination underlying it. i can really not see good reasons not to rent to me in any of these applications, but they want to tell me my income is too low (despite me doing the math for them, showing it isn't, once you take out debt and cars, mostly, which i'm not paying for) or they just don't respond further once they realize i'm trans.
the discrimination against trans and disabled people are both rampant, especially amongst muslim landlords, which represent a substantive number of the low income rentals in this region. they'd be wise to be careful about what they say to me, but i'd largely rather avoid them, anyways.
the thing is that i don't want to make assumptions about people. i'm trying to get a showing in a basement owned by an arab guy, and he even told me to reschedule because he was busy praying, but he doesn't want to enforce his views on me, and is even trying to help the current tenant out, who is apparently a destructive alcoholic. i know discrimination when i see it, but i can't reverse it by making assumptions; i need to ask. it's mostly been a waste of time, but i can't make that assumption ahead of time. nine out of ten arabs might be viciously transphobic, but that one that isn't, even if they're religious, might be the best landlord in the city.
i ate a lot of nachos this week to use up the limes and tomatoes and even gained a little weight, although i pooped a lot of it out today, too. it'll pass with the coffee. the last two tomatoes were used for tomato sandwiches, and i now have three limes left. i also have no more food bank side meals, except about 30 cans of soup and two packages of frozen peas that i forgot about. it's possible that i could eat these soups with the garden salads, when i get there.
i need to get through the dried goods as much as i can first, which means alternating through quinoa (lentils) and pasta for the next several meals. there's still several bags of lentils and i believe five packages of spaghetti left.
the next step after this will be to cycle back to eat the food i skipped, which includes a lot of fruit and salad meals. i'm going to want to combine the fruit & ice cream meals for a week or two of straight fruit meals to catch up on that. i'm also going to want to eat caesar salads every day for a week or two in order to build up the kale stalks, then use the kale stalks to eat garden salads every day for two weeks. after i get through this month or two of fruit bowls and salads, i will have finally caught up. i might add the chicken in the freezer to the caesar salads, but i'm also getting close enough to the point of complete detox where i'll want to bring the bison back in to the pasta. soon.
i don't know when i'm moving yet but i do know that i'll hit all three food banks in the days after i sign the lease, and it might be for the last time.
- june 16th: doubled up salsa with chick peas, cheese, spices and vitamins.
- june 17th: onion soup bacon poutine
- june 18th: basic doritos nachos and french onon soup with bacon
- june 19th: doubled up salsa reprise
- june 20th: caesar salad without subs
- june 21st: 2nd onion soup poutine with onion soup and last chance salad
- june 22rd: 3rd onion soup poutine with onion soup with beets
- june 23rd: caesar salad without subs
- june 24th: caesar salad without subs
- june 25th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa
- june 26th: bacon and eggs without subs, no salsa
- june 27th: ad hoc pad thai
- june 28th: broccoli soup
- june 29th: fridge-clearing meal (oranges & garlic bread)
- june 30th: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 1st: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 2nd: kd + chick peas + fridge clearing exercise
- july 3rd: 10 packages of instant oatmeal, in 5 installments. spaghetti-os + spices & vitamins (cumin, cayenne, pepper, oregano, paprika, sunflower seed, hemp seed, nutritional yeast, frank's).
- july 4th: a can of stew and a can of corn, plus spices & vitamins.
- july 5th: a package of jasmine rice i had put aside as a quinoa sub (it probably isn't), with a can of peas and a can of tomato soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 6th: a can of beans cooked in a can of vegetable soup, plus spices and vitamins.
- july 7th: two cans of chicken noodle soup, plus spices and vitamins. tim's xl double-double coffee in morning. two builders protein mini bars in evening. 7-11 coffee with jalapeno taquito late at night.
- july 8th: food bank junk food eat through - two bags of "real vegetable chips" (one big, one small), a bag of goldfish crackers, one mini crispy crunch, some strawberry licorice, prime energy drink, two tim horton's donuts, little ceasar's pepperoni pizza with unlabelled chocolate milk product.
- july 9th: another prime energy drink with another unlabelled chocolate milk product, unlabelled food bank ginger bread (two loaves)
- july 10th: pasta with minor subs (1), third energy drink, sour cream n cheddar chips
- july 11th: sour cream 'n' bacon, sour cream 'n' onion chips
- july 12th: more licorice, pasta with minor subs (2)
- july 13th: jalapeno cheddar chips, pasta with minor subs (3)
- july 14th: 10 baby cookies, pasta with minor subs (4)
- july 15th: i ate most of the 14th pasta on the 15th and followed it with the remaining baby cookies (which are actually french butter cookies, not baby cookies. they look like baby cookies). i did not make pasta for the 15th.
- july 16th:. pasta with minor subs (5)
- july 17th: pasta with minor subs (6)
- july 18th (on the 19th): pasta with minor subs (7)
- july 19th (on the 20th): cereal (one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and an apple)
- july 20th (on the 21st): pasta with minor subs (8)
- july 21st (on the 22nd): pasta with minor subs (9)
- july 22nd: cereal day 2 in cycle 2 (final cycle 2 cereal day): one bowl of vector and all bran with paprika, flax, nutritional yeast, hemp seeds and soy, as per my normal diet and one bowl of instant oatmeal with a little real milk and two apples, one in the oatmeal and one standalone.
- july 23rd: cereal day 1 in cycle 3
- july 24: pasta with minor subs (10)
- july 25: cereal day 2 in cycle 3, same as 22 and 23, with the addition of 6 mini apple sauce containers.
- july 26: pasta with minor subs (11)
- july 27th - guac with white rice and canned corn. two pieces of white bread with plum better.
- july 28th: pasta with minor subs (12)
- july 29th: guac with white rice and canned corn. two pieces of white toast with olive oil margarine, and then two pieces of white bread with plum butter after. four more pieces of white bread, with plum butter and strawberry jam.
- july 30th: pasta with minor subs (13), including fried chicken for salami.
- july 31st: a larger piece of fried chicken alone. pasta with minor subs (14), including a mix of buffalo and chicken for salami. six pieces of white bread for peanut butter and strawberry jam.
- aug 1st: four pieces of white bread and the rest of the peanut butter. quinoa without subs (on aug 3rd).
- aug 2nd: four marshmallows, two bananas and a chocolate bar. quinoa without subs (on aug 3rd).
- aug 3rd: pasta with minor subs (15), including the buffalo/chicken mix for salami (on aug 4th). two pieces of toasted italian bread.
- aug 4th: bacon and eggs (no salsa) (on aug 5th)
- aug 5th: pasta with minor subs (16), including the buffalo/chicken mix for salami. two pieces of toasted italian bread. (on aug 6th)
- aug 6th: guac with yellow pepper, homemade hot sauce and canned corn (on aug 7th).
- aug 7th: monterrey jack tuna salad melt with bowl of cilantro lime monterrey jack rice (on aug 8th).
- aug 8th: pasta with minor subs (17), homemade hot sauce and bacon for salami (on aug 9th). . two pieces of toasted italian bread.
- aug 9th: guac with yellow pepper, homemade hot sauce and canned corn wth cilantro lime monterrey jack rice (on aug 10th).
- aug 10th: bacon and eggs (no salsa) (on aug 11th)
- aug 11th: pasta with minor subs (18), homemade hot sauce and bacon for salami (early on aug 12th). two pieces of toasted italian bread.
- aug 12th: bacon and eggs (no salsa) (at midnight on aug 13th)
- aug 13th: pasta with minor subs (19), homemade hot sauce and bacon for salami (early on aug 14th). . two pieces of toasted italian bread.
- aug 14th: potatoes with gravy, cheese, sour cream, bacon and dill (early on aug 15th). no av.
- aug 15th: onion soup + side salad (as posted) (late on aug 15th). no av.
- aug 16th: potatoes with gravy, cheese, sour cream, bacon and dill (early on aug 17th). no av.
- aug 17th: onion soup (mid day on aug 17th) and side salad (as posted) with two pieces of toast (early on aug 18th). no av.
- aug 18th: pasta with minor subs (20), including bacon for salami (early on aug 19th). no av. no juice. no hot sauce. two pieces of toasted italian bread.
- aug 19th: pasta with minor subs (21), including orange/lime for pineapple and bacon for salami (early on aug 20th). no av. no juice. no hot sauce. two pieces of toasted italian bread.
- aug 20th & 21st: cereal day 1 & 2 from cycle 4 together in one big bowl. (mid-day on aug 20th)
- aug 22nd: pasta with minor subs (22), including orange/lime for pineapple and chicken for salami (early on aug 21st). no av. no juice. no broc. no hot sauce. two pieces of toasted italian bread.
- aug 23rd: pasta with minor subs (23), including orange/lime for pineapple and chicken for salami (early on aug 22nd). no av. no juice. no broc. no red pepper. no hot sauce. i had the rest of the italian bread, and four extra pieces of brown bread with cheddar cheese, on the morning of aug 23rd and otherwise didn't eat on the 23rd. this is the bread for use with cycle 7, eaten early.
- aug 24th: pasta with minor subs (24) (early on the 24th). this was the last of the penne and shifted the pasta source to a box of kd, for now. no av. no juice. no broc. no red pepper. no hot sauce. no pineapple. no salami. no caesar. no dill. two pieces of toasted brown bread with margarine. one xl tim's double double.
- aug 25th: (early on the 25th) is going to be a tomato sandwich one from cycle 2 and an instant meal chicken "sidekick". no av, as it's not ripe yet.
- aug 26th: pasta with minor subs (25). pasta source is a box of kd. bacon subbed for salami. two pieces of toasted brown bread with margarine. no av. no broc (forgot).
- aug 27th: second tomato sandwich meal from cycle 2 with a package of (cooked) chinese noodles.
- aug 28th: pasta with minor subs (26). pasta source is a box of kd. bacon subbed for salami. two pieces of toasted brown bread with margarine. two avs.
- aug 29th: doubled up salsa with kidney beans, cheese, spices and vitamins. cycle 2 salsa. four avs. juice. 50 g broccoli.
- aug 30th: pasta with minor subs (27). pasta source is a box of kd. bacon subbed for salami. two pieces of toasted brown bread with margarine. two avs.
- aug 31st: first cycle 3 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa and a can of side baked beans. two avs. last extra juice.
- sept 1st: pasta with minor subs (28). pasta source is a box of kd. bacon subbed for salami. two pieces of toasted brown bread with margarine. two avs. not eaten until morning of sept 2nd.
- sept 2nd: first tomato sandwich meal from cycle 3 with a package of (cooked) chinese noodles. extra av in chinese noodles.
- sept 3rd: pasta with minor subs (29). pasta source is a box of kd. bacon subbed for salami. no bread. two avs.
- sept 4: doubled up salsa with kidney beans, cheese, spices and vitamins. cycle 3 salsa. four avs.
- sept 5th: pasta with minor subs (30). pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. two avs (avs caight up).
- sept 6nd: second tomato sandwich meal from cycle 3 with a package of (cooked) chinese noodles. 1/2 red pepper in chinese noodles from catchup. jello with catchup pineapple and one lime, one orange.
- sept 7th: pasta with minor subs (31). pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami.
- sept 8th: second cycle 3 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa.
- sept 9th: pasta with minor subs (32). pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami.
- sept 10th: doubled up salsa with cheese, spices and vitamins. cycle 4 salsa.
- sept 11th: green beans that were intended for the 10th (eaten on the 12th), with mushroom soup and bacon. first skipped pasta. later, first cycle 4 guac with red pepper (eaten on 13th).
- sept 12th: canned corn that was intended for the 11th (eaten on the 13th) with bacon. 2nd skipped pasta. first tomato sandwich from cycle 4 (eaten on 13th) with a package of (cooked) chinese noodles (eaten on 13th). 1/2 red pepper in chinese noodles from catchup, last catchup. last chinese noodles.
- sept 13th: pasta with minor subs (33). pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. first skipped. (eaten early on 15th)
- sept 14th: pasta with minor subs (34). pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. second skipped. (eaten early on the 16th)
- sept 15th: first cycle 2 nachos (eaten late on the 16th). third skipped pasta.
- sept 16th: second cycle 2 nachos (eaten late on the 17th). fourth skipped pasta.
- sept 17th: first cycle 3 nachos (eaten early on the 19th). fifth skipped pasta.
- sept 18th: second cycle 3 nachos (eaten late on the 19th). sixth skipped pasta.
- sept 19th: second tomato sandwich from cycle 4 & poutine with canned potatoes (eaten early on 21st). seventh skipped pasta.
- sept 20th: second cycle 4 guac & canned cream corn with bacon meal, eaten on 21st and 22nd. eighth skipped pasta.
- sept 21st: two for 1 bk whoppers (no lettuce, extra pickles) with added monterrey jack (melted), franks and caesar, with four of those cheesy jalapeno things and two apple turnovers. eaten late on the 23rd. ninth skipped pasta.
- sept 22nd: first cycle 4 nachos (eaten during day on 24th). tenth skipped pasta.
- sept 23rd: second cycle 4 nachos (eaten early on 25th). eleventh skipped pasta.
- sept 24th: first tomato sandwich from cycle 5 (eaten late on 25th). twelfth skipped pasta.
- sept 25th: second tomato sandwich from cycle 5 (eaten early on 26th). thirteenth skipped pasta.
- sept 26: pasta with minor subs (35). third cycle 9 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. third skipped.
- sept 27th: pasta with minor subs (36). fourth cycle 9 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. fourth skipped.
- sept 28th: first cycle 4 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa. eaten early on 29th. soy saved to be eaten with two pieces of toast with cheese, eaten midday on the 30th.
- sept 29th: pasta with minor subs (37). first cycle 10 pasta. eaten early on the 1st. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. fifth skipped.
- sept 30th: pasta with minor subs (38). second cycle 10 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. sixth skipped.
- oct 1st: second cycle 4 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa.
- oct 2nd: pasta with minor subs (39). third cycle 10 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. seventh skipped,
- oct 3rd: pasta with minor subs (40). fourth cycle 10 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. eighth skipped.
- oct 4th: 1st cycle 5 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa.
- oct 5h: pasta with minor subs (41). first cycle 11 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. ninth skipped.
- oct 6th: pasta with minor subs (42). second cycle 11 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. tenth skipped.
- oct 7th: second cycle 5 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa.
- oct 8th: pasta with minor subs (43). third cycle 11 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. eleventh skipped,
- oct 9th: pasta with minor subs (44). fourth cycle 11 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. twelfth skipped.
- oct 10th: 1st cycle 6 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa.
- oct 11th: pasta with minor subs (45). first cycle 12 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami. thirteenth skipped.
- oct 12th: pasta with minor subs (46). second cycle 12 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami.
- oct 13th: second cycle 6 quinoa, with lentils subbed for quinoa.
- oct 14th: pasta with minor subs (47). third cycle 12 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami.
- oct 15th: pasta with minor subs (48). fourth cycle 12 pasta. pasta source is spaghetti. bacon subbed for salami.
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- then stop to catch up
- might even be out of both lentils and pasta (it'll be close)
- eat fruit/ice cream together as meal instead of half meals
- run through caesar salads to build up kale stalks
- run through garden salads
- one more food bank run downtown before i move, when i know
- might go back to schedule in nov or dec. waiting for cdb.