Friday, January 30, 2026

just when i thought i was over it, the earache hit.

i used to get recurrent earaches like this when i was a young child. the doctors and i both knew it was because my mom smoked in the house, but i'm not sure the earaches were uniquely caused by cigarettes. my mom was a drug addict. i knew she did a lot of heroin when i was older, but she randomly admitted at one point that she used to smoke meth in the house when i was a kid, without prompting, and i actually had no idea until then. i have seen the guy up there smoking outside, and he had what looked like a crack pipe in his hand. i believe he's been in canada for less than four months, and appears to be a muslim of african ancestry.

one way or the other, i'm going to be very annoying when i smell any kind of smoke down here, until i'm able to understand what's going on and react to it.

i used to take banana medication for these earaches. i don't know what it was.

they cleared up completely when i moved in with my dad.

they hurt. i've never had an aneurysm, that i know of, but they affect the whole side of your face. they feel like a blood vessel is throbbing under your eye.

but i know it's an ear infection, and the cause is a combination of the smoke and whatever is making me sick, working together to weaken my immune system.

i won't give it very long before i call my gp and ask for banana medicine.