i had another false start collapse this afternoon and had to stop to sleep it off before i imploded. it's been very frustrating, as it keeps looking like things are coming together and then they don't.

in the next 48 hours, i need to either sign a lease and start moving stuff in or i need to find a room to stay in for a few more weeks, until i can sign a lease.

i'm trying. i'm looking more and more like my girly self self again, and that can only help.