Saturday, November 14, 2020

so, this was the post i was working on when i left on friday the 30th to get groceries, specifically because i was out of soy milk, but also because i wanted to get mangoes before i decided how to react to the bananas. i made a number of decisions over the last few days that have turned some things upside down, so why don't i try to be sequential. in the end, this will need to be a total update, and may in truth be the last one, for the breakfast bowl.

as such, note that i've put a "cost" item in, which is approximate, and in canadian dollars.

so, when i got to the store i realized that mangoes were just prohibitively expensive, and i quickly subbed in with raspberries - at a much larger amount than i did previously. my old amount was about 10 berries, which, when analyzed carefully, isn't useful for much of anything. substituting for the removed blueberries, i could get that up to about 20, which is still not that much, but getting there; i decided i'd need 100 g, which is 50 berries according to the usda but probably more like 30-35 in my estimation, given that i'm eating commercial berries. the flip side is that the commercial berries may very well be less nutritious. 

they were on sale, so i bought a lot of them, and i now have a lot to eat. but, it was always intended as a stop-gap....

when i went out on saturday morning, i found a package of mini guavas (i thought they were mini apple guavas, but they are apparently mexican cream guavas) for $3.99 and jumped at it - this is a highly concentrated source of c at a minimal price. or, at least, i think it is, anyways. they seem so small, about the size of crabapples. but, this is as good as you get for c, without jumping to crazy things like acerola cherries and rosehips - it's something that is purchasable and potentially scalable for growers on this continent. i'd love to see these mass manufactured like kiwis, and for the price to come down, to reflect it. for now, i found something i wasn't expecting to find in a grocery store in canada, i'm jumping at it and i'm hoping it's more widely available in the future.

but, what exactly did i buy? there was a series of posts over the last few days that led me to the conclusion that the guavas i purchased were not the pink guavas listed at the usda and called "common guavas" but rather a type of mexican guava called "cream guavas". the piece of evidence i found compelling on this point was that the usda lists a high lycopene content (higher than tomatoes.) and the guavas i've purchased are white, not pink. 

while this suggests that the usda data may be of limited value, this is, unfortunately, the best source of data that i have. guavas are indigenous to mexico, but most of the global consumption of guava fruit takes place in asia, where the fruit has been drastically altered via artificial selection practices to have a brighter pink colour (hawaii), to have the consistency of an apple (india) or to be the size of a small melon (vietnam); the mexican varieties seem to all be smaller, and have far more vitamin c. in the process of cultivation, the c content has actually been stripped out of the asian varieties, in favour of plants that have a more striking visual appearance and a sweeter taste. i posted a study that estimated that wild mexican guava may have 2x-5x the already high c content of the "common" variety, which is itself twice the content of the domesticated asian variety. i simply don't know if the mexican guava i purchased is more reflective of the c content of wild plants (more than 500 mg/100g of fruit), of asian cultivars (less than 100 mg/100g of fruit) or of the midpoint listed by the usda (228 mg / 100 g of fruit). however, the wild plants seem to be the better description, and i'm suspecting the c content is quite high.

of the various types of guava, this seems to be the best description of what i bought:

- the origin is mexico
- the flesh is white-yellow
- there are many seeds, and they are hard. they are inseparable from a sweet nectar.
- however, the individual guava are small, and clearly picked before they fully ripen. the average weight is about 30 g, with the biggest being 35 and the smallest in the low 20s. that is smaller than any in the above study, and it seems clear that they were picked before they ripened.

so, it seems like i've purchased a recent cultivar of a wild strain of the type that is being described. is it the type high in c, like indicated? or one of the others? i just don't know. 

so, i may prefer to find a different type of guava, in the end. for now, i'm going to use the usda data with a grain of salt - and ensure i am not relying on it for anything except c.

i got 21 in a package of 600 g, and all of them weighed more than 25 g except two. separating out the seeds seems to leave about 60-70% of the weight. so, i've lowballed at 15 g to compensate, which is only 10 calories. that's at least a 50 calorie savings from the mango, which is a good ways of the way back to 1000 from 1055.

so, i'm going to leave the bananas - the third item, at 121 calories - put. bananas may even turn out to be superfluous in the end, but i like bananas, and so long as i'm under 1000 total calories, i'm happy with leaving one in the bowl. if i'm bourgeois for bananas, so be it - i think you may be being a little too austere on me, though.

the next thing in the list is all bran, at 100 calories. the all bran is high in betaine, and i want a bit more. so, i'm going to boost it up to 45 g, because it's the smallest factor that divides by 36 (45/36 = 1.25).

calorie wise, 100*1.25 = 125.
betaine wise, 129.6*1.25 = 162

with the soy, vector is no longer needed for b15. i think this is a positive shift, as the sources for betaine in the vector were iffy, and it further shifts me away from this particular cereal, which is just not working out, after all.

i'm also boosting the soy up to 400 because my measuring cup doesn't allow for a more specific measurement. this is a conversion factor of 1.6 instead of 1.5, and is a total of 6 calories.

that increase in soy initially let me reduce the vector to 15 g to maintain 4% a, which became the minimum amount. 217*15/55 = 59, so that's another 20 calories lost, to offset the minor difference, elsewhere.

but, the other thing i came to terms with at the store was that yogurt is no longer being fortified with vitamin d at levels that can consider it a worthwhile source. the best option required 175 g to get to 18% of the rdi, which is exceedingly disappointing given that the website suggested 50% in 125 g. on looking closely, though, i realized that, while yogurt would not help me with vitamin d and can consequently not be my caesar dressing base, it can help me with a. if i pick the right brand (the yoplait source.), i can get to 4% retinol with a few tablespoons of cherry or strawberry yogurt at a much lower calorie cost - 23 instead of 59 or 79. so, that's 56 calories lost in total in removing the vector for the yogurt. that might cut my excessive numbers down dramatically, which might make the end product less showy, but it's a good sub, i think.

i'm going to use the remnant vector with my eggs.

i just want to clarify that the kiwi is also fixed due to k issues with the avocado. it could not come up more than that. i will want to look at yeast in the end, but the flax is done. lastly, the strawberries & guava may be tweaked in the end based on price and other things.

so here's my first final revision for the breakfast bowl, 

avocado - 240
ice cream - 224
all bran - 125
banana - 121
soy milk - 96
------------------------
strawberry - 48
kiwi - 45
flax - 37.4
yogurt - 23 
yeast - 11.25
guava - 10.2
============
980.85

i know i could theoretically throw this in a matrix and do row reduction, but it's not really what i want to do. the most efficient answer is probably not the right one. the way i'm doing this is the most appropriate way to do it.

for the cost,

guava: $4.00/20 = $0.20
strawberries: $3.50/3 = $1.17
======================
$1.37

total c is 34 + 88 = 122 
calories - 10 + 48 = 58

if i doubled the guava and reduced the strawberries to 100 g,

guava: 2*$4.00/20 = $0.40
strawberries: $3.50/4.5 = $0.77
===================
$1.17

total c is 34*2 + 88*2/3 = 127
calories - 10*2 + 48*2/3 = 52

can i do that again?

guava: $0.60
strawberries: $3.50/9 = $.39
=======================
$0.99

total c is is 34*3 + 88/3 = 131
calories - 10*3 + 48/3 = 46

but, 50 g of strawberries is 2-3 berries and 100 g is 4-6, which was the norm for years. so, i'm going to use the middle option as a balance between cost & enjoyability. after all, i could remove the strawberries altogether, as i had before, but i felt i wanted them back.

that fixes the guava and strawberry, i think.

now, what about the trade-off between yogurt and soy for the retinol? how do i minimize price and calories while meeting all the requirements?

yogurt: $3.00/10 = $0.30
soy: $3.00*(400/946) = $1.27
=============================
$1.57

total a is .65*6 + 10*1.6 = 19.9%, and what i want is 20%.
calories: 96 + 23 = 119

what if i took the yogurt up to 100 g? 
$3.00/6.5 = $0.46

then, i'd need 20-6 = 14%, which is a 1.4x factor. 250*1.4 = 350.
$3.00*(350/946) = $1.11
======
1.11+.46 = $1.57

calories: 35 + 60*1.4 = 119, as well.

60% of 250 is 150. 150/946 = 0.15856236786.
0.15856236786*3.00 = 0.47568710358. so, it's $.47-.48 for 6% of retinol in the soy milk, compared to $0.46 for 6% of retinol in the yogurt.

in other words, it doesn't matter, if it's just about a. they're both synthetic retinol.

for d:
yogurt - 37.5%/250g  <----d3
soy - 45%/250ml  <-----d2

for b12:
yogurt: 37.5%/250g <-----natural
soy - 50%/250ml <----synthetic

in both of these cases, i may actually want to mix it up a little. so, if i go back to a cup of soy milk - 250 ml - how much yogurt do i need to get to 20%? 

the answer is 170 g. then,

60 + 1.7*35 = 119.5, and i'm getting another 25.5% d3 and another 5.5% b12

but, as i was scanning through the chart to ensure i didn't overlook anything, i realized i screwed up.

======

gah...

i was sloppy in taking the vector out. there were initially four issues: a, b5, b7, b15. i boosted the all bran for the b15 and calculated the a as the new bottleneck. so, i needed enough vector to get 4% of the rdi for retinol - because that would mean i'd also have enough b5 and b7. then, i subbed in the yogurt to replace the a, without adjusting for the b5 or b7. it wasn't that i miscalculated or something, i just overlooked it.

b5 is not listed on the label for the yogurt, but it should be substantive, due to the milk. that should be ok.

the vector, however, was quite highly fortified with biotin, and while i actually can find some yogurt that has some biotin, it doesn't have any a or d or b12 (and, i am making use of that d3 after all, even if it's secondary), thereby eliminating the point. so, where else can i got biotin?

one answer is seaweed, which i was looking at anyways for the epa and dha and may very well bring in. 

but, the vector is simply a better source of vitamins at a lower cost, especially if i cut it down to a very small amount. if i go back to 15 g/day, i can get 55 days out of a box of the stuff. that's only $0.15/day, and it's only 60 calories - about the same as a cup of low fat soy milk. it's also still over 23% of the rdi for biotin. 

i can get the same amount of retinol from 67 g of yogurt, which would only be 23 calories, but would cost $0.30. i'd get more vitamins i don't need, but i'd lose out on the ones i do. bad idea, after all.

so, replacing the vector with yogurt may perhaps reduce the number of calories, but it's neither cost effective nor particularly vitamin efficient. and, it does matter, after all. i'm needing to pull back on that. so long as i keep it down, the vector is not so bad. 

instead, then, could i sub the yogurt to cut into the ice cream for the a? i do want to hold on to some ice cream for the saturated fat, but that seems like the better trade-off, calorie-wise.

for 100 ml of ice cream, there's 8*100/125 = 6.4% of the rdi for retinol - a roughly equivalent amount as for 100 ml of yogurt. 100 ml of ice cream is 1/20th of the tub, which is 6.00/20 = $.30. so, i'm currently spending $.60 on ice cream a day. the same amount of yogurt is $3.00/6.50 = $0.46. so, if i subbed the yogurt in, i'd be spending $0.76 instead of $0.60. if i put in 150/50, it's going to end up .45 + .23 = .68. and, 175/25 is .60*175/200 + .46/4 = $0.64.

calorie wise, 175/25 is 224*175/200 + 35/4 = 204.75; 150/50 is 224*150/200 + 35/2 = 185.5. 

in total, the second option would be:

avocado - 240 
ice cream - 168  <----decreased to 150 ml
all bran - 125  <----increased to 45 g
banana - 121  
soy milk - 96  <----increased to 400 ml
vector - 60
kiwi - 45   
flax - 37.4
strawberry - 32  <----decreased to 100 g
guava - 20.4   <----two, not one
yogurt - 17.5 <----- decreased to 50 ml/g
yeast - 11.25 
=================
973.55

that leaves space open for seaweed, and i expect it is otherwise the final tweak.

=====

i'm also, now, reducing the size of kiwis to 69 g and the size of bananas to 118 g. i would rather have larger kiwis and larger bananas, but i'm not actually finding them, anymore - both seem to have shrunk, at the store. the weight of the bananas may also depend strongly on ripeness in a way that is not true for kiwis.  that might be weather dependent, but i need to reflect reality, not project fantasy.

so, then this is what i'm left with:

avocado - 150 g - 240 cal  
ice cream - 82.5 g - 168 cal 
all bran - 45 g - 125 ca 
banana - 118 g - 105 cal  
soy milk - 400 ml - 96 cal 
vector - 15 g - 59.2 cal
kiwi - 69 g - 42 cal 
flax - 7 g - 37.4 cal
strawberry - 100 g - 32 cal 
guava - 30 g - 20.4 cal
yogurt - 50 g - 17.5 cal
yeast - 3 g - 11.25 cal
============
953.55

so, i'm picking back up on the cost, then:

guava: this is a new addition to the supermarket, i think. i've bought two containers for $4.00; one had 19. the other 21. so, 20 each seems to be about right. i'll keep an eye out for bigger guavas, but i only want them a little bigger - like 60, 70, 80 g. for now,

2*(4.00/20) = $0.40

banana: the price of bananas seems to be set, here. it appears to be a monopoly. but, bananas are cheap.

1.30*.118 = $0.15

strawberry: strawberries fluctuate in price, here, from about 2.99/454 g to about 3.99/454 g, on average. you can sometimes get them cheaper, if they were overbought or in bad shape. the local or organic strawberries can run 2-3x the price and you can sometimes get them cheaper in bulk.  for now, i'm going to take the midpoint:

3.50/4.54 = $0.77

i'll keep an eye on this, as it is something i could keep down if i could find the best prices. i could maybe get in the habit of shopping online before i go out.
  
avocado: this seems to be a regular sale at the discount store and i hope it remains affordable.

2*(2.88/6) = $0.96

kiwi: kiwis are either 2.99 or 3.99, so i'll take the midpoint at $3.50. they're either 8 or 9 in the pack of 600 g (i'd rather they be at 8, but they're coming in recently at 9) so i'll take it at 9. 

3.50/9 = $0.39

soy: my old soy was about $4.27 for 1.75 L, meaning i'd be spending 4.27*400/1750 = $0.98. that's about an increase of a quarter per day over the 300 ml i was previously consuming. i was able to get the new soy  for $2.00/946 ml on sale this month, which is 2.00*400/946 = $0.85 - an actual improvement - but the price of this stuff is usually more like $2.69/946 ml, which is 2.69*400/946 =  $1.14. for now, i'll use the midpoint:

2.35*(400/946) = $0.99

....which is comparable.  

ice cream: when i started buying this ice cream, it was $3.99/2L and has come up to $5.69/2L. i've gotten a little lax in shopping for it, because travelling long distances by foot or bike for ice cream in warm weather doesn't make sense. for right now, i'm going to pencil it in as $5.69, but i'm going to need to be a little more careful about this. that said, i also decreased the amount i'm consuming:

5.69*150/2000 = $0.43

if i can get that down closer to $.30...

yogurt: i bought yogurt for the first time in years at $1.99/650 g, normal $2.99. i'm going to pencil it in at $2.50.

2.50*50/650 = $0.19

yeast: how much does this really cost, anyways?

44.87*.003 = $0.13

that's not much.

all bran: i've bought a few boxes at $3.99, but it's normally $4.99, so i'm going to  put it in at $4.50.

4.50*45/525 = $.39

vector: 8.00*15/850 = $0.14

ground flax: 5.27*0.007 = $0.04

$(.40 + .15  + .77 + .96 + .39 + .99 + .43 + .19 + .13 + .39 + .14 + .04) = $4.98

$4.98*30 = $149.40

my previous breakfast bowl had the same amount of bananas, strawberries and kiwis (.15 + .77 + .39 = $1.31), about $0.75 worth of soy (to $2.06), $0.57 worth of ice cream ($2.63) and then roughly a dollar worth of raspberries & blueberries, to a total of $3.63. $3.63*30 = $108.90.

that difference - 149.40-108.90 = $40.50 - is a huge amount, given that i want a maximum amount to be $200. but, i've expanded the bowl rather dramatically, too.

the increase in soy balances out with the decrease in ice cream, and i can substitute the guava for the raspberry and the cereal for the blueberry in terms of price.

that means the difference is really the avocado, yogurt, yeast & flax, which adds up to $1.42 - about the difference, give or take. and, the really substantive difference is the avocado - at $29/month, or roughly 70% of the increase in cost.

i don't see a replacement for avocados, which were brought in to fill a specific nutritional hole. what if i lowballed this, on purpose?

guava: 0.40
banana: 0.15
strawberry: 3.00/4.54 = 0.66
avocado: 0.96
kiwi: 3.00/9 = .33
soy: 2.00*400/946 = .85
ice cream: 3.99*150/2000 = .30
yogurt: 1.99*50/650 = .15
yeast = 0.13
all bran: 3.99*45/525 = .34
vector: .14
flax: .04
=======
$4.45

4.45*30 = $133.50, so the difference cuts to $25, which is more workable.

i need to try to catch things on sale, then.

let's make sure everything adds up and then see what i can take down.

i will point out that i'm looking at combing the other two dishes, due to calories, and going back to eating twice a day. the cost is just another argument for that. if i do that, it may have ramifications for the sums in the fruit bowl, but let me work it out first.

in a sense, i'm a victim of my own success with this -  i wanted my breakfast to be half (or more) of my calories, and i guess that means it should be half the cost, too.

so, once again...all data from the usda unless noted....and italicized data from the product label...

vitamin a:

the guava is yellow, so i can believe there's some beta-carotene in it, even if i don't believe there's any lycopene. lycopene has no vitamin a activity, so it's sort of a moot point. i mean, if you look in the list, green avocadoes have some rae, too. that's believable.

guava: 31*.3 = 9.3
banana: 3.54
strawberry: 1
avocado: 10.5
kiwi: 2.76
flax: 0
==============
27.1

27.1/900 = 3%

soy: 10*1.6 = 16%
ice cream: 8*150/125 = 9.6%
yogurt: 6*50/100 = 3%
yeast - 0%
vector - 15*15/55 = 4.1%
all bran - 0%
=======================
32.7

vitamin b1:
guava: .067*.3 = .0201
banana: .037
strawberry: .024
avocado: .101
kiwi: .019
ice cream: .041*.825 = 0.033825
flax: .115
====================
.0201 + .037 + .024 + .101 + .019 + 0.033825 +.115 = 0.349925
.349925/1.2 = 0.29160416666 ~ 29.16%

soy: 8*1.6 = 12.8%
yogurt: 6*50/100 = 3%
nutritional yeast: 830*3/16 = 155.625% ~ 155%
vector: 20*15/55 = 5.45454545455 ~ 5.45%
all bran: 60*45/36 = 75%
====================
12.8 + 3 + 155.625 + 5.4545454545 + 75 = 251.879545455

251.879545455 + 29.160416666 = 281.039962121 ~ 281%

that's actually an increase, but that won't be the norm.

vitamin b2:
guava: .04*.3 = .012
banana: .086
strawberry: .022
avocado: .195
kiwi: .017
ice cream: .24*.825 = 0.198
flax: .011
====================
.012 + .086 + .022 + .195 + .017 + 0.198 + .011 = 0.541
0.541/1.3 = 0.41615384615 ~ 41.5%

soy: 25*1.6 = 40%
yogurt: 10*50/100 = 5%
nutritional yeast: 770*3/16 = 144.375% ~ 144%
vector: 24*15/55 = 6.54545454545 ~ 6.545%
all bran: 10*45/36 = 12.5%
======================
40 + 5 + 144.375 + 6.545454545 + 12.5 = 208.420454545

208.420454545 + 41.615384615   = 250.03583916 ~ 250%. that's only a small decrease, by 0.5%.

vitamin b3:
guava: 1.084*.3 = .3252
banana: .785
strawberry: .386
avocado: 2.61   (16.3125%)
kiwi: .235
ice cream: .116*.825 = 0.0957
yogurt: (.118/2) = .059 <---data from skim milk entry
flax: .216
====================
.3252 + .785 + .386 + 2.61 + .235 + 0.0957 + .059 + .216 = 4.7119
4.7119/16 = 0.29449375

soy: 10*1.6 = 16%
nutritional yeast: 350*3/16 = 65.625% ~ 65%
vector: 36*15/55 = 9.81818181818 ~ 9.82%
all bran: 25*45/36 = 31.25%
======================
16 + 65.625 + 9.818181818181 + 31.25 = 122.693181818

122.693181818 +  29.449375 = 152.142556818

fortified: 16 + 65.625 + 9.818181818181 = 91.4431818182
natural: 29.449375 + 31.25 = 60.699375

that's also an increase by .5%. i'm surprising myself.

b4 data is here, as before:

guava: ?
banana: 1.2*1.18 = 1.416
strawberry: .5
avocado: 10.6*1.5 = 15.9
kiwi: ?
soy: 7.72*4 = 30.88
ice cream:  [2.05*(82.5 *.15)/100 + 8.2*(82.5*.25)/100] = 1.9449375

for ice cream, i've replaced the previous data with data from the usda document, as i stated previously:
i've recalculated the amount of adenine in ice cream based on the same algorithm i used to calculate orotic acid. there's essentially no purines in milk, but there is in both yogurt (2.05 g/100g) and cheese (8.2 g/100g). 

so, if it's 15% cream, (82.5 *.15) = 12.375 g. 2.05*.12375 = 0.2536875
& if it's 25% solids, 82.5*.25 = 20.625 g. 8.2*.20625 = 1.69125
0.2536875 + 
1.69125 = 
1.9449375

yogurt: (2.05/2) = 1.025
nutritional yeast:  .03*1646 = 49.38
vector: .15*4 = .6
all bran: .45*4 = 1.8
flax: ?
================
1.416 + .5 + 15.9 + 30.88 + 1.9449375 + 1.025 + 49.38 + .6 + 1.8 = 103.4459375
103.4459375/75 = 1.37927916667 ---> 138%

again, that's a slight boost.

vitamin b5:

for yeast, i took the data from a competing label, under the logic that it wasn't in the ingredients list:

guava: .451*.3 = .1353
banana: .394
strawberry: .125
avocado: 2.08  (41.6%)
kiwi: .126
ice cream: .581*.825 = 0.479325
yogurt: (.388/2) = .194 <---data from skim milk entry
flax: .069
====================
.1353 + .394 + .125 + 2.08 + .126 + 0.479325 + .194 + .069 = 3.602625
3.602625/5 = 0.720525

soy: 15*1.6 = 24%
nutritional yeast: 15*3/20 = 2.25%
vector: 19*15/55 = 5.18181818182 ~ 5.18%
all bran: 8*45/36 = 10%
======================
24 + 2.25 + 5.181818188 + 10 = 41.431818188

41.431818188 + 72.0525 = 113.484318188

that's a slight decrease and, as usual, a total effort. bananas and kiwis are usually a little bigger and contribute a little more. should i add sunflower seeds on top of avocado? it's fine, for now, but nothing can be removed - not even banana.

vitamin b6:

guava: .11*.3 = .033
banana: .433
strawberry: .047
avocado: .386
kiwi: .043
ice cream: .048*.825 = 0.0396
yogurt: (.058/2) = .029<---data from skim milk entry
flax: .033
====================
.033 + .433 + .047 + .386 + .043 + 0.0396 + .029 + .033 = 1.0436
1.0436/1.7 = 0.61388235294 ~ 61%

soy: 6*1.6 = 9.6%
nutritional yeast: 710*3/16 = 133.125% ~ 133%
vector: 25*15/55 = 6.81818181818 ~ 6.82%
all bran: 10*45/36 = 12.5%
======================
9.6 + 133.125 + 6.8181818181818181818 + 12.5 = 162.043181818

162.043181818 + 61.388235294 = 223.431417112

that's the first substantive decrease, and it's happening around the yeast, anyways. that's fine.

b7 data is here:
https://wholefoodcatalog.info/

...which is also here:

all bran souce: 

guava: ?
banana: 1.4*1.18 = 1.652 (4.72%)
strawberry: .8
avocado: 5.3*1.5 = 7.95 (22.7%)
kiwi: 1.4*.69 = 0.966
soy: 3.9*4= 15.6  (44.6%)
ice cream: 2.6*.825 = 2.145 (6.1%)
yogurt: (2/2) = 1 
all bran - 167*45/1000 = 7.515 (21.5%) <----above document 
flax - 360*(7/1000) = 2.52 (7.2%)
====================
1.652 + .8 + 7.95 + .966 + 15.6 + 2.145 + 1 + 7.515 + 2.52 = 40.148
40.148/35 = 1.14708571429

nutritional yeast: 3*300/20 = 45%
vector: (30/35)*15/55  = 0.23376623376 ---> 23.38%
======================
45 + 23.376623376 = 68.376623376

114.708571429 + 68.376623376 = 183.085194805

this is a 5% decrease, but i'm still over 171%, so it's fine - and, that's important, because this is one of the things i was worried about.

vitamin b8:


guava: 30*.001 = .03 g = 30 mg
banana: 0
strawberry: .13*100 = 13 mg
avocado: .46*150 = 69 mg
kiwi: 1.36*69 = 93.84 mg
soy: 287*.06*1.6 = 27.552 mg
ice cream:  .09*82.5 = 7.425 mg
yogurt: .16*50 = 8 mg
nutritional yeast:  3*99/20 = 14.85 mg 
vector: .05*15 = .75 mg<----data from puffed rice
all bran: 2.74*45 = 123.3 mg <-----data from "40% bran flakes", probably an underestimate
flax: 7000*[(.007*.19 + .01*.26 + .008*.24)/3] = 13.65 mg
================
30 + 13 + 69 + 93.84 + 27.552 + 7.425 + 8 + 14.85 + .75 + 123.3 + 13.65 = 401.367
401.367/1000 = 40.1367%

that is a decrease of 5.5% from the nectarine/mango entry, but the little guava holds it's own. that's fine.

b9:

source is the usda, throughout, except where it appears on labels.

guava: 49*.3 = 14.7
banana: 23.6
strawberry: 24 (6%)
avocado: 122 (30.5%)
kiwi: 17.2
ice cream: 5*.825 = 4.125
yogurt: (2/2) = 1 <---data from skim milk entry
flax: 6.09
====================
14.7 + 23.6 + 24 + 122 + 17.2 + 4.125 + 1 + 6.09 = 212.715
212.75/400 = 0.531875

soy: 6*1.6 = 9.6%
nutritional yeast: 190*3/16 = 35.625 ~ 35%
vector: 34*15/55 = 9.27272727273~ 9.27%
all bran: 10*45/36 = 12.5%
======================
9.6 + 35.625 + 9.27272727272727 + 12.5 = 66.9977272727

66.9977272727 + 53.1875 = 120.185227273

again - the mango removal results in a 10% decrease, but i'm doing ok, regardless.

natural - 53.1875 + 9.6 = 62.7875---> 62.5
fortified: 35.625 + 9.2727272727272727 + 12.5 = 57.3977272727----> 57.5
total: 57.5 + 62.5 = 120

b12 is easy:

this is the source i'm using for b12 in ice cream, at the top of the range:

fortified (from labels):
soy - 50*1.6 = 80%
yeast: 1000*3/16 = 187.5
=================
187.5 + 80 = 267.5

natural:
ice cream - .825*.78 = 0.6435. .6435/2.4 = 0.268125
yogurt - 15/2 - 7.5% <---label
=================
7.5 + 26.8125 = 34.3125

267.5 + 34.3125 = 301.8125

that's a slight increase.

b13 is more than sufficient, but is only in dairy. 


new numbers are:
ice cream - 62.5*(82.5*.25)/100 = 12.890625 ----> ~ 12.89 mg
yogurt - 62.5*(50*.0825)/100  = 2.578125 ---->2.578 mg
==============
12.890625 + 2.578125 = 15.46875 ~ 155%

b14 is also only in dairy, in this meal.

source:

ice cream: 1.9*.825 = 1.5675
yogurt: 3.3*.5 = 1.65
=============================
1.5675 + 1.65 = 3.2175

i will need to try for 100 mg total taurine, in the end - there's no real way i'm integrating this into the fruit breakfast. right now, taurine is my only red splotch. that said, i am going to bring in some seaweed, and it may give me a mild boost.

betaine:

source is back to the usda, including this supplemental site:

source for yeast:

guava: .1*.3 = .03
banana: .118
strawberry: .2
avocado: 1.05
kiwi: .345
soy milk: .8*4 = 3.2
ice cream: 1.1*.825 = 0.9075
yogurt: .7*.5 = .35
yeast: 0
vector cereal - 170*.15 = 25.5 <----"Cereals ready-to-eat, GENERAL MILLS, Whole Grain ".
all bran - 360*.45 = 162
flax seed - .217 mg 
=========================
.03 + .118 + .2 + 1.05 + .345 + 3.2 + .9075 + .35 + 0 + 25.5 + 162 + .217 = 193.9175
193.9175/550 = 0.35257727272--->35%

choline:

this is all usda, including the above document as supplemental.

guava: 7.6*.3 = 2.28
banana: 11.6
strawberry: 5.7
avocado: 21.3
kiwi: 5.38
soy milk: 24*4 = 96
ice cream: 26*.825 = 21.45
yogurt: 16*.5 = 8
yeast: 82*3/20 = 12.3
vector cereal - 19*.15 = 2.85 <----"Cereals ready-to-eat, GENERAL MILLS, Whole Grain ".
all bran - 49*.45 = 22.05
flax seed - 5.51 mg 
=====================
2.28 + 11.6 + 5.7 + 21.3 + 5.38 + 96 + 21.45 + 8 + 12.3 + 2.85 + 22.05 + 5.51 = 214.42
214.42/550 = 0.38985454545---->39%

moving to carnitine,

ice cream is here:

if you enter the right terms into google scholar and scroll down to "carnitine in human nutrition", you can see the data on rice & wheat that i'm looking for:

so, i picked 1.5 as a rough estimate for the vector as it is a little less than the 1.77 for pure rice and more than the 1.06 for wheat germ.

there's a source for soy & wheat bran here, but i'm not using soy, only wheat bran:

i can also access the source cited by the raw food bible by entering in mango (which also provides banana, guava & kiwi):

this source zeroes out strawberries & provides a direct soy milk reference:

i'm going to use this source for yeast & avocado (i'm going to p. 274, so you may need to search on the side for avocado - the complete pieces of shit at springer have struck again, it seems. assholes. fuck your copyright.), instead, because it seems to be more widely cited, for avocado:

i've found a good source by sorting through sources i cannot access for carrot, flax & canola:

there's data here for yogurt, and i'm taking the second entry of .04 mg/g because my yogurt is 0% fat. but, high fat yogurt is a potentially potent source of carnitine, relatively speaking - i've seen that number 12.2 elsewhere.

guava - .2*.3 =  .06 mg
banana - .2*1.18 = 0.236 mg
strawberries - 0 mg
avocado - 1.3*1.5 = 1.95 mg
kiwi - .2*.69 = .138 mg
soy -  .06*4 = 0.24   
ice cream - (3*2)*(82.5/150)  = 3.3 mg  [3 in 1/2 cup, 150 g per cup]
yogurt - .04*50 = 2 mg
yeast - .03*2.4 = 0.072 mg
cereal - .15*1.5 = .225 mg   
allbran - 45*15/1000 = .675 mg
flax - .51*.07 = .0357 mg
=========================
.06 + 0.236 + 0 + 1.95 + .138 + 0.24 + 3.3 + 2 + 0.072 + .225 + .675 + .0357 = 8.9317
8.9317/29 = 0.30798965517---> 30.5%, which is ideal.

i may have to take in a tad more with the seaweed, but so long as it's under 10 mg, i'm doing ok, i think.

for c,

guava - 228*.3 =  68.4 mg
banana - 10.3 mg
strawberries - 58.8 mg
avocado - 15 mg
kiwi - 64 mg
flax - 0.042 mg
=============
68.4 + 10.3 + 58.8 + 15 + 64 + .042 = 216.542
216.542/90 = 2.40602222222--->240.5

soy -  0%
ice cream - 0%
yogurt - 0%
yeast - 0%
cereal - 25*15/55 = 6.81818181818 ~ 6.82%
all bran - 0%
================================

240.602222222 + 6.81818181818181 = 247.42040404. that's a slight decrease, but my lower limit is 234 so i'm ok.

lastly, for d:

plant material - 0%
yeast - 0%
all bran - 0%

fortified soy milk - 45*1.6 = 72% of d2
ice cream - .2*.825 = .165 Î¼g of d3
vector cereal - 6*15/55 = 1.63636363636 ~ 1.64% of d3
yogurt - 15/2 = 7.5% of d3
================================
d2: 72%
d3: 7.5 + 1.636363636363 + 100*.165/15 =  10.2363636364
==================================
82%

the data for e, f1, f2 & k is approximate, but not final. i will finally finish these write-ups, one by one, over the weekend and move on as i do - which will no doubt lead me to introduce the sea-weed as the final component. but, we'll see...

so, e is next, then.

disclaimer:
i've gone to town with a few things - i'm not making up vitamins but rather filling things in. i mean, there's all these "missing vitamin names". what were they, exactly? it also gives me an excuse to work in a few things like choline that are hard to otherwise define as they are essential in some amount but not technically vitamins.

note that these numbers are scavenged and should be interpreted approximately. that's partly why i'm aiming to overshoot on most of it.

fruit bowl
(12:00)
pasta salad bowl
(20:00)
fried eggs
(0:00)
coffee
gua
va

raw
cut
1-2
30
g



ban
ana

raw
cut
1
118
g
str
awb
err
ies

raw
cut
4-8
100
g
avo
cado

raw
cut
2
150
g
kiwi
raw
cut
1
69
g
van
soy
milk

1.6
cups
400
ml
cherry
ice
cream

1
scoop

150 ml
(82.5
g)
che
rry
yog
urt
2
tbsp
50
g
nut
yst

1
big
tsp
3+
g
vec
tor
fort
crl
1/4
cup
15
g
all
bran

3/4
cups
45
g
grd
flax
seed

1
tbsp
7
g
sum red
pep
per
raw
cut
1
200
g
dur
um
wht
fet
55
g
+
h20
med
chd
chs
raw
cut
60
g
car
rot
raw
cut
1
110
g
beet
raw
cut
1
82
g
hull
hemp
seed
1
tbsp
10 g
yog
urt
nut
yst
1
med
tsp
3
g
lime
raw
cut
with
pith
1
67
g
sum frd
egg
2*
70
g
med
chd
chs
raw
slic
30
g
mar
gar
ine
2
tsp
10
g
whl
wht
brd
w/
grm
+
flax
raw
1 s
37
g
nut
yst
1
sml
tsp
2
g
jce
typ
grp
frt
250
ml
sum brw
cof
fee
700
ml
chc
soy
mlk
100
ml
sum total ul
raison
d'etre
b5,8
c
b5,7
b20
c
b5,9
c
b3,5
b7,8
b9,16
b20
c
e,k
f1
b5,8
b20
c
k
a
b3,4
b5,7
b9,12
b16
b20
d
f1,f2
a
b5,7
b12,13
b16
b20
a
b5
b12
b20
b1,2
b3,4
b5,6
b7,9
b12
b16
a
b5,7
b9
b15
b20
e
f1
b3,5
b7,8
b9
b15
b16
b20

b7
f2

b3,4
b8,9
c
b3,8
b9
a
b12
b13

a
b3
b9
b15
b3
o-3
b5
b12
b16
d

b1,2
b3,4
b6,8
b9
b12
b8
a
b2,7
b12
b16
d
a
b12
b13

d
o-3 b2,7
b12
c
caf
fei
ne

calories 20.4 105 32 240 42 96 16817.5 11.25 59.2 125 37.4 953.75 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
cost .40 .15 .77 .96 .39 .99 .43 .19 .13 .14 .39 .04 $4.98 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
a
retinol
(900 μg rae)
9.3
μg
3.54
μg
1
μg
10.5
μg
2.76
μg
16
%
9.6
%
3
%
0
~
4.1
%
0 0 35.5
r:32.5
c:3
314
μg
~
1.15
μg
30
%
918.5
μg
1.64
μg
0 - 0 1.34
μg
167
r:30
c:137
r:29
%
c:6.9
μg
15
%
10
%
0 0 - 55
r:54
c:1
0 4
%

4
r:4
c:0
261.5
r:120.5
c:141

r:300
c:-
b1
thiamin
(1.2 mg)
.0201
mg
.037
mg
.024
mg
0.101
mg
.019
mg
12.8
%
.033825
mg
3
%
~
155
%
~
5.45
%
75
%
.115
mg
281
u:29
.108
mg
~
46
%
.0174
mg
.0726
mg
.025
mg
.1275
mg

~
155
%
.02
mg
232
u:31
0.06
mg
.0087
mg
0 10.5
%
~
103
%
- 119
u:5.5
0.1
mg
3
%
11
u:8
643 -
b2 [g, j]
riboflavin
(1.3 mg)
.012
mg
.086
mg
.022
mg
.195
mg
.017
mg
40
%
.198
mg
5
%
~
144
%
~
6.54
%
12.5
%
.011
mg
250
u:41.5
.17
mg
~
22.5
%
.2568
mg
.0638
mg
.033
mg
.0285
mg
- ~
144
%
.013
mg
209.5
u:43
.684
mg
.1284
mg
0 3
%
~
96
%
- 161.5
u:62.5
.54
mg
10
%
51.5
u:41.5
672.5 -
b3
niacin
(16 mg)
.3252
mg
.785
mg
.386
mg
2.61
mg
.235
mg
16
%
.0957
mg
.059
mg
~
65
%
~
9.82
%
31.25
%
.216
mg
152
n:60.5
f:91.5

1.958
mg
~
36
%
.0354
mg
1.0813
mg
.274
mg
0.92
mg
- ~
65
%
.134
mg
128.5
n:27.5
f:101
.114
mg
.0177
mg
0 6.5
%
~
43
%
- 50.5
n:1
f:49.5
1.36
mg
4
%
12.5
n:8.5
f:4
343.5
n:97.5
f:246
f:200
each
b4*
adenine
(75 mg)
? 1.416
mg
0.5
mg
15.9
mg
? 30.88
mg
~
1.94494
mg
1.025
mg
49.38
mg
0.6
mg
1.8 mg ? 138 31.8
mg
2.2
mg
4.92
mg
0.77
mg
? ? - 49.38
mg
? 119 2.24
mg
2.46
mg
0 4.514
mg
32.92
mg
- 56
? 7.7
mg
10 323 -
b5
pantothenic
acid
(5 mg)
.1353
mg
.394
mg
.125
mg
2.08
mg
.126
mg
24
%
.479325
mg
.194
mg
2.25
%
~
5.18
%
10
%
.069
mg
113.5
u:72
.634
mg
.23705
mg
.246
mg
.3003
mg
.127
mg
.056
mg
2.25
%
.145
mg
37
u:35
2.292
mg
0.123
mg
0 5
%
1.5
%
- 54.5
u:48
1.808
mg
6
%
42
u:36
247 -
b6
pyridoxine
(1.7 mg)
.033
mg
.433
mg
.047
mg
.386
mg
.043
mg
9.6
%
.0396
mg
.029
mg
~
133
%
~
6.82
%
12.5
%
.033
mg
223
u:61
.582
mg
.0781
mg
.0396
mg
.1518
mg
.055
mg
.06
mg
~
133
%
.029
mg
191.5
u:58.5
.255
mg
.0198
mg
0 3.5
%
~
88
%
- 107.5
u:16
~
0
2
%
2 524 5882
b7 [h]
biotin
(35 Î¼g)
?
μg
1.652
μg
0.8
μg
7.95
μg
.966
μg
15.6
μg
2.145
μg
1
μg
45
%
~
23.4
%
7.515
μg
2.52
μg
183
u:114.5
6.6
μg
.22
μg
1.038
μg
5.5
μg
~
0
μg
2.73
μg

45
%
.335
μg
92
u:47
~
58.33

μg
.519
μg
~
4.547
μg
3
%
30
%
- 214
u:181
0 ~
11
%
11
500 -
b8*
inositol

(1000 mg)
30
mg
0
mg
13
mg
69
mg
93.84
mg
27.552
mg
7.425
mg
8
mg
14.85
mg
.75
mg
123.3
mg
13.65
mg
40 114
mg
41.25
mg
5.4
mg
13.2
mg
9.84
mg
- 14.85
mg
129.98
mg
33 12.6
mg
2.7
mg
~
16
mg
52.54
mg
9.9
mg
- 9 - - ~
0
82-
b9
[m, b11, r]
folic acid
(400 Î¼g dfe)
14.7
μg
23.6
μg
24
μg
122
μg
17.2
μg
n:9.6
f:0

%
4.125
μg

1
μg
~
35.5
%
~
9.27
%
12.5
%
6.09
μg
120
n:62.5
f:57.5
92
μg
~
39
%
16.2
μg
20.9
μg
89.4
μg
1.1
μg


~
35.5
%
5.36
μg
130.5
n:56
f:74.5
70.5
μg
18.1
μg
0 5
%
~
23.5
%
- 48
n:24.5
f:23.5
3.5
%
2.5
%
6
n:6
f:0
304.5
n:149
f:155.5
f:400
b12 [t]
cobalamin
(2.4 Î¼g) 
0
0
0 0 0 80
%
.6435
μg
7.5
%
187.5
%
0 0
0 301.5
n:34
f:267.5
0 0 .66
μg
0 0 0 - 187.5
%
0 215
n:27.5

f:187.5
1.338
μg
.33
μg
0 0 125
%
- 194.5
n:69.5
f:125
0 20
%
20
n:0
f:20
731
n:131
f:600
-
b13*
orotic acid
(10 mg)
- - - - - - ~
12.89
mg
~
2.578
mg
- - - - 155 - - ~
37
mg
- - - > - - 370 - ~
18
mg
- - - - 180 - - - 705
b14*
taurine
(100 mg)
0 0 0 0 0 0 1.5675
mg
1.65
mg
0 0 0 0 3.2
--->
0 0 0 0 0 - ~
5
mg
0 - - 0 0 >0 0 0 0 - 0 >0 - -
b15*
betaine
(550 mg)
0.03
mg
.118
mg
.2
mg
1.05
mg
.345
mg
3.2
mg
.9075
mg
.35
mg
0 25.5
mg
162
mg
.217
mg
35 .2
mg
77
mg
.42
mg
.44
mg
106
mg
- - 0 .088
mg
33 .414
mg
.21
mg
.01
mg
~
74.522
mg
0 - 13.5 .7
mg
.8
mg
0 81.5 150
b16*
choline
(550 mg)
2.28
mg
11.6
mg
5.7
mg
21.3
mg
5.38
mg
96
mg
21.45
mg
8
mg
12.3
mg
2.85
mg
22.05
mg
5.51
mg
39 11.2
mg
8.25
mg
9.9
mg
9.68
mg
4.92
mg
- - 12.3
mg
3.42
mg
11 438
mg
4.95
mg
1.1
mg
9.99
mg
8.2
mg
- 84 18.52
mg
24.576
mg
8 142 150
b20* [I]
l-carnitine
(29 mg)
.06
mg
.236
mg
0
mg
1.95 mg .138
mg
.24
mg
3.3
mg
2.0
mg
.072
mg
.225
mg
.675
mg
.0357
mg
30.5 ? .43175
mg
2
mg
.44
mg
~
0
mg
? ~
6
mg
.072
mg
? --> .56
mg
1
mg
.105
mg
.2997
mg
.0489
mg
- --> ~
0
mg
~
0
mg
--> 92 t:162
< 35
each
c
ascorbate
(90 mg)
68.4 mg 10.3
mg
58.8
mg
15
mg
64
mg
0
0
0
0
~
6.82
%
0
.042
mg
247
u:240.5
255.4
mg
0
%
0
%
6.49
mg
4.02
mg
0.05
mg
- 0 19.5
mg
317
(all u)
0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 564
-
d
calciferol
(15 μg)
0 0 0 0 0 d2:
72
%
d3:
.165
μg
d3:
7.5
%
0 d3:
~
1.64
%
0 0 82
u:1.1
d2:72
d3:10
0 0 d3:
.36
μg
0 0 0
? 0
2
u:2
d2:0
d3:2
d3:
3.03
μg
d3:
.18
μg
d3:
30
%
0 0 - 51
u:21
d2:0
d3:51
0 d2:
18
%
18
u:0
d2:18
d3:0
153
d2:90
d3:63
666
e
alpha-
tocopherol
(15 mg)
.219
mg
.118
mg
.29
mg
3.1
mg
1.01
mg
.1536
mg
.2475
mg
0
mg
0
mg
~
9.82
%
.5355
mg
0.022
mg
47.5
u:38
13 1 1 2 .033
mg
7 - 0 .22
mg
24 9 .5 20 1.5 0 31 0 0 0 102.5 6666
f1*
linoleic
acid
omega-6
(17 mg)
.0864
g
.0543
g
.09
g
2.534
g
.17
g
2.24
g
.226875
g
.0125
g
0 ~
.327
g
.8361
g
.414
g
6.991175
g

41.1%
.0738 .540 .3462 .0828 - 2.87 - 0 - 3.9128 3.23 .1731 1.5 .5 0 - 5.4031 ~0 .8 .8 16.45
f2*
alpha
linolenic
acid
omega-3
(1.6 mg)
.0336
g
.0319
g
.065
g
.165
g
.029
g
.32
g
.14685
g
.005
g
0 ~
.055
g
.0639
g
1.597
g
2.51225
g

157.02
%
.041 .024 .219 .0014 - .93 - 0 - 1.2154 .228 .1095 .5 .75 0 - 1.5875 ~0 .12 .12 5.45
f1:f2
ratio
- - - - - - - - - - - - 2.78 - - - - - - 2:1 - - 3.22 - - - - - - 3.40 - - - 3.02 4:1
k
(fat sol)
(120 μg
)
.78
μg
.59
μg
2.2
μg
31.5
μg
27.5
μg
11.664
μg
.2475
μg
.1
μg
0
μg
2.34
μg
.301
μg
64 10 1 1 12 - 0 - 0 - 24 9 .5 10 .5 0 - 20 0 2 2 110 <67
each
q1*
coenzyme
q10 (mg)
(30 mg)
- .272 .075 - .0375 .625 .0308 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
q2*
pyrrolo
quinoline

 quinone
(mu-g)
- 3.536 - - 2.025 .063 .2101 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
s*
salicylic
acid
(mg)
- ~0 ~1 - ~
0.375
~0 ~0 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

* not really.

complete requirements

- a: 120% of pre-formed + 100% of convertible rae, total daily. 30% + pre-formed per meal. <300% pre-formed, daily.
- b1 (thiamin): 125% w/ each meal. no upper limit..
- b2 (riboflavin): 131% w/ each meal. no upper limit.
- b3 (niacin): 125% w/ each meal, but not more than 200% in fortified sources.
- *b4 (adenine): 75 mg w/ each meal. excess (ie carnivore diet) could potentially trigger gout, not of concern to myself.
- b5 (pantothenic acid): 110% w/ each meal. no upper limit.
- b6 (pyridoxine complex): 118% w/ each meal. no meaningful upper limit - it's set at 5882% of the rdi.
- b7 (biotin): 171% w/ each meal, with 857% total as a goal. no upper limit.
- *b8 (inositol): 300 mg w/each meal, 1200 mg total. no upper limit.
- b9 (folic acid): 100% w/each meal, but not more than 400% from fortified sources, per day.
- b12(cobalamin): 250% w/each meal, including 30+% pre-formed w/each meal. 120% pre-formed per day. no upper limit.
- *b13 (orotic acid): 10 mg w/ each meal. no understood upper limit, but excess dairy is bad for heart health.
- *b14 (taurine): 30 mg w/ each meal, 120 mg total <----subject to review, may opt for 120 total, in the end.
- *b15 (betaine): 165 mg w/ each meal, 660 mg total. stay under 825 mg.
- *b16 (choline): 30% + per meal, 120% total. stay under 150%.
- *b20 (l-carnitine): at least 29 mg per day total, but no more than 47 mg per day. between 8.7 & 10 mg/meal, ideally.
- c (ascorbic acid): 234% w/ each meal, 700% total.
- d (calciferol): 40% + per meal, 160% total. 120%+ d3, total.
- e (alpha-tocopherol): 30% + per meal, 120% total
- *f1 (omega-6s):
- *f2 (omega-3s): 
- k: 30% + per meal, should not exceed 70%/meal, >120% & <200% total

incomplete requirements legend:
>300% without meeting 100%/meal
+75<=100% each meal    [=+200%<=300% total]
+50<=75% each meal   [=+100<=200% total] 
<=50% each meal    [<100% total]

specific brands used:
- natur-a vanilla soy milk (light)
- chapman's premium black cherry ice cream
- yoplait source cherry yogurt
- bulk barn nutritional yeast
- kellogg's vector cereal
- kellogg's all bran original cereal

- black diamond brand medium cheddar cheese
- selection brand pasta [metro/food basics]
- bulk barn nutritional yeast

- black diamond brand medium cheddar cheese
- irrestibles brand olive canola oil [metro/food basics]
- dempster's whole grain double flax bread
- bulk barn nutritional yeast

- natura chocolate soy milk
- no specific brand or type of coffee

diet options:

daily:

- algae oil for dpa/eha.

 2 ) pasta salad bowl:
- yogurt is high in b5 and b8 and b12 and choline and d.
- one tbsp of imitation bacon bits (isoflavones, maybe)
- garlic cloves (probably for phytonutrients)
- oregano & pepper (probably for phytonutrients)
- red clover (if locatable or foragable, for phytoestrogens)
- alfafa?
- rice bran is similar to sunflower in b5, but lower in omega-6 and lower in choline. also, less e. it would be better if i find myself strictly concerned about b5, but in the pasta bowl. this seems unlikely.
- dried whey is a little lower in both b5 & higher in choline, but also has a little b12 & has almost no fat. it's almost like the missing part of the yeast. i'm having trouble finding it though and don't think the isolate available at bulk barn is comparable. it seems to be largely seen as a waste product in yogurt production. it may be broadly useful across plates.

- sunflower seeds (raw, hulled) (1 tbsp) <---for b5, mostly, but other things too
- pro-biotic yogurt (2 tbsp)   <------b5, mostly
- 1-2 tbsp of yellow mustard [experiment]
- 25-30 ml of frank's red hot sauce (original) [experiment]
- some pasta water (1/4 cup?)
- a dash of celery salt [experiment]
- a healthy amount of black pepper [experiment]
- anchovy paste for omega-3

3) eggs:
- salami (45 g) (25% b1, 12% b3, 5% b5, 11.5% b6, 0% b9, 20% b12)
- rice (100 g) (60% b1, 35% b3, 4% b5, 6% b6, 69% b9)
- soy meat () <----only choice, really

- orange juice (1 cup) (15% b1, 4% b2, 5% b3, 5% b5, 5% b6, 19% b9, 207% c, added e?)
- grapefruit juice is high in inositol
- cranberry juice (unsweetened. need added c, has e)
- tomato juice

need: 6% b1, 75% b3, 45% b4, 65% b5, 15% b6, 25% b8, 55% b9, 60% b12, 10% k

==========

remaining items to enter or investigate:

15 amino acids:
1) histidine
2) isoleucine
3) leucine
4) lysine
5) methionine
6) phenylalanine
7) threonine
8) tryptophan
9) valine
10) arginine
11) cysteine
12) glycine
13) glutamine
14) proline
15) tyrosine
+ measure 6 non-essential

4 fatty acids:
1) linoleic acid
2) ala
3) dha
4) epa

23 minerals:
1) calcium
2) phosphorus
3) potassium
4) sulfur
5) sodium
6) chlorine
7) magnesium
8) iron
9) zinc
10) copper
11) manganese
12) iodine
13) selenium
14) molybdenum
15) chromium
16) fluoride
17) bromine
18) cobalt
19) tin
20) vanadium
21) silicon
22) boron
23) nickel
24) lead?

carotenoids (not including pro-vitamin a)
1) lutein
2) zeaxanthin
3) lycopene
4) phytofluene
5) phytoene
6) astaxanthin
7) capsanthin
8) canthaxanthin
9) cryptoxanthin

chlorophyll:
1) chlorophyll a
2) chlorophyll b

other molecules required for proper metabolic functions:
3) lipoic acid
4) glutathione precursors
5) ergothioneine  (cannot synthesize)   <-----mushrooms
10) creatine? (avoidance? creatine increases muscle mass (which is bad.) but also improves brain function (which is good). careful.) 

glucose:
i'm more concerned about diabetes than weight gain, so...
the glycemic index is:
running total...

fiber:
i don't need many different types, i just need some. i'm not worrying about this.

& water

also, let's measure flavonoids:

anthocyanidins:
1) pelargonidin
2) delphinidin
3) cyanidin
4) malvinidin
5) peonidin
6) petunidin
7) rosinidin

flavonols:
1) isorhamnetin
2) kaempferol
3) myricetin
4) quercetin
5) fisetin
6) kaempferide

flavones:
1) luteolin
2) apigenin
3) techtochrysin
4) baicalein (to avoid!)
5) norwogonin
6) wogonin
7) nobiletin

flavanones:
1) eriodictyol
2) hesperetin
3) naringenin
4) hesperidin
5) isosakuranetin
6) pinocembrin
7) sterubin

isoflavones:
1) daidzein
2) genistein
3) glycitein
4) biochanin A
5) formononetin

i should try to measure some further phytoestrogens:
1) matairesinol
2) secoisolariciresinol
3) pinoresinol
4) lariciresinol
5) coumestrol

& finally, let's also measure:
1) saponins
2) ursolic acid (& precursors)
3) cafestol
4) resveratrol
5) ellagic acid
6) coumarin
7) tyrosol
8) hydroxytyrosol
9) oleocanthal
10) oleuropein
11) gingerol
12) phytic acid
so, here's my easy cheat sheet for the breakfast.

actually, if you can get me some of this stuff at cost....



bars across the country are going to end up replaced by islamic centres.

it's a sad future, for this country - a one-way ticket into backwardsness.
how are they getting away with this, with almost nobody even calling them on it?

the truth is that, due to overwhelming amounts of immigration from people from authoritarian and conservative cultures, canada has become an overwhelmingly right-wing society, and almost overnight. we never even had this debate. we just got overrun, and woke up one day in iran.

i'd leave, but i can't.
i got a little distracted there.

i got carnitine done yesterday before the migraine hit, so it's just running through c & d before i jump to e.
so, strike up a conversation with your local pro-lockdown fascist.

"so, you want a lockdown?"

oh, yeah. cases are out of control...it's all those covidiots, surely. i saw it on twitter, so it must be true.

"right. well, i'm looking at this data..."

oh, data. great. i bet it confirms that 95% of cases are spread by drunks. alcohol - the cause of the world's problems.

"actually, it says that roughly half of the cases are being spread by schools."

no way. that's not what it said on twitter.

"yup. guess you want to shut the schools down, right?"

well...i want to follow the data. but, what am i going to do with my kids? i have one of them in daycare, but the other one's not old enough, yet. so, no - i think i'd support an exception.

"you think you deserve an exception. i see."

well, i have to go to work, right? what's the second thing on the list.

"daycares. but, you said you don't want to cancel those."

no way. i'll need an exception for that, too.

"indeed. call it the middle class privilege exception, i guess."

yeah. i guess. what's third?

"workplaces. but, you want another exception, don't you?"

well, i have to go to work.

"you could take the benefits the government is handing out."

me? on welfare?

"so, you want another exception. you sure are a special snowflake, aren't you?"

i don't like this conversation anymore. i'll have you thrown out of here.

"aww. you're offended."

i'm sorry. i'm going to go to confession.

"hey, you know what number four is, huh?"
this is the data, and what policy should be based on:


toronto has an unusually high number of restaurants, compared to other cities in ontario.

in peel, 55% of cases came from schools, churches, daycares or factories. another 19% comes from necessary commercial services, like groceries. so, what did they do? they shut down the bars - 3% of cases. 

in windsor, the cases are almost exclusively coming either from the fruit pickers in leamington or from the healthcare sector, which is still crossing the border regularly. so, what did they do? they brought in an alcohol curfew.

if these are their "solutions", i'd rather see no solutions at all.

but, we're stuck in a loop, here - they blame it on the sinners as a distraction until they get called on it, then they move away from it until conservative voices yell loud enough that they aren't doing enough, and then they go back to blaming it on the sinners. and, it seems like these are our two options - we can scapegoat the irreligious or we can do nothing at all. 

and, i'd rather we do nothing at all, because i'm the one getting attacked for a problem that is largely being created by the religious, not the irreligious.

are they going to take serious actions, in shutting down religious services and other superspreader events? great.

but, if they're just going to continue to blame it on the sinners and shut down the bars, i'll continue to support no actions at all.
if anything at all is to be done, it needs to be data-driven.

and, the things driving the spread are churches, schools, daycares and workplaces - not restaurants, bars and stores.
these people will yell and scream and stomp their feet that you need to change to fit them.

but, don't ask them to give up anything.

no - they're special.
see, and this is the thing - when these authoritarian, fascist idiots talk about a "lockdown", what they really mean is a "lockdown that doesn't affect them". so, they'll support closing restaurants and stores and bars and gyms, but they don't talk about shutting down churches, schools, daycares, workplaces, etc.

the problem is that, when you crunch the numbers, it becomes absolutely apparent that the things they want to do are absolutely pointless. if the vast majority of cases are coming from the handful of things they want want to keep running, what's the point of shutting down the activities causing marginal spread?

and, when you tease it out, you end up with all of these concepts of privilege and class underlying the things they want closed and the things they want open and a realization that this isn't really about a pandemic at all - it's about the elite trying to shut down sections of the economy that it doesn't like.

i've said from the start that we need to do this right or not do it at all. there's no evidence anybody wants to do it right, so i remain in favour of not doing it at all.

so, don't let them tell you there's not a choice. that statement should be factchecked and deleted - there is a choice, and i vote for letting it run it's course. 

...because if the choice is between banning the things i like and banning the things you like, i'll pick banning the things you like. sorry.

and, fuck you for getting superior with me about it - cram it up your superiorly sized ass.

package #2 of guava has fruit that is a little bigger and a little denser, which is good news; it means i can sometimes get my 30 g from one, without having to use two. these ones are almost like little sour, peeled avocados in terms of consistency. that's potentially a 50% savings, although i'm going to hold off on it for now and pencil it in as 25%. i need to get the cost of the meal down into the $3.50 range from the current $5.00 range, so tricks like that are going to be necessary to shave off ten cents here and there. i don't want to have to resort to frozen strawberries...they're potentially better for c storage given transport realities from source to consumption in canada, but they just end up mushy....

maybe i ought to just move to mexico. guava, avocado, kiwi, strawberry, banana...maybe i'll throw a sapote in there...

just keep me away from the peyote.
i'm not interested in unity.

i want conflict and division.
if i can get the comments restored, i would like to, just out of principle. but, as mentioned, anything worth saving was cross-posted here - and this is exactly why.

but, it's quite odd - the watch history goes back to when i started the account, but the comments start over again today.

let me be clear - to me, nothing changed in the united states last week. biden & trump are essentially interchangeable, as individuals and as politicians, with the caveat being that trump is far less annoying than biden. i'm not starting a new chapter, i'm not turning over a new leaf - this is continuity.

and, what biden should expect from me is to have his ass ripped open repeatedly.

i do not like this man, and will not pretend i do - he's a faker. and, if i hate anything it's fakers.
so, i went to check to see what might have potentially upset somebody to the point that they would whine and complain and the posts were all removed.

there were about 100 posts there; i don't think much of it was particularly profound. we'll have to see if it comes back or not.
well, they reinstated my youtube account.

so, did i get targeted by a muslim group that was enraged that i "offended" them? does anybody care that they're offended? did the cia shut me down temporarily as they checked my personal bonafides with vladimir putin, which don't exist? i don't know.
 
it seems to have been a mistake and i'm happy to put it past me, but youtube really needs to dispense with this "guilty until proven innocent" approach. it's backwards, and it's a big part of the reason why people like me want to nationalize them and make them subject to more rigorous court mechanisms.

for all i know, they did get a warrant. but, they ought to require one before they shut down somebody's account like that.

whatever, let's hope it doesn't happen again.
yeah, so i was able to fight off the migraine before i fell asleep this morning (a hot shower helped dramatically. that disgusting idiot, who is still smoking pot upstairs, did not.), but it didn't help with the exhaustion.

so, i keep losing days for no good reason and i absolutely hate it. but all i can do is start over again today, with the expectation that the day will be a little short...
so, the health authorities are claiming that they're going to get more aggressive in enforcing mask laws and restrictions on alcohol, while doing nothing to clamp down on the places that are actually spreading it -  religious gatherings, schools, etc.

to that, i say: bring it on. i'l take you to court, and i'll have these laws struck down as disproportionate and ineffective, essentially lacking a causal basis for their implementation......and a reasonable justification for their enforcement.

i don't even care if i catch it, and that's what's important, here.

if you're vulnerable, stay in - don't tell me what to do. i'm not interested.
i just took an enormous dry log of a giant shit - something i've been doing a lot lately - and it seems like the worst of it has passed with it, just leaving the actual headache, which i can mostly deal with. my calories have come up, but that bran is keeping me pretty regular, let me tell you. and, it's coming out extremely cleanly, too. it's the part before the headache that is leaving me impatient and frustrated. how do i stop this from happening?

the way it's been happening for i guess a few years, now, is that it starts with this blurred vision that is sort of like the climax of a mushroom trip. this is referred to as the "aura", but a mushroom trip is really the only way i know how to explain it - and it's actually extremely accurate, with the escherian patterns just floating by in prisms in front of me, in a way that makes it seem as though light is bending and separating. this then turns into numbness that starts in a wave from my head out to my extremities, moving from a palsy-type attack with the droopy mouth into something that feels more like a stroke. and, when that wave has passed through me, i'm left with a throbbing headache - and extreme tiredness - that can last up to 48 hours and usually requires a day or two worth of sleeping to shake off. it tends not to go away until i go for a walk or a bike ride - just go out and get some fresh air.

it seems to be triggered by dry air, car exhaust, second-hand smoke & general pollution.

tonight seems a little better, but i know better - i'll be knocked out as soon as i'm done trying to move the air out and cleaning up the consequence, and i'll no doubt be asleep until tuesday.

ugh.

Friday, November 13, 2020

can somebody explain to me what this has to do with covid-19?

- Establishments must close at midnight. 

nothing to do with covid-19 at all.

- Places selling or serving alcohol can only do so between 9 a.m. and 11 p.m. 

nothing to do with covid-19 at all

- No alcohol consumption is allowed between 12 a.m. and 9 a.m. 

nothing to do with covid-19 at all.

- Contact information must be collected for patrons of restaurants or bars. 

nothing to do with covid-19 at all.

- Limit of six people allowed to sit together at an establishment. 

nothing to do with covid-19 at all.

- Recreational programs are limited 10 people per room indoors and 25 outdoors. 

nothing to do with covid-19 at all.

meanwhile, there are no increased restrictions on religious gatherings (which are the #1 problem), no restrictions on schools, no restrictions on daycares, etc.

i thought we were done with this stupidity. i guess not... 
that was vicious, as always, but i seem to be pushing through it. having the window open is awful, but required; i need the airflow. it's nearly freezing...but i know i'll trip right back into it if i close it...

if i could just keep it down to a dull throb like i did for years previous, i could just plod through it, but i have to deal with the blurry vision and the difficulty focusing. ugh. ugh...
and, here comes another aura....migraine incoming....ugh.....
they're the bad guys, and they always were the bad guys.
the progressive movement is not merely responsible for some of the worst human rights abuses in american history.

no - the progressive movement, if extrapolated fully to the puritanical movement in full generality, is responsible for all of the worst human rights abuses in american history.

and, i am not interested in reform - it should be thrown in the trash and moved on from.
...and i know who my enemies are.

i'm not naive. i'm not disillusioned. i know who's on my side and who isn't.
from harry h. laughlin to tipper gore and beyond, the american progressive movement has been the vanguard of the country's most conservative voices, and the staunchest threat to the freedom of the most people in the country, the whole time.

they are the primary enemy of free thinking people, and they always were.
this is not surprising.

at all.
no. stop.

progressives were always religious, they were always fascistic, they never supported free speech and they always hated the gays. these are the people that wrote the sterilization laws that hitler copied - this is ground zero for fascism, from day one.

i've never aligned with these groups; i've always been clear to refer to myself as an anarchist, a socialist and even prefer to identify as a liberal. 

"progressive" is a dirty word to me, and always has been - and it should be for you to, if you're really honest about the history of the term, how it's been used and the movements it's been associated with.
needless to say, i won't be quiet - and the more these tactics continue, the more they will need to be spoken out against.

the free world will win in the end, even if it takes a thousand years for it to happen.
yeah, i seem to be under cyberattack, again - it comes up and down, and i have to reconnect to the isp by power cycling.

it's easy to deduce it's some group of annoying children that want to play some kind of stupid game, or some "progressive" group of islamofascists or christofascists trying to shut me down because i "offended" them, but the totality of evidence suggests it's the cia.

this is your tax dollars at work, folks - some asshole religionists are out there beating their wives and raping their daughters and killing their gay sons, and i'm who they go after, instead. it indicates where their priorities really are, and how captured the state is, right now.
geez, "prince" harry sure got disowned, huh?

it's almost like he's a red-headed stepchild, or something.

i wonder if he knows....they should have the decency to tell him who his father is, if they do.
the seaweed is coming....that's the last part of this...

you can get some taurine, too, if you pick the right kind - and that's a big empty space, for me.

but, you don't have to be asian to eat seaweed, it's actually a part of indigenous european cuisine:

ugh.

it looks like they're cancelling free access to google voice, which means i'm going to go back to having to use a pay phone to call out.

i simply don't want to - and simply will not - pay for a cell phone. i'd rather do without; i always have.

we'll see what actually happens, but google seems to be generally moving in that direction, and i'm not going to pay up - i'll stay behind.
so, here is the data from bulk barn, for later:


resetting my modem seems to have helped a little....for now....
so, it seems like i needed another day's worth of recovery from that migraine. the nonresponsive internet over night really didn't help and ended up zonking me out due to boredom, so let's hope that the pigs worked out whatever silly, evidence-less, paranoid fantasy they were jerking off to overnight and i can move forward today without the annoyance.

i got a detailed response from bulk barn regarding the hemp seed that answers my questions about the vitamin e content, but nothing from youtube about the mysterious account suspension.

i got up to choline done last night before it halted on me, so i'm going to kind of reboot today. there's just one more pseudo b vitamin (carnitine), then quick entries for c & d before i can get back to doing my write-up for e.

unfortunately, it seems like some absolutely revolting person upstairs is smoking today, too, so i may need to open the window to let the pollution in :(. i'm going to start by running the hot water and see how well that works in moistening up the space, first...

Thursday, November 12, 2020

this appears to quite honestly be more about incompetence than tyranny or corruption.

and, all i can really do is wait it out. 

i keep saying "they'll figure it out, eventually. right?". but, i've been waiting a long time, now, and they're not figuring it out at all - they're just further demonstrating their own ridiculous incompetence.
yeah, so whatever is going on with the youtube account seems to be connected to some kind of military and/or secret service response - they seem to be trying to force me into a proxy relationship with something downstream, and it's having severe performance consequences.

i'm left to conclude that the complete fucking dipshits really, honestly, seriously think i'm a russian spy. it's baffling, but they won't relent.

so, you read these greenwald articles and whatnot and they have this kind of assumption underlying them that we're all being lied to, that the deep state has gone haywire - they can't really believe this stuff, right?

well, why have i been under cyberattack for years now, then?

some component of these people seems to actually believe this stuff, which introduces a layer that i don't think anybody's even really contemplated. it's one thing for an intelligence apparatus to start breaking laws in a purposeful attempt to spy on it's own people - that is wrong and must be stopped, but it's at least easy to understand. it's another thing altogether when that security apparatus starts attacking civilians, and is unable to determine whether they're a threat or not.

i'm a disabled transgendered person in canada that is currently working on a nutritional flow chart that i'm uploading to my blog. that hardly justifies military attention.

and, yet..
still no response from youtube.

i'm curious. really; your guess is as good as mine. i haven't the slightest idea what this is about.
maybe i should open up a a restaurant and just get these things moving on assembly: breakfast from 8:00-16:00, supper from 16:00-00:00 and eggs from 00:00-8:00.

i'd have to charge about $10.00 for breakfast.
so, i'm starting on the final run through the b8 line for the breakfast meal, and everything is perfect - except the price, which is about $1.50 more than i'd like.

i wanted it done last night; i should get very close to a post by sunrise, at least.
so, i had to sleep this morning, but i got a little done last night.

let's try the long day starting now.
they're afraid of me, for better or worse; there was no "hate speech", i'm just getting shut down as good old fashioned statist suppression.

i'm pretty sure of that, at least.

they go after me quickly and seem to think it's important to keep me quiet. so, watch this space, i guess.
just to be clear: while i haven't cross-posted everything i've posted to youtube here, i've cross-posted everything worth taking noting of. so, if i have to leave that account for dead and set up a new one, virtually everything worth keeping is already archived here.

...which is what makes it so head-scratching. why take down the fake account?

maybe they're even under some political pressure and are ultimately on my side - maybe that's the point. i dunno...

i know i'm not dropping this easily, though. 
this is truly my own dressing, isn't it?

call it j's sauce.

yeah. you know you always wanted a good helping of j's sauce, didn't you?

this is the best you'll ever get - i've been sauceless for years.

- cheddar cheese (60 g) <----get a high retinol brand, for yourself
- nutritional yeast (1 heaping tsp)  <----b vitamins. mine has b12, too.
- hulled sunflower seeds (1 tbsp)  <-----some more bs, & b5
- hulled hemp seeds (1 tbsp) <-----omega 3s
- pro-biotic yogurt (50 g)  <-------b5, etc
- full fatted soy milk (200 ml)      <----d, b12, b7, b16
- 25-30 ml of frank's red hot sauce (original) [experiment]  [more, even] <---some beta-carotene. taste.
- lime  (1, ~37 g) (chopped, with pith) <----inositol, c
+
- 1-2 tbsp of yellow mustard [experiment] <----just doesn't work well. maybe try just a mini tsp.
- some pasta water (1/4 cup?) <----too watery, starchy
- a dash of celery salt  <----careful. too much, and it's gross.
- a healthy amount of black pepper [experiment]
- anchovy paste for omega-3
- garlic clove  <---fresh garlic has unique nutritional properties and everybody should make time for it, including me.
just an update on the "caesar" dressing:

- cheddar cheese (60 g)
- nutritional yeast (1 heaping tsp)
- sunflower seeds (1 tbsp)
- hemp seeds (1 tbsp)
- pro-biotic yogurt (50 g)
- full fatted soy milk (200 ml)    
- 25-30 ml of frank's red hot sauce (original) [experiment]  [more, even]
- lime  (1, ~37 g) (chopped, with pith)
+
- 1-2 tbsp of yellow mustard [experiment] <----just doesn't work well. maybe try just a mini tsp.
- some pasta water (1/4 cup?) <----too watery, starchy
- a dash of celery salt  <----careful. too much, and it's gross.
- a healthy amount of black pepper [experiment]
- anchovy paste for omega-3
- garlic clove

Wednesday, November 11, 2020

yeah, it's very weird.

it won't let me log in to see my comments, either - although it insists they're there. there's only 91 comments associated with this account, and i doubt many of them are very exciting. i don't even know what they are, off of the top of my head.

so, it hasn't removed anything, it's just put a restriction on logging in. and, it's taken down a site that has no videos, no content and no subscribers - leaving several sites with videos, content and subscribers up.

it's confusing, then, to say the least...

i guess that the worst thing that could happen is that i might have to set up a new fake account, but i'll let them work this out, first. i'm really completely at a loss as to what may have been posted there that some idiot whiners may have found that upsetting.

and, to be clear - i don't care. they can go cry by themselves, it's of no concern to me at all. i just wish they'd stop being fascistic about speech - no, you do not have the right to police other people's speech, and no, it does not matter if something i've said has offended you. suck it up....
like, i literally have absolutely no idea what got flagged, why it got flagged or who flagged it - it's a total mystery to me.

and, i can't mount a defence if i don't know what i'm accused of.
maybe it's the transition team, convinced i'm working for the russians, again.

lol.

hail putin! hail putin!

idiots...
everything else still seems to work, for now - they just went after that one placeholder youtube account that i've barely even ever used.

it's probably some annoying, whiny children and it'll probably get reversed, given that i don't know what they flagged or why (and don't think there's anything they could flag that could withhold much of a debate). 

youtube should really be assuming innocence, rather than guilt. but, if annoying people insist on being annoying then i guess i need to let them work out their inner problems. i just wish they'd call a psychologist, instead.

i want to finally get this done, tonight.
this channel is also now stranded, as it is connected to the fake address, and i can't log into it:

it won't be long before i set up, elsewhere - it's just a waste of time.
youtube has (bizarrely) just canceled my fake account, which is the way i'm currently logging in to the blogger interface. i have not been posting from that account (or on youtube at all.), recently - i've been posting here pretty much exclusively. they didn't provide a clear explanation, so i sent an appeal and asked for an example. essentially, i don't have the slightest fucking idea what they're even talking about...

but, i'm still able to post from here, oddly enough.

*shrug*.

but, a government shut down here may be imminent due to nonsense about "hate speech". that's just an excuse to shut me up, if it happens...
yeah, and look who the jews get to put on their five.

lucky fuckers.


they get the guy that invented modern physics.

we get a guy who at least succeeded in his own frame of reference. right?
actually, that's the best answer for the replacement for laurier on the five, isn't it?

satan.

he belongs on all money, really. you should really replace the queen with satan wherever she appears.
what?

i mean, you seem to be surprised by my viewpoints, for some reason? huh?

hail satan! hail satan!
i'm glad to see them move forward on a bill that prioritizes individual rights over religious concepts of the sanctity of life, and the more religious people that find themselves upset by it, the more that means they're doing this right.

this bill should upset the religious - the ruling is a direct negation of religious law. the government needs to hold to that, not water it down or seek a compromise.

and, the courts have been very aggressive in asserting the point: this is an individual right and a personal choice and the government needs to get out of the way, while providing access at the same time.

my body, my choice is absolute - there is no caveat for the religious beliefs of family members.

so, i crashed after all, which is sort of ok. i was awake a little after noon and am eating my 1000 calorie breakfast.

long day starts now....let's drag it on until saturday....
it is very difficult to evade any virus in this climate.

protect the weak.

don't let them out.
it's november.

if you wanted to stamp out this virus - however realistic or unrealistic that is - you missed your chance.

you will need to adjust to this for the winter, now.
no....

sunflower seeds just have too much fat to use as an avocado replacement.

i'm stuck with them, it seems. hrmmn.
i seem to be awake, at least for now, which is good because i need a long day after sleeping through the last several.

these avocados are nutritious, but expensive. can i supplement them with sunflower seeds to reduce the price?
i got up and out for a few hours today and it was certainly good for me to help shake off the migraine, even if i'm still not feeling 100% as i'm sitting here typing this. it was the end of this bizarre warm spell, which also peaked today with a 28 degree humidex, if in the midst of some blustery winds. it was quite the juxtaposition to see the sun come down today at 16:30, and have it feel like it's 21:30 in mid-summer.

so, i did some groceries on foot, i got out on a bike to finish them and i took a last walk out for a compost run. it felt great. really. the pollution has even cleared out a little....

i should be in, now, until nearly the end of the month, so i'd better get what i was doing finished soon, and i should so long as i can avoid the migraines for a while.

for the night, i'm not sure i'm going to make it. i think i need another dose of sleep...

Tuesday, November 10, 2020

you know, it's one thing when trump says stupid things, and it's another when pompeo does.

the line of thinking is that if trump decides to occupy the white house in protest then the military will come in and drag him out, but under who's orders? trump is commander in chief, pompeo is the secretary of state and he just fired the defense secretary. pompeo is also deep state...

if some troika of trump, pompeo and the new defense secretary starts ordering troops around, they are in theory supposed to continue to listen to them. 

when's the breaking point, here? 

and what does it look like?

again: it's one thing if trump is running his mouth off, and it's another one altogether when his support staff is repeating it.

that migraine's not done yet, after all.

i've been unable to wake up or do anything for about 36 hours, now. my finalized breakfast post should be done by now. i've barely eaten. i had things to do this week that look like they're going to get canceled, too.

and, it's all because somebody decided to smoke something too close to my house.
i don't really see what the ethical problem here is.

i mean, i grasp that the rules are what they are, but this strikes me as fairly trivial. if somebody has information about money laundering or something, then out with it. 

but, if you're telling me that hiring your sister as a secretary in and of itself is unethical for some reason then i'm not following you on that.

i would hope the ethics commissioner pens a recommendation that the rule be altered, rather than come down too strictly on somebody for giving her sister - a potentially close advisor - a job in her office.

Monday, November 9, 2020

i'm not saying it isn't sad and stuff, but sad gets you a pity donation, not a gig on the $5.

it really is like turfing jefferson in favour of forrest gump....
laurier is known for the manitoba compromise, an important component of our existing constitutional framework.

terry fox is known for dying before he got to manitoba.

it seems obvious what the right choice is, but that could just as well be an argument for the opposite one, with this backwards government.
canada, where we give it all we got, and fail terribly every time.

if we can't have laurier anymore, can we at least put a guy that finished the race on the bill instead? can we maintain some semblance of pride and accomplishment?

you wonder why we're third rate...

...just look at the people we look up to.
why not just put forrest gump on there?

run, terry....run.....
i really hope that the first thing the next government does is put our greatest leader, laurier, back on it.

terry fox was a failure. and a loser.

he tried really hard though, right?

nobody cares - he failed.

what an embarrassment: canada, land of the losers and failures, where the sick come to die.

it's important to realize that this law doesn't attempt to regulate wardrobe in private life, or even in private business, but rather erects a very strict separation wall between the church and the state, in order to protect children from religion.

and, it is important that you understand that this is what the argument is: that children need to be protected from religion.

it's not about race or about gender or about inclusion or exclusion, it's about a society that wishes to extricate itself from superstition and raise a generation free from it's influence.

and, i stand with that society, for those reasons - religion has no place at school, in any context.

i've talked to doctors, and while they seem to suggest i'm exaggerating (i'm not.), the consensus is that they can't do anything besides give me drugs, and i don't do drugs.

like, i won't even take an aspirin.

the pain seems to have finally subsided fully (length: 22 hours), but i'm still absolutely exhausted and will be for days.

i smelled something last night, and i felt myself triggered by it. i know that second-hand smoke of any type does that to me - it's repeatedly demonstrable. so, i have no reason to make further assumptions as to the cause, when what happened has happened before and came from a known trigger.
well, stay away from me, then.

the feeling's mutual.
i'm not getting vaccinated.

sorry.
it was about 21:00 last night that i stopped to get something to eat and got a whiff of something brutal from upstairs that may have been unusually garlicky food or very stinky feet, but that i suspect was probably somebody smoking mushrooms. whatever it was, breathing it in triggered a brutal migraine that i'm only starting to recover from, right now.

so, i lost the night, and i'm going to lose the day, too.

please, people - eat your shrooms. i don't care what you do with your body (like, at all. go kill yourself. have fun.), but the rest of the neighbourhood doesn't need to inhale your filth.

Sunday, November 8, 2020

i'm making progress on this update post, it's just a total update, so i keep redoing everything.

it will be done when it is, though.
i think everybody is realizing that the republicans are full of shit, but maybe the moment of clarity ought to be in realizing that the democrats always were full of shit, too. remember when clinton ran against nafta?


do you mean like the fema camps, glenn?

maybe what happened was that the fake left looked at how effective the collusion between right-wing media & the republican party was and looked to emulate it - so, you had left-wing news sources basically aping alex jones, and just reflecting it. what's required, here, is a little bit of perspective, and the recognition that both sides really are the same, nowadays.
again - carlson is a scary person, because he's not stupid. 

he knows better - he's evil.

and, this interview was a trap.
he's rightfully pissed off, in his usual indignant liberal kind of way.

but, he was being naive to think he was anything but a lure for dissenters, essentially a useful idiot, like assange was. it's anything but surprising that the intelligence agencies got a hold of the intercept, and that was no doubt the point of the thing, from the start.

worse, he doesn't seem to realize that he's playing into a parallel narrative.


my analysis is mostly posted here if you go back a few years, but maybe i should summarize.

- trump was not working against the deep state, but was a puppet of it. he was essentially sent to defeat clinton, who was seen as the real threat to state power.
- it may never be entirely clear why the deep state felt such a need to stop clinton like this. i've wondered, in the past, if it may have even triggered a contingency plan, due to fears of her being for sale. like, trump may have been the front for a temporary military takeover; it's never been clear if he's a hapless dunce being used or a talented actor playing a role. and, i've wondered if bernie might be in on it, too.
- bernie's line about the goldman sachs speech is essentially what i'm getting at, but the details are blurry and hard to put together. was the deep state concerned that clinton represented the interests of a specific foreign actor, or were they concerned that she was for sale to any actor? i don't know. what seems to be apparent - and this is a deduction drawn from watching media and reading between the lines, i have no secret stash of documents or anything - is that they felt she was a serious national security threat and stepped in to stop her.
- so, yes - the 2016 election was rigged in favour of trump.....by the cia.
- then, in order to distract from it, they blamed it on the russians. classic projection. and, if you want to understand how they did it, just take everything rachel maddow said and replace "russia" with "cia".
- and, then, the final step of the operation was that they tore trump down - whether he was in on it or not. but, this was a clean-up operation: the real contingency was about removing clinton's political ambitions and ending her career. to do that, they built trump up and then tore him down.
- it seemed like they intended to replace trump with pence all along, but then they didn't in the end. is it because biden stepped in, instead?
- the media in 2016 was actually extremely pro-trump. kellyanne conway was constantly on tv. while the anchors may have made certain arguments, everything was framed in a way that put trump in a positive light, albeit in a sneaky one. take the "grab them by the pussy" line, for example - this seemed designed to maximize trump's appeal to men by advertising a kind of machismo, and it probably worked. but, that flipped in 2020. it was really the media analysis that had me predict a trump win in 2016 and a biden win in 2020.

so, we're back where we started in 2012 - biden is back in the white house with deep state support, even if it's fleeting. we'll have to see if the contingency plan has run through, and things are back to normal again - or if this is a new normal, and we essentially watched a coup take place in slow motion. that part of this seems to be accurate.

but, trump was either a pawn or an active participant in it, and that's where i break with the right-wing narrative, and where glenn should really be more clear.

but, what glenn got sucked into was probably not that different than the kind of psy-ops underlying these franchised activist movements. we know that the black panthers were deeply infiltrated by the cia because enough time has elapsed to uncover it; we will no doubt learn that the same thing is true of all of these other movements, like occupy or black lives matter. my own experience in occupy had me walking away from it convinced that more than half of the participants were cops, and it was essentially a sting operation to build datasets on dissidents - like right out of 1984. 

if glenn has been chewed up and spat out, it's because he's served his purpose and is no longer useful.

but, as stated, i wish him luck and hope he finds some model to take the fuckers on with.
i'd say it's a rather curious decision by the intercept to refuse to publish this, but this kind of party-line journalism has become the norm on the fake left.

greenwald often pisses me off, but i wish him the best of luck in the future. the corporate censorship model needs an axe smashed through it. hopefully, he figures something out and leads the way.

this is an interesting site, and i'll say clearly that i like the idea of organizing content around writers better than i like the idea of organizing content around newspapers. but, i fear that, in the end, it gets taken over by twitter-style right-wing censorship, and i'd consequently seek to avoid it. besides - i actually like this blogging interface.

if you want to send me cash, send it. i could use it; i'm disabled, and my other income is almost nil.

but, i'd rather fight for a gai than start charging people for access to read my thoughts; i think this should be free to read, not put behind a paywall.
our greatest leader, wilfrid laurier, is spinning in his grave.
again: i expect this kind of stupid, right-wing rhetoric from the conservatives. it's enraging to hear it, but it's expected - they're conservatives, they're about war and veterans and guns and bibles and etc.

but, to hear it from the liberals, let alone the ndp, is truly heartbreaking and saddening. 

this country has lost it's way, and there's not much left here that's worth saving.
whole foods was right and they should stand their ground in the face of a government interfering where they have no place interfering.
it's really the perfect example of the kind of stupid capitalist practice that needs to be outright abolished.
we needlessly create tonnes of plastic waste to fund social systems for seniors that should just be directed from the public purse because we think it's important to rouse nationalist fervour and militarism on a year by year basis.
20 million of these things a year end up in landfills.

and, that's just in canada.

and, this government just announced a ban on single-use plastics, too.

i guess that grocery bags aren't sufficiently nationalist enough. maybe if they said bombardier on them, eh?

so, if you have to wear the white ones, try to find ones that aren't plastic, too.

maybe they can do the charleston for ya?

maybe that'll get 'em a nice shiny dollar?

huh?
i support taxpayer-funded healthcare, not throwing quarters at seniors on the street.
no, stop.

why are veterans - who are just a subgroup of seniors, really. i don't care that they're veterans, specifically - having to resort to raising money by selling plastic flowers?

why don't we have taxpayer-funded social systems that are sufficient to cover their needs?

then, the government attacks people for refusing to throw change at them, as they wrap themselves in the flag and yell nationalist slogans.

it's a sad parade, indeed.

Saturday, November 7, 2020

so, i watched the speech.

a lot of silly yankee nonsense...

but, there were a lot of people on that stage, there.

i hope he doesn't come down with anything.
but, i mean, the first thing he's going to do is hand out a trillion dollars to wall street under the guise of a "stimulus bill".

that's fine - hold your vomit. he's gotta pay his benefactors, first...that's how this works....
listen - don't get me wrong, here. i want substantive, meaningful policy decisions. if we get anything at all out of this, let's hope it's at least a refocus on actual policy, and less focus on meaningless stories and empty narratives.

but, i am not a person that dwells on gestures or symbols and this is not a space that will allow this guy to rest on his laurels. my criticism may present a viewpoint that is very different from the mainstream consensus, and it will be vicious and without remorse, but it will be fair and fact-based.

so, if he wants to go out there and cancel keystone xl to start, great. get to it...

i'm not holding my breath - my expectations are rock bottom, and i won't give him an inch.
arizona is still in play, btw.

trump could very well pick up 15-20K votes in pinal county, and the big democratic counties seem to be just about done.

the recount margin in arizona is very strict, but that could work either way, in the end.

again: i am acknowledging that i overshot the correction. but, that's not a done deal, even if pennsylvania is.
well, we used to let rats run around all over the place, until we realized how dangerous it was.

squirrels have moved in to replace them - but they are potentially every bit as dangerous.

it might not be this virus, but it's a matter of time. they're a ticking time bomb.
i'm worried about squirrels.

i've been saying for years that the squirrels will kill us all...

but, this is likely futile, in the long run. are we going to kill all the animals? this is just going to keep happening, until we run out of reservoirs to eliminate - or we develop immunity, naturally, via the difficult evolutionary process of trial and error....and natural selection.

the map has been tilted this way since the democrats peeled off virginia & colorado. even this election was closer than it needed to be, because the candidate was weaker than he should have been. but, all the democrats need to do is run somebody halfways respectable and they will win for the foreseeable future. if arizona eventually swings, that just cements the map - even if georgia flips back.

trump shouldn't have had a chance in 2016 and only did due to how horrible the democratic candidate was, and he didn't have a chance this year, either.

the republicans need some kind of serious way to smash the map open or they're going to need to get used to losing, and it's not at all clear how they're going to do it.
....and, the margin in pennsylvania is too big.

the outcome in georgia, specifically, won't be known for some time. but, the election is called. 

i actually agree with those pointing out that trump has the right to bring his issues to court. it's just that there's no serious chance of overturning these results, in the north.

it's done.
well, hey, you'd have to use a newton's method in a real world analysis, right?

the models went too far one way - i saw that, i called it, i was right. but, then i pulled back too far....

the next step is to pull it back the other way - and that's just how you do real world analysis.

so, i did about all i could do.

but, i'm learning, too - maybe i'll be a little more careful, next time.
so, what's my post-mortem on my analysis?

what i said was that the democrats would win back their states in the north (and they did, all three of them) and that they would be disappointed and lose in the south (and they lost texas, florida and north carolina). that said, i refrained from predicting outcomes in nevada (due to low hispanic turnout, and maybe even a swing in the hispanic vote to the republicans), iowa (it wasn't clear to me if iowa would act more like wisconsin or more like missouri) and north carolina (which is currently a real swing state) under the argument that it didn't matter. while the outcome will not be clear for some time still, and despite a disappointing night overall in the south, the democrats are currently holding to very small leads in both georgia and arizona.

the reason i argued that the polls were wrong in the south was due to over-estimating the swing to the democrats amongst educated voters. so, i made an explicit claim about a modeling error and made a prediction surrounding it.

while i insist my critique is both valid and upheld, i seem to have overshot the correction by the smallest of margins. if biden wins georgia and arizona by .01% each, which is looking to be about right, then all i had to do was overshoot the correction by a point. certainly, the models had biden doing better in both of those states, so he did underperform his predictions - it's a question of by how much, and those small differences might end up flipping both those states.

i'm posting now to move on, because it sort of doesn't matter. as i stated in my projection, the south doesn't matter because they won back the north. but, regardless of the outcome, i am right in pointing out that a polling bias existed - what i did wrong was overestimate the correction, and by what is going to end up being the very slightest amount possible.

should i have penciled in arizona and georgia as grey, then? well, i penciled in arizona as light red, indicating i was convinced that the counter-correction would still make it very close. arizona is being absorbed by california, and i actually agree that the trends are that it's becoming more democrat. but, i actually think the voter breakdown in the future will be liberal, white, wealthy democrats v. desperately poor socially conservative hispanic republicans. because abortion. georgia, i think is more of a fluke - i think biden got a helping hand from a lot of white evangelicals and that's not likely to last. so, the short answer is "no" because the modeling arguments being presented to me were not convincing. i made an explicit argument, and i think my position was grounded.

i'm not willing to concede either state, yet, and won't be until after recounts. but, it largely doesn't matter in terms of the post-mortem - regardless of the eventual winner, my counter-correction was correct, but i over-counter-corrected and it may leave me short by a hair.

and, my projection was more accurate, overall.
i rode most of the way up the main strip in town yesterday and the number of empty storefronts is starting to really pronounce itself. i don't know know how it is elsewhere, but i haven't seen it this bad since i first moved here. it's just blocks of dead space at a time...
we are, in truth, in an existential crisis as a result of this that will likely lead to massive deregulation, marketization and privatization.
so, just in case you weren't paying attention to canada's quixotic struggle against covid-19, our four biggest provinces - quebec, ontario, alberta & bc - are all reporting massive case spikes.

canada has almost ubiquitous mask use and fairly widespread mask laws. many jurisdictions have seen restrictions and lockdowns. the increase in spread is happening despite staunch measures to stop it.

...which is what the science always said was inevitable, short of chinese-style fascist tactics. so, if you want to live in a police state anyways, right? no thanks.

the reasons for the spread in canada seem to be the following:

- religion seems to be the primary non-essential culprit, and the thing that should be restricted the most, if you want to learn from our failings
- schools & workplaces are major vectors
- get togethers like thanksgiving (which aligns with colombus day in canada) are a major source of spread
- there was a very stupid election in bc two weeks ago that seems to have completely blown the situation up

bars, restaurants and night clubs do not seem to be a substantive source of transmission.

while it is clear that we are somewhat behind the united states in the epidemic curve, it is just as clear that nothing we've done has made any substantive difference at all.

the amount of debt we've taken on, however, is a potential serious threat to the longterm viability of our superior government-run social services.

so, stop pointing to canada as a success story - it's just not true, and it never was. it just took longer to get here because we're on the northern fringes of civilization.

rather, the lesson to learn from canada is that quixotic struggles against viruses are foolish.

we are an actual example of extreme mismanagement, and the very purpose of the country is under threat due to it.
in fact, i heard a rumour that they were thinking about lieberman as secretary of state.
it's weird how trump + biden looks like lieberman, isn't it?

i guess the jomentum worked out, after all.

and, that's probably not far from what we're actually going to get.
and, listen - i think warren is too right-wing, aoc is an empty slate and bernie is...bernie is playing footsie with the devil. bernie should retire....

don't smear me by associating me with them - i'm a real communist, not just a phony one.
listen

it's not complicated.

biden isn't clinton. qed.
odd that google won't give me this in it's results.

i'll update the banner soon.

"you have no respect!"

this guy sent his own son to die. 

he doesn't deserve any respect.
also, i'd like to see bookies place bets on how long it takes for biden to end up in a home and harris to take over.

six months? a year?

i doubt he lasts a year.
that said, biden is not a smart person, and he no doubt thinks he can declare a war on the common cold and win. so, we're all going to have to deal with that stupidity for who knows how long.

if he decides to push down fascist mask laws, i hope america flat out revolts.
so, i'm not going to push back against the idea that this colour system is incoherent.

but, mask mandates are incoherent, bar closures are incoherent, border closures are incoherent, etc - it's just more of the same.

and, right now, the right thing for the state to do is to pass token rules to pacify the weak (which is this government's base - the elderly and the religious), and let everybody else go about their lives.

at least they're retreating from the "blame the sinners" bullshit. that's really what i'm more concerned about than prolonging the lives of a few geriatrics.
and, let's be clear - the reason they put peel into the red is because the mayor was running his mouth off.

it's disingenuous at this point to continue to pretend that anything the government has done at any level from the start of this has had anything to do with the science. like, they're keeping the border closed. they're mandating masks. they closed bars. none of this has anything to do with science - it's all about identifying populations to blame, attacking opponents, etc.

if you were expecting a scientific response, you were being naive.

but, the science has been clear for some time - this is futile, and we need to give up and move on.
the fire is already out of control.

let it burn.
it's baffling to me that there are still some idiots out there that think this can be contained, or that it would be beneficial to do so.

now, can we get things back to normal, like, now, please?
The white poppy stands for three things. They represent remembrance for all victims of war, a commitment to peace and a challenge to attempts to glamorise or celebrate war.

i will refuse to wear a poppy, and that is the statement i intend to make - i reject the culture of war, and the romanticization of the ritual murder of our children along with it.

these people were not heroes - they were either victims, or they are criminals and should be prosecuted for it.

but, if you must wear one then consider wearing one of the white ones, as it sends a message that is more in line with the original meaning of the day, before it was corrupted by stephen harper.

what they did was decidedly uncanadian and has no place in the politics of this country.
i will again state that i am embarrassed by the behaviour of the house of commons today and hope saner heads prevail in the end.
it's supposed to be one of the major defining differences between canada and the united states.

in america, they pretend that they send their children off to die for democracy and erect them as heroes in disturbing displays of delusion.

in canada, we mourn the unnecessary loss of life and condemn those responsible for it.

we should and must resist the americanization of remembrance day into a celebration of war; it should be anything but.
"[Poppies are] to show respect for people who stood in danger for our freedom and democracy around the world."

that's a heaping pile of jingoist bullshit and mcauley should be ashamed of himself for peddling it. you are a liar, sir. you have no decency,

what the poppies are supposed to represent is the fields of children we sent to die, aimlessly, in a war that served no purpose but the geopolitical whims of the elite - as we vow to never again let them do that to us. it was a war by and for corruption, and by and for nothing else. to this day, historians can't really get their story straight about it, although everybody knows it was about resources, like oil.

it is supposed to be about mourning the loss of people that died needlessly, not about rallying around the flag. worse, this corruption of the meaning of the day is actually fairly recent, in that it is a creation of stephen harper's broadly revisionist worldview.

these people that want to turn this day into a celebration of war are traitors to the proletariat of this country and should be hoisted up on flagpoles like the fascist scum that they are.

mcauley's statements are uncanadian, and i am embarrassed by the behaviour of the house today. shame.

so, i went out today in the unusual warmth and found a store that sells the soy milk i want. bizarrely, i had called that exact store last week and they told me they don't carry it. it's a little out of the way, but it's doable on a monthly basis. there's also some chance that they might sell it at the mall, which is a little closer (and a lot more convenient). i don't mind getting the exercise.

it's not clear how long they'll sell it for...

i crashed when i got back, so i'm up and i really want to focus and finalizing this fruit bowl.

Friday, November 6, 2020

ok, so her name is ronna mcdaniel.

but, that's not what it sounded like.
wait.

so, the chair of the rnc is ronald mcdonald?

why was i not informed?
just a reality check: as a voter, i don't want to "bank my vote".

i want to wait as long as i can before i make a choice.

further, campaigns that try to coerce me into voting too early are likely to come into some serious resistance.

while allowing people to vote early may make the process more efficient for undecided voters, that doesn't mean the schedule needs to change - if you're voting two months early, you weren't in play, anyways.
so, what just happened in the united states? what are the americans saying? is this a shift left? a shift right? a rebuke of trump? what's the message in the medium?

the medium is the message, isn't it?

it's a statement about democracy, more than anything else.

but, the winner here is neither the republican party nor the democratic party but the conservative movement, as a whole - they, and only they, got what they wanted.

1) they kept the senate.
2) they functionally split the house.
3) they got the president they wanted - the more conservative option, of the two.

and, so, you'll hear all kinds of bloviated nonsense from the usual suspects about socialists taking over government. further, the fake left will take this as a fake mandate and just repeat what they say.

but, it's all bullshit.

this is a major, resounding victory for the traditional right and that is what you're going to get for the next two years, at least - and it may, in truth, be surprisingly functional, if in ways that enrage many of the people that just put mr. biden in power.

biden, pelosi and mcconnell may not find themselves disagreeing about much.

you got fooled.

again.
november 11th is no day to be proud.

it is a day to be deeply ashamed.
when you take that moment of silence on nov 11, it should be to remember this country's culpability in one of the greatest war crimes in the history of the world and all of the innocents we murdered in the process of it.
...which means, yes - many of the children we sent to early graves from 1914-1918 could not participate in this country's democracy at all.

ironically.

or enragingly.
neither women nor men who did not own property could vote in canada until 1919.
what we need to remember, regarding the first world war, was that we lived in a society where people could be conscripted by a foreign monarch, rounded up at gunpoint and sent to die for the banks.

don't let them tell you they died for democracy - they did not, that is a lie and the people telling you as much should be called liars to their face.

so, i'll clarify - i will stand with those children who were given weapons and marched to their death, in a crime of such great enormity that we should never alleviate ourselves of our guilt. what we did to our own people in the first world war is on the same level of moral monstrosity as the slave trade or the genocide of indigenous people, and those responsible for this crime should be held in an equal amount of contempt.

i will stand with these innocent victims.

i will not stand with those who volunteered - i will condemn them for perpetuity, and curse the ground they are buried in.
i would, broadly, oppose wearing poppies as an act of militaristic, jingoist garbage.

it is important that we never let the elite kill us the way they did in the first world war ever again, fair enough. but, i stand with those that opposed that war, and not with those that fought in it.
i would support this policy.

keep your politics, beliefs, values and feelings at home and away from work, school and other broad social functions. they don't belong there - as a customer, i don't want to see it or have to interact with it.

so, the pasta water just waters it down.

i think the vanilla flavour in the soy milk is enough to avoid the need for further sugar. i eat a lot of fruit, but i tend to avoid the refined stuff. i'll try it with (expired) mustard next time....

the surprise in pennsylvania is how long this is taking and how close it is. again - a lot of democratic votes are no doubt being thrown away because the signatures don't match or the stamp is in the wrong place or whatever else, and this is no doubt the reason it's so unexpectedly close.

i still think trump has the upper hand in georgia and arizona, and biden still has to concern himself with avoiding a recount in pennsylvania, which i think is unlikely. so, biden should still be officially worried about pennsylvania.

but, it's about time that it flipped, and that is probably the deciding event, in the end.
the next update took some time to take shape due to the reproportioning, so it's going to need to be a quadruple check as much as anything else. i now have 12 components rather than 11, there's a cost row added, etc. the data is going to be dramatically different, so it's going to be another day or two still, probably. but when it's done, i believe it will be the final update for the breakfast component, except to add further items for further nutrients (like seaweed, potentially).

i'm just starting to readd the vitamins, starting with a.

Thursday, November 5, 2020

by my estimate, biden needs 57% of the remaining less than 13000 non-military votes to get 1 more vote than trump and will need much higher than that to avoid a recount - especially considering that the 8000 military ballots coming in afterwards are far less likely to swing overwhelmingly to biden.

again: georgia is much closer than i expected. but, i still think trump has the edge.

why is it closer than expected? i know the narrative is about black and latino voters, but if you check the data you'll no doubt see that these demographics decreased their support for biden overall, not increased it. that's a longstanding trend. my analysis was that the polling error was a systemic bias that overestimated the effect of educated voters swinging away from trump in the south, and that seems to be broadly correct. i expect it to hold in arizona, in the end, too. so, why was georgia different enough that it almost swung?

when you're talking about small margins like this, you can essentially pick and choose. if trump wins by 800 votes in the end, you could assign that to anything - there may be 800 transgender voters in georgia, for all i know. there may be 800 executives for companies making steroids that compete directly with hydroxychloroquine. there may be 800 people in the georgia chapter of the ivana trump fan club. and, if anybody is going to defeat donald trump, it really ought to be fans of ivana trump.

and, i'm sure there would certainly be 800 white evangelical christian seniors that turned on him as a phony christofascist.

so, we can play this game in multiple different ways, but if we're to ask "what changed the most?", i suspect the right answer in the end will be that biden pulled enough christians to give trump a run, even if he didn't actually win. that doesn't make it a better or worse tactic than trying to win black voters if both tactics fail, in the end. however, it's worth pointing out which tactic involves swinging voters and which doesn't.

but, i'm surprised that it almost worked, if my intuition works out to be correct.

so, if biden pulls ahead by a few hundred votes, don't get too excited. you still have to wait until they're done.
take a deep breath, this update from arizona is going to be painful.

there's something like 2-3x as many votes left in arizona, and the spread is smaller than it is in pennsylvania.
if arizona, pennsylvania and georgia all end up in recounts - an increasingly likely truth - then this is going to drag on for weeks.
and, biden should now officially be worried about pennsylvania - because it looks like it's going to a recount, too.
you're waiting for biden to catch trump in georgia.

but, georgia is going to a recount - the closer they get, the further a decision gets.
sometimes, trump is dishonest.

more often, he's just wrong.

i suspect this is more the latter than the former.
my point is simply that if you want to understand who is going to win the election and make accurate predictions with your models then you need to pull your head out of your ass, recognize the ubiquity of corruption in the system and adjust for that absolutely clear reality in your projections.

otherwise, you're just producing nonsense that has no existence outside of a fantasy reality and are just wasting everybody's time doing it.

it's a part of the game....
and, i apologize if you misinterpreted my tone.

in politics, cheating is a part of the game; i'm not here to preach to you about morality, i'm here to analyze things as they are. if you're too aloof or morally pristine to get your hands dirty, you're going to lose and might as well stay home. a prince needs to manipulate situations to his or her advantage as opportunities arise, not sit around and worry about what's right and what's wrong.

biden outcheated bernie in the first place, as hillary did four years earlier. as an advocate of universal health care, amongst other things, i don't want to "clean up the system"; what i want is a candidate that knows how to win. as a climate activist, i'm not concerned about counting every vote; what i want is a candidate that will ram through systemic change, without bothering to gather opinions.

so, it seems like trump got outmanoeuvred and lost to a more corrupt foe.

sad.
i mean, the difference in wisconsin is twice as wide as the difference in nevada, right now.

percentages can be deceiving.

wait.
12,000 votes is never callable. 

wait.
so, these guava seeds are just...

i don't want to waste the nectar in the middle, so what i'm going to do is throw the seeds with the nectar into the freezer and wait until they build up enough that i can't grind them all up.
....and, i would suggest that a serious model should attempt to compensate for corruption.
nonononono.

when i make a forecast, efficiency at cheating is a part of the process - i explicitly, purposefully, soberly weigh how i think the cheating will happen, and what will work itself out in the end.

and, a big part of the reason i gave the south to trump and the north to biden was a perception on how the cheating will work itself out. 

so, were the polls wrong? no - the polls weren't wrong. but, not every vote gets counted. so, when the polling suggests that biden is ahead by a certain amount, you have to balance that out with the amount of cheating that's going to happen on the ground - is that enough to act as a buffer for all the democrats that will try to vote by mail and just have their ballots thrown out? well, that's the question i'm asking - that's what my projection is about.

i decided that biden was far ahead enough in the north that the cheating couldn't undo it, but he wasn't in the south, that the republican advantage on the ground (meaning: republican corruption) would be decisive, in the end.

and, right now, it looks like i nailed it - but the margins are very small.
we can ask more specific questions and get more precise answers.

do i believe that joe biden got more votes than any other candidate in history, except donald trump? well, population growth is a thing - those numbers are going to come up. but, flatly - no, i don't believe that at all. 

they're saying it's the highest turnout in over a hundred years...

...or maybe they both stuffed a lot of ballot boxes, in places where the authorities can and have and will cook the books.

and, maybe biden cheated more effectively than trump in the end - and trump needs to deal with it.

but, we're not there, yet.
fwiw, do i think that the democrats cheated?

i think it's fairly uncontroversial to point out that they unquestionably both cheated. and, i'm not in the camp that argues it tends to balance out.

you may claim there's no evidence, and while that evidence may be useful in prosecuting a case or getting a judge to agree with you (but might not be, depending on the judge), it doesn't really answer the question. these guys are pros - they're very good at cheating. they do it all of the time. they don't just leave incriminating evidence lying around. so, arguing that you can't find any evidence isn't really much of an argument for anything except the talent of the cheaters.

but, we tend to look the other way, and what trump is really up against here is a precedent - if trump decides he's going to go after the democrats for any cheating that they no doubt did, he's opening the floodgates for the democrats to go after him and his own party for their own no good behaviour. and, it's for that reason that this is unlikely to go much of anywhere beyond the lowest hanging fruit available.

what bush did to gore was just too easy to not do it, but gore dared not escalate. call him up and have a talk to him about that.

likewise, if giuliani sees an easy kill...

i don't see that happening, though - trump's comments should be interpreted politically, rather than legally.

but, are they all a bunch of liars and cheaters and thieves? 

yeah. they are.
so, i've put some hot sauce in the pasta bowl, and i'm almost satisfied with it just like that.

what is casear dressing?

wiki provides the following list of ingredients:

olive oil fortified soy milk
lemon juice fresh lime
crushed garlic, salt, Worcestershire sauce frank's red hot sauce
grated Parmesan cheese cheddar cheese (for retinol)
raw or coddled eggs yogurt

that leaves:
Dijon mustard yellow mustard
black pepper ground pepper
anchovies eww. 

my old dressing had the following ingredients:

water, soybean oil (contains citric acid) soy milk
parmesan & romano cheeses cheddar cheese
white vinegar, salt, garlic red hot sauce
frozen egg yolk yogurt
lemon juice lime

that leaves
sugar, corn starch pasta water
mustard
anchovy paste

i guess one could sub mayo instead of yogurt, but that would be daft. you'll get far more vitamins from good yogurt. i just wish i had a more fortified choice.

so, here's my caesar recipe:

200 ml of highly fortified soy milk
1 chopped fresh lime (with pith)
60 g of chopped medium cheddar cheese
65-70 ml (2 tbsp) of astro biobest yogurt (amidst pleas to refortify)
+
1-2 tbsp of yellow mustard [experiment]
25-30 ml of frank's red hot sauce (original) [experiment]
some pasta water (1/4 cup?)
a dash of celery salt [experiment]
a healthy amount of black pepper [experiment]
anchovy paste for omega-3

and, here's my total bowl:

- red peppers (200 g) 
- carrots (110 g)  
- beets (82 g)  

- pasta (55 g, dry)

- nutritional yeast (1 heaping tsp)
- sunflower seeds (raw, hulled) (1 tbsp) <---for b5, mostly, but other things too
- hemp seeds (raw, hulled) (1 tbsp)

- cheddar cheese (60 g)
- pro-biotic yogurt (2 tbsp)   <------b5, mostly
- full fatted soy milk (200 ml)    <-----d, b12, b7, b16
- lime  (1, ~37 g)
+
- 1-2 tbsp of yellow mustard [experiment]
- 25-30 ml of frank's red hot sauce (original) [experiment]
- some pasta water (1/4 cup?)
- a dash of celery salt [experiment]
- a healthy amount of black pepper [experiment]
- anchovy paste for omega-3
georgia has admittedly ended up closer than i thought. it will be interesting to see what the factor there is.

but, biden needs to get over 70% of the remaining vote, and it still seems like too much.

i still think arizona might flip, though - there's still a lot of votes, there.

and, at some point, biden needs to get worried about pennsylvania, too.

the numbers still look ok for biden, but my gut is telling me we're heading into a crises.