i'm going to do the things i need to do outside before i order more food. the stalkers seem to have come in here the last time i was outside working. i don't think they can get in except when i'm sitting outside, and they're driven enough by their delusions of faith and belief to do it. the basic problem with zealotry and self-righteousness is that you think you're right and you're just factually not. the wisdom in mill is cliched and annoying (mill and orwell. who do i think i am, christopher hitchens?), but worth acknowledging all the more for it. the basic point is correct - the issue on the table is that you might be fucking wrong, and you have to get that through your fucking head.

the pathetic losers aren't going to stop but i can keep them out by locking down. and i'm planning around next year at this point, unfortunately.

the upside is that the apartment will be finished sooner than later. i have the materials i need to finish everything up and when i get done the outside in the next few days i should be able to rapidly get to finishing up in the garage, and then it's done.

i need to get a fair amount of groceries. i've been eating small amounts all summer and am pushing down to 135 for the next meal, which is powdered chicken soup with grilled chicken breast. i am done the canned soup, but still have canned tomatoes for spaghetti. i have a pile of powdered soup mixes to sub in for quinoa and other things and will be catching up on the fruit as soon as i get through that. the diet i put myself on in may dragged that process out by a few months but it's almost there.

then, there are a small number of organizational things to do before i sit down and finish the cataloging and get to finishing the coffee table book.

so i'm making progress, this is just a crazy amount of work to do, and it's taking a long time to do it.